Vigil

Spent the weekend at the hospital for Gramps. He's had a liver failure, and now he's in the ICCU. I know mom is so sad, but she still prioritizes on Bangbag. I understand how she feels. I've been there. The gist is, Gramps' condition is critical, even fatal. The doctors had said that it's just a matter of time. We're counting days. We just hope that he will pass peacefully, without pains.

God bless you, Gramps. Wishing and praying seem to be the only things I can do for you at the moment. :(

Sakura Drops - Utada Hikaru

SAKURA DROPS - Utada Hikaru

Koi wo shite owari wo tsuge
Chikau koto wa kore ga saigo no Heartbreak
Sakura sae kaze no naka de yurete
Yagate hana wo sakasu yo

Furidashita natsu no ame ga
Namida no yoko wo totta su-tto
Omoide to DABUru eizou
Aki no DORAMA saihousou

Doushite onaji you na PANCHI
Nando mo kuratchaun da
Soredemo mata tatakaun darou
Sore ga inochi no fushigi

Koi wo shite subete sasage
Negau koto wa kore ga saigo no Heartbreak
Sakura sae toki no naka de yurete
Yagate hana wo sakasu yo

Kurikaesu kisetsu no naka de
Kutsu ga suriheratteku

Motto kata no chikara nuite
Kako wa dokoka ni shimatte oke
Koko kara sou tookunai darou
Mita koto mo nai keshiki

Tomaranai mune no itami koete
Motto kimi ni chikazukitai yo
Hitomawari shite wa modori
Aoi sora wo zutto tesaguri

Koi wo shite owari wo tsuge
Chikau koto wa kyou ga saishou no good day
Sakura made kaze no naka de yurete
Sotto kimi ni te wo nobasu yo

Suki de suki de doushiyou mo nai
Sore to kore to wa kankei nai

Bengal is Stressed

#nowlistening to Sakura Drops - Utada Hikaru.

Now that I've set the mood, let's start blogging.

What I need at the moment is a solitary holiday at the beach for a month. No work stuffs, no calls and messages from the office, no rundown or schedule to follow, no panicky female boss, just me and free time. Wouldn't that be such bliss?

Sometimes I wonder what would it be like to have a novel heroine life. The scene I always have in mind is me being alone on the beach. I'd be wearing a white dress, barefooted, looking far away at the horizon. It would be in the afternoon, there would be no one else but me and my mysterious thoughts. I'd imagine being burnt out and needing time off, that's why I were at that beach. Burnt out, tired, sick of the world, having no one to run to, no relationships, and all those pathetic situations. My skirt is half wet, the wind blew my long hair, some of the hair were covering my face, but I wouldn't care. Staring at the horizon, breathing deep, half waiting for who knows what, half contemplating to jump into the sea and have fun in the water, and just when I decided to swim in my white clothes, suddenly a guy on a horse galloped toward me yelling at me to stop. I would be so shocked because I thought I were alone, uncomprehending until he jump off the horse and take me into his arms. *sheesh, how more cliche could it be? :p*

He'd scream, 'What the hell do you think you're doing?'

And I'd be, like, 'Who the hell are you? Let me go!!' I'd squirm trying to get off him but he wouldn't let me go.

And the struggle would go on for some time, all those friction and unintentional touches would arouse both of us. All those time the issue would still be unclear until he took a firm hold of my arms and snap, 'Stop it, woman! I won't let you go unless you promise to stop this stupid suicide!'

I'd look so flabbergasted and froze, unbelieving how he would have the gall to think that I, I would contemplate such thing. Suicide were the last thing on my mind. 'Suicide? Who?' I'd ask stupidly.

'You! Who else?' He'd scowl and I would suddenly realize how sexy he looked.

'What? What make you think such a thing? Just who are you? How dare you accusing me like that?'

'Why else would you try to jump, with that desperate face?'

I'd stare at him, trying to make sense of everything, whether he were even real or not. 'Dude, fyi, I was gonna swim. What you called MY desperate face was me expressing my boredom before deciding to be impulsive and just go swim. Duh!'

Right, to make long story short, we would be snapping at each other for a while, but he'd get it eventually. Next scene would be how we would try to fight the growing chemistry. But seeing that I were an impatient writer, *Me? A writer? Hmmm*, I'd cut the bullshit and let's just fast forward to how he eventually let me go and I'd be stumbling backward before he grabbed and steadied me again. This time, he'd keep holding me. Our eyes caught, everything else seemed to have disappeared. Only me, him, our breathes synchronized, and he'd pull me closer, closer, and closer. I wouldn't have the power to break the hypnotizing stare, and our lips touched. Nothing else happened for a few seconds, just touched and stayed still. Then one of his hand would snake up and stay at the back of my neck, it would navigate how he want to kiss me. After a few long seconds, his lips would move. And I'd counter each of his moves, softly at first. So softly I could tell that he's losing patience. Tensions grew, and he'd snap. He'd kiss me hard, tongue invading every crevice and his other hand touching all over my body, arousing me. Bla bla bla and we'd end up in bed. And we'd fuck happily ever after. *So fucking cliche, girl! Pleeeease be more creative!!*

Well, I guess that was my stress level talking, added by being never-ending horny. And there's nothing I can do about it. Fuck you very much! :D

But the point is, I really so fucking need a holiday. *Sigh*

SYTYCD - Kayla & Kupono

This is one of my favorite SYTYCD coreography, Addiction. The song is Gravity by Sara Bareilles.

Ngabuburit

Hari ini dapet pengalaman baru dong... Ngabuburit keliling wilayah kantor gue naik motor sama Crewcut. Ternyata asik juga ya, hihihi... Adem, angin siwir-siwir, asik deh pokoknya. Kemana aja gue selama ini? :p

Asli cuma keliling doang, gak beli apa-apa. Gue jadi tau wilayah belakang kantor gue tuh kayak apa, nemu beberapa warung yang bikin gue penasaran pengen cicipin masakannya, ada daerah yang banyak pohon juga ternyata, semacam taman kota terselubung gitu deh, dll.

Pas 3 menit sebelum maghrib, kita udah sampe lagi di kantor. Parkir motor, taro helm, cuci tangan, terus bedug deh. Selamat berbuka puasaaaaa... :D

Oh, Bangbag

I miraculously survived two days of baby sitting Bangbag. My notorious Bangbag... My can't-ever-sit-still Bangbag. I'm still alive and well! Though somewhat out of breathe and sweaty. Hehee.

Bangbag is the most adorable tot in the whole wide world at the moment. At least until I have my own child. :p She is so smart, smart, and also smart. Damn, I love that kid!

Mucho mucho huggy kissy kissy muachh...

*guemeeeessss...*

Mikir Liburan

Wuidih, udah hari Jumat aja. How time flies. Secara hari ini gue gak puasa, dan cowok2 lagi pada jumatan, gue nikmati light lunch gue berupa roti sobeknya Sari Roti n Kopiko Brown Coffee. Celup celup masukin mulut. Muantaaappp... :D

Hari2 gue udah mulai agak santai, tapi belum bisa berasa free enak gimana juga. Hari ini musti meeting sama klien untuk proyek setelah lebaran, Trus ada calon klien yang ngebet banget minta dibikinin event selama Ramadhan. Lah, Ramadhan udah mulai gini, emangnya sempet ya bos?

Yang jelas kemungkinan gue bakal gak lebaranan bareng keluarga nih kalo proyek luar kotanya jadi. N bisa2 gak ketemy sama Sid, padahal dia mau ke Jakarta ntar September. Pengen nyusul dia ke Aussie, duitnya belum cukup. Paling jauh ya sampe Cengkareng bisanya. :p Rencana proyek itu sekitar 2 minggu, Sid di Jakarta cuma 2 minggu, n gak mungkin juga gue culik tu anak ikut gue. Huh...

Ato gue yang kabur ke Singapore aja skalian Sid balik ke Aussie ya? Kalo jadwal event memungkinkan sih. 3 hari aja gpp deh. Kalo bisa sih lanjut ke Bangkok kali ya, tapi kalo sendirian gak cihuy juga. Mana gue gak bisa baca tulisan Thai pula. Ke Malaysia mah ogah, mendingan gue ke Bali aja. Bagusan Jakarta juga lah daripada KL. Cuma cari alternatif liburan yang murah tapi di luar Indonesia. Ternyata susah juga ya. Hehee...

Pokoknya gue harus liburan sebelum tahun 2010 berakhir!! Ahahahahahahahahhh!!!

Puasa Apek

Hari pertama puasa, dan tepat jam 12.30 siang gue mengalami menstruasi. How lovely. Not!!!

Damn sucks!!!

Met Puasa, Y'all...

Mengucapkan Selamat Menjalankan Ibadah Puasa Ramadhan
Mohon dibukakan pintu maaf yang sebesar-besarnya
dan
Selamat beraktifitas

Ciyeeeh...

Redenominasi Rupiah

Sebenernya apa sih yang diributin sama orang2 tentang redenominasi? Jadi saat ini ada wacana tentang redenominasi mata uang Rupiah. Trus orang2 pada ribut dan panik membicarakan tentang ini.

Menurut mereka, pemerintah gak boleh melakukan hal itu. Gimana dengan uang yang ada di tangan ato di tabungan? Gak ada nilainya lagi dong? Segala macam hak milik yang udah dibeli mahal-mahal juga jadi gak ada nilainya lagi dong! Blablablablablablaaa...

Haloooohh!! Ini REDENOMINASI, cuys!! Pemangkasan jumlah nol misalnya dari '1000' rupiah jadi '1' rupiah. Setelah redenominasi itu, lo tetep bisa beli produk yang sama dengan harga 1 rupiah seperti ketika nominalnya masih pake 3 angka nol di belakang angka 1 itu. Semua masih tetap sama kok.

Gini deh, misalnya 1 dollar = Rp 9000, setelah redenominasi maka 1 dollar = Rp 9. So, sama aja kan nilainya? Ini cuman simplifying penulisan nilai uang Rupiah ajeee, bukan pemotongan nilai mata uang. Kok pada takut amat sih? Padahal kalo pemotongan nilai uang mah beda lagi, kalo gak salah itu istilahnya adalah SANERING. *Eh, bener gak tuh istilahnya?* Naaaah, kalo pemerintah mau sanering, baru deh lo boleh pada ribut. Ckckckk... Bikin gue gemes aja lo. Hiiiiiiihhhh!!!

Bengal Juga Manusia

Roadshow gue emang udah kelar, tapi kenapa gue masih juga harus nginep di kantor?? Kenapa hari Sabtu-Minggu gini malah disuruh bikin proposal lagi? Hiks. Bengal juga manusia. Bengal pengen libuuuuur... T_T

Kemarin nangis2 boring gak ada kerjaan, sekarang nangis2 minta libur. Lo ababil ato apa siy, Ngal?

:/

A Psychopath Bee

Remember Bee? She's one of my best friends. One thing I can say about her: she needs a psychiatrist. Badly. She has this problem with guys. She wants to have a boyfriend so much but anytime a guy is being close to her, one way or another, she drives him away. At times, she could be so cruel she deletes all way of contacting certain guys from her phone books. She even acts as if she doesn't recognize him if he calls. Hello!! What are you? An elementary student? Come on, Bee...

She tries to analyze every guy. But the problem is that her view of the male species is purely hers and doesn't conform to the common view. It's like she has her own world when it comes to it. I'd even think she has some kind of trauma even if she wouldn't admit it. *sigh*

Well, don't try to hard, Bee. You'll scare them away. And relax. Stop stressing yourself out. Okay?

*Bee, antara lo musti ke psikiatris ato mulai cari terapi hormon deh.*
:p

SMS Kredit Tanpa Agunan? Tae-Lah!!!

Satu hal yang bikin gue super gedeg saat ini adalah PROMO GENGGES MELALUI SMS!!! Anjing, ngehe banget tuh yang kayak gitu!

Siapa sih yang jualin data nomor handphone gitu? Apa dari operator seluler? Ato dari credit card center? Ato dari manaaaa? Setan lo pada!! Terkutuklah kalian yang jual data pribadi milik jutaan orang demi segelintir duit. Ngerepotin!!

Jadi gini ya coy. Kerjaan lo yang nawarin utang itu sama seperti setan. Kalo orangnya emang butuh, ya terserah. Cuma gue yakin bayar bunganya juga cihuy, otherwise darimana kalian dapet duit? Naah, orang yang gak butuh uang jadi, bisa jadi ada yang tergoda dan pada akhirnya malah jadi numpuk utang. Mereka ambil kredit dari kalian terus seneng2 entah itu pergi jalan2 kemana, ato beli barang2 mahal yang sebenernya juga gak perlu. Cuma gara2 ada uang hasil ngutang sama kalian itu.

In case lo pada tolol goblok idiot ngehe ya, orang yang memang butuh pinjaman uang pasti akan berusaha nyari sendiri. Gak usah lo nawarin kemana2 pake SMS blast kayak gitu. Percaya deh, banyakan yang ngutuk lo daripada seneng. Kalo sehari minimal 5 kali nerima SMS kayak gini, pengennya gue mutilasi aja lo tai pada!! Orang2 yang punya kerjaan bener dan gak cuma nyari easy money kayak kalian bener2 terganggu. Lagi meeting tau2 ada SMS alert. Biarpun hape disilent, tetep aja bakal kepikiran kira2 SMS it dari siapa dan apa isinya, apakah itu mungkin penting, mungkin dari klien, mungkin urgent. Ternyata pas dibaca, isinya adalah tawaran KREDIT TANPA AGUNAN lo yang gengges tai itu. Minimal 5 kali sehari! Gila lo ya! Pada gak tau diri banget gangguin orang kayak gini.

Mungkin setelah denger banyak keluhan, lo jadi nambahin kata2 'maaf mohon diabaikan bila tidak berminat'. HALOOOOHH!! Do you think that stupid line would make it okay for you to send us those freakin' SMS?? Tetep gengges!! Paham?? Oh well, gue rasa sih lo gak bakal paham juga. Secara lo kan tolol ya? Buang2 energi jari aja dong gue ngetik ini? Weww...

Hhhhh, legaaa... Eh gak deng. Gak lega juga sampe SMS2 setan ini berhenti. Cih!!