Reminiscing and Remembering (The Boys)

I was in a contemplative mood. And this is the result. Contemplating my past relationships and flings. Can you see the pattern in them? I'm pretty sure I have an aberration in my mind, aside of being plain hormonal, err, I mean horny.

Agy
The guy who was always in the back of my mind. Probably I am to be permanently curious. See, we started something but never got around to finish it properly the first time. Until we met again, and started a fling. Even that went intermittently and then wore off. Still, we left each other hanging. Sucks, huh?

Rex
Rex, hmm. One of my failure in nonexistent relationship. Married with kids, has a gaylike attitude, but he seemed rough at the start. But well hey, that's what happens when you jumped into a fling too soon. A lesson learned, the hard way.

Perry
A married Bataknese who's in a critical marriage condition. The backup guy who I had let go. Can't imagine myself with him for a long term, but at that time, you know what they say: dibuang sayang :p. But when he said he's ready to go through a separation with wifey and dared to propose to me, that's the end. I wasn't a girl looking for commitment. Damn, commitments scare me more than Count Dracula!

Eric
An interesting guy. He always makes the first move but sometimes acts all innocent. Knows he's attractive and has his own groupies. Seeming aloof with them and treating everyone the same. But when they're not around, then he makes his hands available and keeps hugging and touching me and making sexual innuendos. Must be careful with him, I already knowingly make him as my second resort whenever I have a conflict with Joe. And yeah, he's married.

Ben
My first kosher boyfriend, which turned out like having no boyfriend at all. No thrills, no sparks, well probably a one way spark. His way. :p Well, no more kosher than Mbul. He's actually a divorcee with a daughter. He tried to hide his status from me, but I'm not stupid. It's not like I minded, all my relationships before him had been with married guys, so his status was actually an improvement. Or so I thought.

Wes
A single guy, and one of my weakness. I actually have regrets that I led him on, especially that now I have Joe. But it's kinda hard to blow his bubble and deflate him, even though I know I'm not that into him now. So, he's turning into a liability. It scares me whenever I thought how attracted I was to him at the start of or fling, and how turned off I am now.

Jimmy
The guy who escaped untouched. A two way attraction, he even made plans of sexual positions he wanted to experiment with me, hahahaha. But he's too chicken to jump me in reality, and I'm a bit turned off by his indecision. Though I didn't mind ruining his ideals so he'd see the world as I did. Idealistic sucks, my friends. The flirting was fun while it lasts, though.

CrewCut
A superfling. Wow. What a rebound guy. Always available for me. He even said he loved me. But I know better than to snatch him away from wifey. Anyways, serious relationships were turnoffs. Pfffft...

Mbul
Not many people can say that they have a loved one who passed away, who died and left you hanging. Damnit, Mbul! He saved me from Alv. I was happy for the first time, and felt so free when we started seeing each other. but apparently He had other plan. Rest in peace, Mbul. Hope your son grows to be a good person. 

Alv
A piece of shit, a retard, a junkard, an asshole, a bully, an abuser, a coward. 5 years of abuse, and i won't have any of that anymore. I'm free as a bird. Or so I thought until I met, well, Joe. 

Joe
Well, that's for another story. :p

Call It Magic

Call it magic.
The way things fold whenever I start something with a new guy. Whether it a relationship or just a fling.

The waiting.
The feeling of delicious anticipation. Butterflies in my stomach. Making no assumption that he's already into me.

The rush.
The thrilling blood coursing through my veins, willing him to kiss me. To violate me.

The willing.
I believe in the power of will. I believe in my power of attraction. I believe in my willpower to attract the guys I want.

Call it magic.
Call it magic whenever I have my first kiss with a new guy. Yes, butterflies, thrills, attraction, magic.

Call it magic.
Call it magic when my power shot through them and have their defense crumbles. 
Call it magic when I get connected to a new guy and we fly together. Fly until the magic wears off and someone else catch my attention.
 
Pure magic. 

*album of the moment: Ghost Stories - Coldplay*

Macklemore - Thrift Shop

[Hook: Wanz]
I'm gonna pop some tags
Only got twenty dollars in my pocket
I, I, I'm hunting
Looking for a come up
This is fuckin awesome

[Verse One: Macklemore]
Walk in the club like what up? I got a big cock
Nah, Im just pumped up, bought some shit from the thrift shop
Ice on the fringe is so damn frosty
People like Damn, thats a cold ass honkey
Rolling in hella, headed to the mezzanine
Dressed in all pink except my gator shoes, those are green
Draped in a leopard mink, girl standing next to me
Probably shoulda washed this, smells like R.Kelly sheets, piss
But shit, it was 99 cents, buy it, cop it and washing it
Bout to go and get some compliments, passing up on those moccasins

Someone else has been walking in, bummy and grungy, Fuck it
I am stunting and flossing and saving my money and I am halla happy
Thats a bargain Bitch,
Imma take your grandpa style, Imma take your grandpa style, no for real, ask your grandpa
Can I have his hand-me-downs? (thank you)
Velour jumpsuit and some house slippers,
dookie brown leather jacket that I found digging.
They had a broken keyboard, I bought a broken keyboard
I bought a ski blanket, then I bought a knee board
Hello, hello, my ace man, my Mello
John Wayne aint got nothing on my fringe game, hell no
I could take some Pro Wings, make them cool, sell those
The sneaker heads would be like Ah, he got the Velcros

[Hook: Wanz]
I'm gonna pop some tags
Only got twenty dollars in my pocket
I, I, I'm hunting
Looking for a come up
This is fuckin awesome 2x

[Verse Two: Macklemore]

What you know about rocking a wolf on your noggin?
What you knowing about wearing a fur fox skin?
Im digging, Im digging, Im searching right through that luggage
One mans trash, thats another mans come up
Thank your granddad for donating that plaid button up shirt
Cause right now, Im up in her skirt
Im at the Good will, you can find me in the bins
Im that sucker, sucker searching in the section
Your grammy, your aunty, your momma, your mammy
Ill take those flannel zebra jammies, second hand and Ill rock that mother fucker
The built in onsies with the socks on the mother fucker
I hit the party and they stop in that mother fucker
They be like Oh that Gucci, thats hella tight
Im like Yo, thats fifty dollars for a t-shirt
Limited edition, lets do some simple addition
Fifty dollars for a t-shirt, thats just some ignorant bitch shit
I call that getting swindled and pimped, shit
I call that getting tricked by a business, that shirts hella don't
And having the same one as six other people in this club is a hella don't
Peep game, come take a look through my telescope
Trying to get girls from a brand? Man you hella wont, man you hella wont

(little girl) goodwill, be popping tags, yeah-ah-ah

[Hook: Wanz]
I'm gonna pop some tags
Only got twenty dollars in my pocket
I, I, I'm hunting
Looking for a come up
This is fuckin awesome

[Bridge: Wanz]
I wear your granddad's clothes, I look incredible
Im in this big ass coat from that thrift shop down the road
I wear your granddad's clothes, I look incredible
Im in this big ass coat from that thrift shop down the road

[Hook: Wanz]
I'm gonna pop some tags
Only got twenty dollars in my pocket
I, I, I'm hunting
Looking for a come up
This is fuckin awesome

(little girl) Is that your Grandma's coat? Hee hee!

Seminggu Yang Pedas

Seminggu belakangan ini, nafsu menyantap makanan super pedas semakin menggila. Setiap hari, gue makan di Warung Penyet Bu Kris, Bebek Ireng Cak Baz, Bebek Goreng Pak Joko Putro, Bebek Goreng H. Slamet, dan Ramen Sanpachi.

Entah kenapa, tiap gue ke Warung Bu Kris, pas browsing menunya yang banyak itu, gue selalu end up dengan Lele Penyet Super Pedas, Tahu Telor, dan Sayur Asem. Biarpun di awal udah bayangin ayam goreng, bebek goreng, gurame, tempe/tahu, telor, baksi, udang, teri, dll, tetep aja pesennya lele. Heran. Daaan, efek makan disini adalah bibir merah, keringetan sekujur tubuh, perut begah, dan pose nyender dengan mata sayu bego.  Dua minggu sekali ke sini masih oke lah. Tapi seminggu sekali atau dua kali, jadi flat rasanya. Cuma dapat kenyang doang.

Nah, kalo cowok gue senengnya Bebek Ireng Cak Baz. Gue sebenernya sih biasa aja sama sambel di sini. Kurang gahar. Tapi Joe suka, ya kesini deh kadang-kadang. Nah, jangan pesen yang lain selain bebek peking, karena cuma dia yang dagingnya paling empuk sampe nyaris copot dari tulang. Kalo varian bebek yang lainnya pada lumayan alot. Bagusnya di sini lo bebas ambil sambelnya, karena udah tersaji di meja.

Bebek Goreng Pak Joko Putro ini emang edan. Favorit gue selain bebek goreng adalah paru goreng, tahu, dan SAMBAL SETAN yang musti dipesan khusus. Asli SETAN nih sambel. Sukaaaaa!! Sayur asemnya juga oke loh. Kalo Joe pasti tambah pete. Gue sih jauh-jauh dari benda terkutuk itu. Haduh, jadi pengen ke sana lagi. Ntar malem boleh juga kayaknya. Gak bakal bosen kalo ke sini tiap hari sih. :D

Kalo Bebek Goreng H. Slamet sih gak usah dibahas lah ya. Emangnya masih ada yang belum pernah makan di sana? Pesanan gue, jelas paha dan kepala goreng, tahu/tempe kalo ada, tambah nasi 1/2, dan ekstra 2 sambal. Untuk gue doang. Sambal korek Slamet, I heart you, beibeh...

Ramen Sanpachi. Hmmm... Emang pedes dan bikin keringatan. Apalagi yang pake level kayak Jigoku Ramen itu. Gue biasanya sih mentok di level 8 aja. Itu udah cukup bikin mules, biarpun kadang lidah gue masih mencari sesuatu yang nendang. Sayangnya, kalo tambah level pedes, berarti rasanya makin asiiiin, padahal mah porsi mie dan kuahnya ya tetep segitu aja. Kalo mau ya lo pesen level yang kira-kira keasinannya gak bikin rambut lo rontok, terus minta tambah rawit merah deh. Yang paling oke di sini menurut gue justru bukan ramen, tapi tori karaage-nya. Yang paling gak oke, service charge dan tax-nya. Rasanya lebih nendang daripada jigoku level 15. Cih!

Dan bisa ngebahas makanan-makanan bersambel itu, jadi pengen aja makan lagi. Tapi gue bingung, seminggu ini malah belum mules dan belum boker. Sadis, sialan. Perut udah gede banget gini, belum kebuang isinya. Perlu cabe yang kayak gimana lagi sih biar bisa nguras isi perut?

Eh, ada tukang bakso lewat! Tuang sambel ke mangkok trus tambahin bakso dan kuah enak juga kayaknya. :p

Lyric: Imagine Dragons - Radioactive

Whoa, oh, oh
Whoa, oh, oh
Whoa, oh, oh
Whoa
I'm waking up to ash and dust
I wipe my brow and I sweat my rust
I'm breathing in the chemicals
(inhale) (exhale)

I'm breaking in, shaping up, then checking out of the prison bus
This is it, the apocalypse
Whoa

I'm waking up, I feel it in my bones
Enough to make my systems blow
Welcome to the new age, to the new age
Welcome to the new age, to the new age
Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh, oh, I'm radioactive, radioactive
Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh, oh, I'm radioactive, radioactive

I raise my flags, don my clothes
It's a revolution, I suppose
We're painted red to fit right in
Whoa

I'm breaking in, shaping up, then checking out on the prison bus
This is it, the apocalypse
Whoa

I'm waking up, I feel it in my bones
Enough to make my systems blow
Welcome to the new age, to the new age
Welcome to the new age, to the new age
Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh, oh, I'm radioactive, radioactive
Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh, oh, I'm radioactive, radioactive

All systems go, the sun hasn't died
Deep in my bones, straight from inside

I'm waking up, I feel it in my bones
Enough to make my systems blow
Welcome to the new age, to the new age
Welcome to the new age, to the new age
Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh, oh, I'm radioactive, radioactive
Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh, oh, I'm radioactive, radioactive

Just A Quick 'Update'

Well, just a quick update. I'm actually getting married!

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BOO!!!

Okay, I lied.

Fooled you, didn't I? No? Okay. Worth a try, anyway.

:D

Bengal is Grateful

Just wanna take the time to say grace and be thankful for this good life. Work is great at the moment. Totally busy but can't complain about the money, though... The only bad thing is I can't play with my niece, Bangbag, as much as I want to.

And the thing that I am most grateful for is Joe. He came into my life, wormed his way into my heart, and makes me fall in love with him. The first guy I could imagine to really spend the rest of my life with. A unique guy with principal. Anti-mainstream but also old-fashioned in some ways. He is many things. He also has faults. But he loves me, and I love him.

And I never thought I could be this corny. But, it's okay because I'm in love. It's a perfect excuse to be corny and silly, right? ;)

Life IS good. And I hope it lasts.

Thank you, God...