I Will Carry You - Clay Aiken

I WILL CARRY YOU - Clay Aiken

Yeah I know it hurts 

Yeah I know you're scared walking down the road that leads to who knows where 

Don't you hang your head don't you give up yet 

When courage starts to disappear I will be right here

[Chorus:]

When your world breaks down and the voices tell you turn around 

When your dreams give out I will carry you, carry you

When the stars go blind and the darkness starts to flood your eyes 

When you're falling behind, I will carry you

Everybody cries 

Everybody bleeds 

No one ever said that lifes an easy thing 

Thats the beauty of it, when you lose your way

Close your eyes and go to sleep and wake up to another day

[Chorus]

You should know now that you're not alone 

Take my heart and we will find, you will find, your way home 

When your dreams give out I will carry you, carry you 

When the stars go blind and the darkness starts to flood your eyes

When you're falling behind 

I will carry you, carry you 

I will carry you, carry you 

I will carry you, carry you 

I will carry you

Bengal's 2010 Wish

What to do next year? I wonder if I could make it gloriously. Hmmm... What follows next is not really a resolution, but more to what I wish to have/do/make in year 2010. Here they are:

• Be more feminine. Or should I say, ladylike?
  
• Work harder. I'll do my damnedest to be indispensable. Who knows? Along with bigger money, I might be one of the decision makers in a few years.
  
• Leadership. I have no leadership whatsoever. But I kick ass! Ask Menik, if you don't believe it. Peace, yo!
  
• Tone my body. I hope being busy would be enough for it. No budget for gyms or dieticians. Mwehehehehehh...
  
• Be totally independent. Financially and mentally.
  
• Put a better watch on my health. Eat more carefully, and move my body. Yeah, be grooooovy... *Backsound: Lady Gaga's songs. Pick one.*
• Saving. I want to have a nest egg by the time I'm forty. 
• Stay clear from any arguments and clashes. Hate clashes. Of any form. Totally a pacifist.
• Stay happy, and be even happier. Woohooo!!

Quite simple, eh? Will they all be fulfilled? Let's see it on 31st December 2010, yeah? Exactly one year from now on. I need to be focused on my job, and expand my abilities and knowledge. This year, I'm gonna be an ambitious bitch. Haha, like I could! Oh well, wish me luck, peeps...

Rant Rant Rant

I wanna get off now, boss. Pleaseee??? Let me goooo... I've got an appointment at 6, and you guys suddenly drag me out for a meeting, at the time I'm supposed to finish work. Come on!

Jeez!

Bengal's If-Onlys

Sometimes, no, most of the time I wish I could make Menik permanently pissed. Hihihiy. It's sometimes too easy to prank her, with a little help from Kucil, of course. Especially at times like this. Yo Menik, stop being too uptight. You said you are easy going. Hell, no! You're still letting Duypret playing havoc with your mind. Chill out, cuy. Do as you said you would. Open your heart to other guys. Guys are great! I love guys! Qiqiqiqiqi...

Until now, I still haven't had any plan for new year's eve. Any suggestions? Menik keeps saying that she's going to semedi and tirakat at her boarding place. Meanwhile, Kucil hasn't made any suggestion either. I want to spend old & new with my best friends. But I don't know. I guess they have other plans. Maybe I should just stay at home and sleep. *Hueeeek!*

At the moment, I have lots of 'if onlys':

• If only hotel room rates are affordable and could still get a booking for new year's eve.
• If only there's no traffic jam on NYE.
• If only my 3 best friends can make it with me. All together.
• If only Menik would eat sushi and sashimi.
• If only there's no such thing as sweet chili sauce. *Yaikss!*
• If only I could drive. At least I could cruise the highway alone if those 3 gengges women couldn't get together for NYE.
• If only Menik would be able to banish Duypret from her mind and live normally.
• If only there's always cheesecake in my fridge.
• If only every warung roti bakar made hot black coffee as Starbucks do.
• If only I have my own Milo machine at home.
• If only I had my Starbucks agenda by now.
• If only Clive Owen would convert to Islam and propose to me. *No offense. I just want him so badly. Sigh*
• If only I have a wide selection of sexy hunks in my room.
• If only I lived in Bali.
• If only I could live in Toscano instead.
• And if only I didn't ramble so much about these 'if-onlys'.

I digress. Menik, Kucil, Mama... Discuss what are we to do on New Year's Eve. As long as it doesn't involve work, I'm in. Uh, maybe I shouldn't say that just now. *Knock on wood*.

12282009, 03:15 pm

Super headache. And gets more escalated by the continous cigarettes smoke hovering all over my workplace. Seriously, why can't they work without smoking?

*Sigh*

Kenyang

Mein Gott!! All these food sitting on my table.

• Dominos Pizza
• Jesslyn Loaf Breads (Muesli and Cranberry)
• Sop Buntut
• Apple Pie
• KFC's Original Chicken and Perkedel

Hadoooooh... Ampuni aku, mom!

Bengal's Pedicuring Thoughts

After a pretty long while, I can have myself pampered again. Right at this moment, I'm having a pedicure and also hairstyling. If I had a longer time, I might have a facial, manicure, foot massage, ear therapy and also creambath. Wow, would that all be bliss! Mmmhhh...

Anyways, this Christmas, we don't visit my uncle's family as they are celebrating it out of town with the oldest child. I actually missed them. The last time I met them was months ago. He's my favorite uncle. He has 4 kids, all of em are married with children, and live in different countries. How cool is that? They're scattered across 3 continents. And I will visit them one by one when it's possible. *Yeah, you wish!*

I forgot to bring my current reading with me. I'm onto the mids of Middlesex, and I haven't touched it in nearly a month! Damn! I still have Eat, Pray and Love, and I actually can feel my body craving for more books. This is crazy! Why am I so careless about money when it comes to books? I could spend more than 300 Gs for one time spending in books. And I would not hesitate to swipe my credit cards when I was broke. Jeez...

Oh. My. Gosh! There's a guy! An attractive guy! I have a good sighting in front of me! Yaayy!!! I heart this beauty parlor. :D Hmm. He's about 35, light complexion, height about 175, and ALONE. I wonder, does that mean he's single, or the wife's busy, or might he be gay? Oh Lord, please no. Such a waste for such a goodlooking guy to be gay. Give us ladies a break! The guy's population is only one third of female population. And watching the trends now, almost half of the guys are gay and bisexual. And my family can't stop nagging as to why I'm still single? Well, duh! Talk to the hand, brotha!

Right. I woke up this morning at the usual hour, even earlier than my snooze alarm. Then I continue reading my favorite comic exactly where I left it last night. It was still lying open on my stomach. After the second comic of the day, Li'l Bangbag knocked at my door. She's already bather and looking so cute wearing a pastel polka dotted dress. Her dad breezed into my room also and laid down on the carpet then went straight back to sleep. Right then, Bengal had a cute hyperactive toddler jumping on her bed, and a hippopotamus sleeping nearby. What a sweet morning. Not long after that, Bangbag's mom yelling at us to have breakfast. Her infamous fried rice! Yaayy!! It was probably made of 4 liters of rice, and the three of us finished it all in one seating. No wonder we all look utterly sexy. *Wink*

I bought new DVDs yesterday after work. CrewCut patiently waited while I made my wide selections of movies. I knew he was bored, but what the hell. He could always leave me there. But I know he wouldn't. He lusts me to much for that! LOL. So, I started to watch those DVDs after breakfast this morning. The first disc was scratched. Shit. Then I put on The Rebound which is starred by Catherine Zeta-Jones and Justin Bartha. If I remember correctly, he was in National Treasure alongside Nicholas Cage and Diane Krueger. Not very tall. And was still too young then. But in The Rebound, I so heart him. I'm not oftenly attracted to cute or sweet looking guys. But I'm willing to make an exception for him. Uh, or I might only be infatuated with Aram Finkelstein, his character in that movie? Hey, I think I've grown more mature! I mean, I am actually able to differentiate to whom this attraction is, the actor or the character. Welldone, Bengal! Congratulation!

Hokay! Holy shitty crap! This pedicure is killing me! Oh Holy Spaghetti! It fuckin hurts! Please stop! No, go on! Oh please please make the pain disappear! Aaaaaarrrrrgh!!

Jeez, okay okay! I'll stop now. Damnit!

In a few moment, I'll be meeting Kucil n hubby for a sushi dinner. Hooorraaaay!!