Bone, Thugs, & Harmony - The Crossroads

One of their most memorable songs/videos.

Split The Body?

What a hectic month! Barely had time to stroll around. The body all stiff and cranky from all those workload, mentally and physically. Currently working on projects and proposals for 3 clients. All need full concentration, meanwhile, one project manager already requested the boss to have me working exclusively on his project. Maybe this is the time for me to split my body into 3? :p

Only have time to meet the boyfriend late at night, almost never on weekends since both of us work on weekends. Almost never see Menik and Kucil these last few weeks. Barely communicating too, only now and then I join the conversation in our BB group chat. Damn...

Please, give me time for myself... Pwiiiiissss...

The Best Friend Meets The Boyfriend

Semalem akhirnya berhasil mempertemukan cowok gue dengan salah satu sahabat gue, Menik. Sayang Kucil udah pulang. I want to know their opinion on this guy. And I know I can hang on to their judgement. :)

Jadi ceritanya, kemarin itu untuk pertama kalinya Bengal, Menik, dan Kucil bergabung secara live setelah kelahirannya si Boy, si baby yang mungil dan kebluk dan haus tetek nyokapnya. Kesian bokapnya, harus berbagi gitu. Ato malah gak kebagian jatah ya? Hihiks... Kita janjian di salah satu mall di bilangan Jakarta Selatan. Dan asal lo tau, ketemuannya di nursery room. Di ruang menyusui. Di tempat ibu dan bayi melakukan urusannya itu. Ohmaygat. Even with Bangbag, I'd never been there. Wakakakakakaa...

Setelah menjelajahi ruangan menyusui dan ganti popok itu, kita akhirnya pindah ke kafe roti bakar di lantai dasar. Sumpah, si Boy molor terus selama berjam-jam kita disitu. Yaaa, alternately molor n netek. Gaaaak ada rewel2nya. Kamu sungguh suatu keajaiban, nak. Tante bangga sama kamu. Lanjutkan! Dan gue pun jadi cantelan selimut si Boy pas lagi netek, biar dada mamanya gak keliatan sama khalayak umum. Bapaknya sih tetep aja ngintip dari atas. :p

Anyway, I digress. The point is, the guy got to meet Menik. And she seemed to think that he's okay. No negative points, yet. They talked freely and laughed a lot. Or more correctly, he made her laugh, all on my expense. Damn! He told her all stories about our school life back in junior high. But I still don't know what Kucil would think of him.

Anyway, the problem is me. I somehow think that I'm superior to him. And that won't do. I gotta change that thinking, or break up with him altogether. :(

Ne Yo - One In A Million

Cute music video. I like it. :D

Dilema Pacar Baru

Derita punya pacar ternyata banyak juga ya. Gue jadi serba salah. Udah kelamaan semi ngejomblo, begitu ada pasangan tetap *nyiiing, tetap??* gue malah jadi kusut sendiri. :p

Memang sih, asik rasanya kalo ada cowok spesial yang bisa ditelpon kapan aja, yang bisa diajak pelukan n ciuman n nakal2 dikit *eh?*, ngabisin waktu bareng kalo lagi pengen, dll dst dsb. Punya pacar yang bisa bikin lo senyum, ketawa gokil gara2 SMS gak penting, blablabla. Hal-hal ini jujur bikin gue happy. Yaiyalah, siapa juga yang nggak? :p

Tapiiiii... Pacaran sih pacaran, cuma arahnya itu loh mau kemana? Gue jelas gak pengen serius. Belum pengen lah. Cuman si Ndut bolak-balik ngomong atau ceplos bilang udah gak saatnya pacaran cuma main2, pengennya serius gitu. Damn, bikin gue panik aja kalo udah gitu. Pengennya putusin aja biar tenang, tapi gak tega juga. Susah jadi orang gak tegaan. Hiks...

Okay, I know this isn't right. But I'll try to go along. Who knows that he might be the one who could change my mind? Meanwhile, am just enjoying it to the max. :p

Bengal Has A BOYFRIEND (January 2011)

Have I told you that I'm in a relationship? Yeah, well, I am. And it feels weird. For once, I'm doing it properly. And it actually kinds of scare me off. But I'm trying, though. It's just that he seems to take this thing seriously whereas I don't.

He makes me smile, yes. He's an great kisser, yes. But those will not be enough to change my mind and get serious on this thingy. Sometimes he'd call me things like 'calon tunangan gue', 'istri gue', etc. Dude, awkward!! I'm so not into that. And I'm not that into him. And I'm not so into the permanent kind of relationship.

I wonder what I want. Kucil has settled and is having a good family life. Menik is rained by men. And I got a boyfriend. A boyfriend with serious intention toward me while I can't get myself committed. I want a guy available when I need one. But I still want my own space. Serious romance would just swamp me. So, a different kind of commitment will do very well for me. You know, those friend with benefit thingies. :p

Anyway, welcome to my life, boyfriend dear. Just don't put your hopes too high, yeah? I'm just that dysfunctional...

I miss you, Ndut...