Best of 2009

Perjalanan gue selama 2009? Penuh warna banget! Semua kejadian yang gue alamin tahun ini bener2 bermacam-macam dan bermakna. Seperti yang udah dibilang berulang kali, 2009 adalah tahun yang bener2 penuh warna untuk Bidadari Bengal. Because I don't know what to say, without further ado, here's the list in no chronological order:

• Getting closer to Menik and Kucil. They really made my year! Luv you, gals. ;)
  
• I broke up with my ex. Really broke up. I mean, for good. And I had to thank Mbul for it.
  
• Had a great time with Mbul. We had no status of relationship, but we were happy. Sadly, the happiness was cut by his death. And I don't think I could forget about it.
  
• Being busy at work. Super busy. Had no time to grieve.
  
• Errr, got a friend with benefit. Well, you know, CrewCut... Great body, no great mind. Well damn, nobody's perfect, eh? And yeah, Mbul is still lurking in the back of my mind.
  
• Last but not least, My Li'l Bangbag. That little munchkin is the source of my joy and happiness everyday. I need at least a smile from her in the morning. Or a kiss. That kid is really a bundle of joy. Luv you so so so much, kiddo.
  
• Oh, at last we got to be close again to Mama, our long lost member of the gang. She's in deep shit. And I'm really sorry for that. But I'm glad because she trusts us to stay a part of her life.
  
• Many things I forgot to mention, but surely not forgotten in time.

Maybe they don't seem much. No material things, nothing to be proud of. But I am happy. I got to be more open to my friends. And I learn to give and take, be more sympathetic, broaden my mind, and more importantly, to be more patient. Like I said few months ago, 2009 was a colorful year. That's exactly what it was. From darkest colors to lightest colors. Gloomy and merry. I had them all in 2009. What a year to be in. ;)

I Will Carry You - Clay Aiken

I WILL CARRY YOU - Clay Aiken

Yeah I know it hurts 

Yeah I know you're scared walking down the road that leads to who knows where 

Don't you hang your head don't you give up yet 

When courage starts to disappear I will be right here

[Chorus:]

When your world breaks down and the voices tell you turn around 

When your dreams give out I will carry you, carry you

When the stars go blind and the darkness starts to flood your eyes 

When you're falling behind, I will carry you

Everybody cries 

Everybody bleeds 

No one ever said that lifes an easy thing 

Thats the beauty of it, when you lose your way

Close your eyes and go to sleep and wake up to another day

[Chorus]

You should know now that you're not alone 

Take my heart and we will find, you will find, your way home 

When your dreams give out I will carry you, carry you 

When the stars go blind and the darkness starts to flood your eyes

When you're falling behind 

I will carry you, carry you 

I will carry you, carry you 

I will carry you, carry you 

I will carry you

Bengal's 2010 Wish

What to do next year? I wonder if I could make it gloriously. Hmmm... What follows next is not really a resolution, but more to what I wish to have/do/make in year 2010. Here they are:

• Be more feminine. Or should I say, ladylike?
  
• Work harder. I'll do my damnedest to be indispensable. Who knows? Along with bigger money, I might be one of the decision makers in a few years.
  
• Leadership. I have no leadership whatsoever. But I kick ass! Ask Menik, if you don't believe it. Peace, yo!
  
• Tone my body. I hope being busy would be enough for it. No budget for gyms or dieticians. Mwehehehehehh...
  
• Be totally independent. Financially and mentally.
  
• Put a better watch on my health. Eat more carefully, and move my body. Yeah, be grooooovy... *Backsound: Lady Gaga's songs. Pick one.*
• Saving. I want to have a nest egg by the time I'm forty. 
• Stay clear from any arguments and clashes. Hate clashes. Of any form. Totally a pacifist.
• Stay happy, and be even happier. Woohooo!!

Quite simple, eh? Will they all be fulfilled? Let's see it on 31st December 2010, yeah? Exactly one year from now on. I need to be focused on my job, and expand my abilities and knowledge. This year, I'm gonna be an ambitious bitch. Haha, like I could! Oh well, wish me luck, peeps...

Rant Rant Rant

I wanna get off now, boss. Pleaseee??? Let me goooo... I've got an appointment at 6, and you guys suddenly drag me out for a meeting, at the time I'm supposed to finish work. Come on!

Jeez!

Bengal's If-Onlys

Sometimes, no, most of the time I wish I could make Menik permanently pissed. Hihihiy. It's sometimes too easy to prank her, with a little help from Kucil, of course. Especially at times like this. Yo Menik, stop being too uptight. You said you are easy going. Hell, no! You're still letting Duypret playing havoc with your mind. Chill out, cuy. Do as you said you would. Open your heart to other guys. Guys are great! I love guys! Qiqiqiqiqi...

Until now, I still haven't had any plan for new year's eve. Any suggestions? Menik keeps saying that she's going to semedi and tirakat at her boarding place. Meanwhile, Kucil hasn't made any suggestion either. I want to spend old & new with my best friends. But I don't know. I guess they have other plans. Maybe I should just stay at home and sleep. *Hueeeek!*

At the moment, I have lots of 'if onlys':

• If only hotel room rates are affordable and could still get a booking for new year's eve.
• If only there's no traffic jam on NYE.
• If only my 3 best friends can make it with me. All together.
• If only Menik would eat sushi and sashimi.
• If only there's no such thing as sweet chili sauce. *Yaikss!*
• If only I could drive. At least I could cruise the highway alone if those 3 gengges women couldn't get together for NYE.
• If only Menik would be able to banish Duypret from her mind and live normally.
• If only there's always cheesecake in my fridge.
• If only every warung roti bakar made hot black coffee as Starbucks do.
• If only I have my own Milo machine at home.
• If only I had my Starbucks agenda by now.
• If only Clive Owen would convert to Islam and propose to me. *No offense. I just want him so badly. Sigh*
• If only I have a wide selection of sexy hunks in my room.
• If only I lived in Bali.
• If only I could live in Toscano instead.
• And if only I didn't ramble so much about these 'if-onlys'.

I digress. Menik, Kucil, Mama... Discuss what are we to do on New Year's Eve. As long as it doesn't involve work, I'm in. Uh, maybe I shouldn't say that just now. *Knock on wood*.

12282009, 03:15 pm

Super headache. And gets more escalated by the continous cigarettes smoke hovering all over my workplace. Seriously, why can't they work without smoking?

*Sigh*

Kenyang

Mein Gott!! All these food sitting on my table.

• Dominos Pizza
• Jesslyn Loaf Breads (Muesli and Cranberry)
• Sop Buntut
• Apple Pie
• KFC's Original Chicken and Perkedel

Hadoooooh... Ampuni aku, mom!