Dadah Bangbag...

I'm about to go out of town today. Batman, I'm comiiiiing... Be back on Sunday.

I played with Bangbag this morning before I went to office. I swear, she's soooo cute. And she slapped me again. Hiks... I love you like crazy, kid. But please stop making my face swell. Untuuuung kamu lucu, de. And ponakan gue pula. Kalo gak mah, udah Tante Bengal remes2 kamu kayak lilin mainan trus dibentuk jadi pup guguk. Hihiks... Eh gak deng. Tante Bengal gak sesadis itu kok. Paling jadi bantal aja trus ditimpa deh. Eh, tetep sadis ya? Heuh... Kamu mah mau ngapain juga pokoknya Tante Bengal gak tega ngapa2in kamu. Kamu kan permataku. Ciyeeeh... Luv u so much, kiddo. <3

Tante Bengal kerja dulu ya, sayang. Disana mo ketemu Om Batman niy. Cihuuuuy... Ntar pulangnya dibawain oleh2 baju kotor deh. Dadaaah. Muach muach...

Daaamn!!

Akhirnyaaaa... Pada balik juga ke kantor. Udah gitu, ternyata AdidasMan gak jadi dateng. Cakeeeep. Mending gue pulang dari tadi kaleee. Kampreeet!!! And I'm so fuckin' sleepy. And I just wanna go home and sleep. I'll leave the packing until tomorrow morning. It's not like there will be that much to bring.

Daaaamn!!!!

Love Is Such A Crazy Thing - Pink

I never thought I'd find someone
But you came along and made me see
That you were the only one for me
Boy I love you constantly

You are my love, my only love
Baby my heart belongs to you
Be with me, don't play with me
If you want love just let me know

Love, love is such a crazy thing
Never understood the way I was supposed to feel
Is this love for real?
Love, love is such a crazy thing
Never understood the way I was supposed to feel
Is this love for real?
(Love for real)

I've dreamed of someone like you before
But I never though I'd get the chance
To romance to someone as sweet as you
I hope you feel the same as I do

One of my favorite song back when I was still in college, I think. This is obviously not the original video. I took it from Youtube. I really like this song. It has a great melody. And as usual, lyrics is not my main concern as long as its melody and overall sound are great to listen to. Heheheee... Enjoy...

05282009, 08.00 pm

Akhirnya jadi juga gue ikutan event diluar kota. Setelah event yg waktu itu gue malah sakit dan gak bisa ikutan, minggu ini energi dan mata gue bener2 digeber. Tapi serulah, dan gue banyak belajar. Anyway, sekarang gue ditinggal sendirian di kantor. Dan gue belum makan, lapeeeer banget!! Gak bisa kemana2, gak ada orang yang bisa jaga kantor. Kampreet. Kalo udah gini masih gak kurus juga, sialan banget dah...

Udah itu semalem gue gak pulang lagi. Jam 10an malem berangkat ke venue di kota yang letaknya dekat pabrik baja terbesar di Indonesia, disana stay di lapangan sampe jam 2. Ketemu Batmaaan. Kyaaaaa... ^_^
Ihihiy, sempet2nya dia megang tangan gue sambil ngumpet dibalik mobil. Noraaak... Tapi bikin blushing. Ciihh, gak gue banget. Hihihihi... Ngomongin detail kerjaan pasti, sambil ngetawain temen gue si Boty yang kok jadi keliatan kurusan. Wahahahahah... Bos Noy yang gak bisa diem sibuk menclok sana sini, delegasi dong, Om. Ngapain lo ngajak gue? Tweww... Gapapa juga siy, jadi gue bisa berduaan secara semu sama Batman. :p

Trus nganterin Batman n Boty balik ke hotel skalian jalan pulang. Begitu sampe, masih ada barang yang harus diturunin, tapi Boty lama banget ngobrol sama Bos Noy. Jadi gue pura2 bantuin Batman bawain barang masuk ke kamar mereka. COLONGAN euy!!!!!! Bagitu taro barang, Batman langsung meluk n cium gue. Aww... Jadi merinding lagi gue. Hihiy... Slooow banget. Biarpun sebentar, tapi berasanya gimanaaa gitu. Hiks, jadi pengen lagi.

Jam 4 kurang gue dan Bos Noy sampe di kantor, trus langsung pada menuju ruangan masing2. Gue ngembat kasur di kamar depan, gelar di ruangannya Doyok, trus tidur deh. Untung gue pake jaket, dingin banget ac-nya. Tapi enak. Bangun jam 7, mandi, bikin teh panas, bengong2 di teras depan sambil nyeruput teh, trus nyeklok absen di kantor sebelah, kerja lagi deh. Dan sumpah hari ini hectic banget. Mana tadi siang orang2 pada gak ada semua. Ada yang ke venue, ada yang ngurusin produksi, dan pada belum balik sampe sekarang. Siaaal... Gue mau pulang gak bisa, karena masih harus ngebrief AdidasMan tentang satu proyek yang akan kita pitching. Padahal dia biasanya sampe sini jam 9an lewat gitu. Damn!!

Gue belum packing, masih banyak yang musti disiapin untuk event besok, mana gue kangen stengah mati sama si Li'l Bangbag. By the way, dia minggu lalu rambutnya di potong di Kiddies Cut di PIM. Modelnya jadi kayak rambutnya Agnes Monica. Tapi kerenan Bangbag dunks. Jadi fresh. Huaaaa... Pengen peluk2 n cium2 Bangbag. De, besok pagi main bareng dulu ya sebelum Tante Bengal berangkat ke kantor. Kita kan baru ketemu lagi hari Senin. Hiks... Untung kemaren pagi sempet gendong kamu pagi2. Kamu tu sekarang bawel banget tau? Mana udah bisa jawab pula. Pantesan aja mama kamu keki gara diajak makan, eh kamu ngelirik dengan tatapan yang bilang 'gak penting' trus nyaut 'ntang!!' Hihiiiy... Iya deh, De, ntar aja makannya. Jadi inget muka mama kamu pas cerita. Keki banget. Wakakakakakak...

Blue Mood

I was listening to a song over and over again. And it made my mood turned blue. Somehow, I wanted to go away for a while and just be alone. Weird how a song can make you feel that way. Songs, scents, those are two things that can make my moods go upside down. Like suddenly I'm in a different world. Shitty, eh? It's great if the mood swings the right way. But if it makes me have a homicidal/suicidal tendency, that wouldn't be a good thing, right?

Oh well, not that I get any of that tendency. It's just that some melody could get me into a blue mood. Have I ever written about my blue moods? It's not destructive actually. But I just want to be left alone and be in my own blue world, where there's no one I know, where the place is somewhere breezy and beachy and no one else were there. Or somewhere cozy and dark, where I could just let go all of my inhibitions and have no care for anything. Wouldn't that be a life? I wish I could have that, for my getaway...

Colongan Euy...

Ada colongan semalem. Hihiiiy... Cihuy dah pokoknya! ;)

Boty, Doyok, n Grandpop siap2 cabut duluan, n Boss Man juga pulang. Jadi tinggal gue, Batman, dan Boss Noy. Trus karena beliau masih banyak kerjaan di ruangannya, jadi kita bisa bebas diluar. Gue udah eneg di depan komputer, jadi gue tiduran di sofa sambil nunggu beliau kelar. Jelas aja Batman langsung nerkam gue. Wakakakakakakak... Eh, siapa nerkam siapa yak? :p We did more than just kissing and petting. It was practically almost all the way, just without putting off our clothes. He was so hard, and I was so wet. Gosh... But we agreed to finish it all on the phone when we're home. Aww...

Sekitar sejam itu asik bangetlah. Biarpun jantung gue detaknya udah kayak lagu trashmetal. Sambil liat2 sikon juga, secara sofanya di ruang depan, trus kordennya cuma ketutup setengah, trus pintunya kebuka, sama jaga2 kalo misalnya Boss Noy keluar dari ruangannya. Overall siy memuaskan. Mantap, cuuuy... Kebengalan gue yang sempat teredam jadi keluar lagi deh. Heuh... Batman kampreeet!!! *Yaiyalahh... masa Batman ayam? Wew*

Pulang jam 1 malem. Karena penjaga kantor gue lagi ada tugas lain, trus Boss Man juga udah pulang duluan, jadi gue yang pegang kunci kantor. Yang berarti gue musti dateng pagi2 banget. Sadis!! Tapi berhasil kok. Gue dateng paling pagi. Bengal hebaaaat!!! I'm so proud of me. Hihiy...

Udah ah, masih banyak kerjaan. Muach...

Saturday Night with The Gang

Spent Saturday night with the gang. We went to Citos and hung out in a coffee shop. I like the place. I arrived first, then ordered their specialty coffee and a chicken sandwich. One thing I could say about the cafe: great drinks, good place, not so good food. About 1,5 hours later, Menik and her sister came. Menik had much to tell me, about her new guy. It turned out that the guy she kind of dated had already had a girlfriend, even though they're having problems at the moment. At least that was what his assistant said to Menik.

Long after the story finished and the food gone, Kunti and her hubby came. Lastly Kucil arrived. My brother also hanged out somewhere in Citos with his friends. What a rare moment: Bidadari Bengal and his brother each had their own group in a same place. Berasa anak muda ajah. Wekekekekekekek...

We talked about nothing and everything for hours. At about midnight, we decided to move on and go karaokeing. Just when we were splitting the bill, came my angelic big chubby black brother and he paid for our bill. Aww, thanks so much, dear bro. Luv u... ;) Then we went to Inulvizta @ Poins. Apparently Kucil called Joe and Chris because they suddenly joined us. We sang and sang and sang. Oh well, more correctly, they sang and sang and slept and slept and slept an kept sleeping. Tweww... Anyway, we had a fun night. You guys rock!!

Life Is Sweet, Sometimes

Won't tell everything that happened yesterday. Just that I had a great day. Despite the rain and stuff, I ended the day with Batman. And it was sweet. Aww... Lately, his acts were so un-Batman. So different from the tough clown persona he expressed whenever everyone else was around. 

It feels weird, but I can't help loving it at the same time. Scared but happy. Weird. Ah well, life is sweet though, even if it's not all the time. Only sometimes. But that's what makes life goes more bearably.

Pose - Daddy Yankee

Hey you
Sicki da da sicki da da
Daddy Yankee you oh oh
Sicki da da Daddy Yankee
You know baby
Eso es lo que yo quiero baby

Modélame asi amor
Dandome pose, pose, pose
Pose, pose, pose
Vívetelo asi amor
Dándome pose, pose, pose
Pose, pose, pose
Modélame asi amor
Dándome pose, pose, pose
Pose, pose, pose
Vívetelo así amor
Pero amor dándome
Pose, pose, pose, pose
Ah oh ah oh

Ella explota como Jennifer
Surfea como Tyra Banks
Es algo ah ih ah

Ella es la nena de daddy
Su pelo y su sexy body
Esta a otro nivel
Intocable, no la pueden ver
Mami vente al web cam
Has la cosa de la tuya
Como nadie la sabe hacer
Ponte pa' la foto
Me saque la loto
Ahora dame la pose
Mas sensual que sepa bebe

Miss latina
Next top model
Tienes un estilo caro
Yeah! Cuando baila con nadie la comparo
Ella esta matando en el club
En mi lista la tengo en el top
Es impredecible
Tiene dulces rafugas como un rifle
Yeah! Sigue asi
Tu movimiento lo siento
Me esta quitando el aliento
Cuando te pegas frente de mi bebe

Soy la evolución, la revolución
The big big boss (oh oh)
El mejor de todos los tiempos
Ya todos lo saben (eh eh)
Ando con el musicologo
Montando presión (oh oh)
Con menes y talento de barrio al poder (eh eh)
The Big Boss (oh oh)
Eh eh, oh oh.

Another Reggaeton song. I love this music genre. Can't stop moving. Aww... Wooot....

Benci Disko

Nonton Benci Disko. Gara2 gak ada film lain yang lebih layak tonton. Gue kemaren cabut cepet dari kantor, tapi belum kepengen langsung pulang, secara ya bo, gue udah dikurung 4 hari di rumah mpe mati gaya gitu. Jadi iseng pergi nonton deh. Tapi ya maklum aja, bioskop daerah pinggiran, jadi Wolverine sana Angels & Demons belum main disitu deh. 

Emang cukup menghibur kok. Sepanjang film gue dibuat ketawa terus. Tora konyol seperti biasa, gak beda jauh gayanya sama di Extravaganza. Vincent, atapilooh... Cantik banget tu orang jadi banci! Langsing, putih, bibirnya juga cantik gitu. Kampreeet, masa gue yang cewek tulen kalah cantik ma dia. Hikss... Adik cewek mereka, gue lupa namanya, ngomongnya jawir banget. Emang dari Jogja kalo gak salah. Yang jadi bokap mereka Denny Malik. Hihiks... Jadi kayak gabungan JJS ama Saturday Night Fever. Ihhh...

Naaah, pesan terakhir bokap mereka sebelum meninggal, mereka harus cariin suami buat si adik cewek. Trus adik ceweknya maunya cowok yang jago disko. Dan dia udah jatuh cinta sama seorang raja disko yang diperankan oleh Arie Untung. Najis banget deh. Udah ah, gue gak tega ceritainnya. Bayangin lagi aja gak tega. Nonton aja gih. Hiks... Lo pasti ketawa kok. Hihihi... Ini resensi film yang aneh dan gak jelas deh.

Ya pokoknya, mereka semua punya bokap yang sama dan ibu yang berbeda. Si Tora dan Vincent benci banget sama disko soalnya karena disko mereka kehilangan ayah mereka, sementara si adik cewek pengen cowok yang jago disko seperti ayah mereka. Trus biar si Arie Untung mau nikah sama si adik cewek, Tora dan Vincent musti ikut dance competition. Mereka belajar dari kitab disko warisan si Denny Malik. Paraaah... Trus Tora yang menang, and they live happily ever after, Cih...

Mati Judul

Bingung mau nulis apa lagi. Mati ide gara2 kelamaan gak ngeblog. Biasanya kan hampir tiap hari. Lah ini, seminggu kayaknya ada deh gue gak nyentuh komputer. *Jaaah... segitunya amat lo, Ngal??*

Au ah. Bete. Gue jadi ngeluh mulu neh. Mati ide, mati gaya, mati angin, mati aja luuuu!!!! Kampret!!

I'm Back I'm Back I'm Back!!!

Akhirnyaaaaaaa... I'm back to work. Setelah berhari-hari terkapar kayak orang sakit bener aja. Keluar kamar aja dipelototin, apalagi keluar rumah. Sabtu kemaren gue udah mandi mau siap2 ngabur ke salah satu event kantor gue, kakak gue berdiri dengan gagah dan garangnya di depan kamar. Lanjut deh karantina gue. Hiks.. Tapi hikmahnya, gue dikasih BlackBerry ma dia. Xixixixi...

Ntar deh ceritanya dilanjutin. Dadaah...

Bidadari Bengal The Paranoid Blogger

Gini nih kalo punya blog anonim dan isinya rada gak bener. Sekarang gue cuma bisa internet di kantor, dan gue jadi parno kalo ngeblog. Takut ada anak-anak yang liat trus jadi pada tau kalo gue punya blog. Hancurlah semua. Hihiiy... Ternyata susah juga ya kalo punya identitas rahasia tapi tidak diimbangi dengan fasilitas memadai, seperti my own laptop and unlimited internet connection gettoh... 

I missed writing freely. Oh well, I know my writing is not that good, but still, it's a way to express what's inside me. Not only for trashing, but also for learning how to process my thinking. Shallow thinking, hahah... Hell, I want to write. Shall I stole this MacBook? *Evil grins*. 

Now, everytime I blog, I must sneak, and hide the tab whenever I hear someone nearby. That sucks. I can't think. I can't analyze anything. So what if I'm not a thinker? I still have a brain, man! Fudge!!!

Gue, Bos, dan Macbook

Jaaah... Minggu ini kenyang banget gue ditrongkongin bos di depan macbook. Ini mah judulnya udah bukan proyek Rara Jonggrang lagi, tapi Nanosecond. Halahh... Jadi itu toh maksudnya narik gue ke divisi ini? Wekekekekek... Piss ah, bos. Gue kerjain kok apapun yang kalian request, asal jangan lupa suplemen dan vitamin untuk tubuh maupun dompet gue yak. Bangkrut juga gue kalo tiap malem naik taxi. Waakss...

05122009, 06:45 pm

Dari hari Jumat si Alv mulai ngabisin batere hape gue lagi. SMS dan telponnya gak pernah gue bales. Sejak semalem, gue mulai respon, dengan bantuan Batman juga. Alv mulai kepancing lagi emosinya, dan akhirnya tadi siang mereka ketemu di salah satu tempat. Gue gak ikut. So far siy Alv ternyata cemen dan cupu, gak sesuai ancamannya. Padahal dia tadi sempet SMS ancaman lagi ditambah bilang bahwa Batman adalah TO dia. Tolol gak? Ya dibabat lah sama Batman.

Dan sampe sekarang dia belum hubungin gue lagi. Moga2 beneran karena udah nyerah. Amiiin. Gue cape aja kalo dia masih cari gara2. Kampret!!

Batman, whatever your reasons were, you're simply the best, man... XOXO. ;)

05082009, 07:29 pm

Not feeling well at all today. Went to office by ojek and it was raining, plus I didn't have any raincoat on me. Now I got a fever. Just wanna go home.

Had a great time last night with Batman. Never thought we would have done that right there and then. Bengal banget gila!! Even he was kinda astounded. Hahah...

Craving Burger King

What I want now. No, It's what I crave now. BK rules!! Oh, damn. Anyway, it's not an advertisement. Nor I received any payment for this post. Honest!. :)'

*Ngences mode on*

MAYBE TOMORROW - Stereophonics

I've been down and
I'm wondering why
These little black clouds
Keep walking around
With me
With me

It wastes time
And I'd rather be high
Think I'll walk me outside
And buy a rainbow smile
But be free
They're all free

So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home
So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home

I look around at a beautiful life
Been the upperside of down
Been the inside of out
But we breathe
We breathe

I wanna breeze and an open mind
I wanna swim in the ocean
Wanna take my time for me
All me

So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home
So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home

My all time favorite song. Never tired of it.

05052009, 11.59 pm

Tadi siang pergi ke klien. Tadinya pikir sore bakalan bisa langsung cabut ke Tendean dan gak usah balik ke kantor. Ternyata di kantor klien tadi mitingnya jadi 2x, trus musti laporan lagi ke kantor gue. Pas sampe, ternyata para bos lagi pergi. Jadi gue nungguin mereka sambil facebookan di tempat Batman. Ada Doyok juga. Trus Bos Doy ikut ngobrol di ruangan itu. Batman dengan cueknya duduk di handle kursi gue selama ngobrol itu, lah gue kan ketar-ketir yak... Gimana kalo orang pada mikir ni orang yang cueknya kelewatan kok kayaknya deket banget and bisa bertingkah seenaknya sama gue? Kalo hubungan ajaib kita ketauan gimana? Secara ternyata para bos juga udah bertanya-tanya, gitu loh. Heuhhh...

Boss Man mendadak minta dibuatin proposal. Bandung Bondowoso banget dah. Minta jam 9 malem, trus gue ditongkongin ma dia. Pas udah maksimal mau kelar, ternyata udah jam 1 pagi. Preeeet, gue kirain masih jam 11an. Dan karena Bos Noy dan Batman akhirnya nginep di kantor, gue juga gak dikasih pulang sama mereka. Boss Man bawa gue nginep di rumahnya. Tewas deh gue disana. Kenapa ya kalo gue pengen ketemu Menik dan Kucil, ujung-ujungnya gue malah nginep di kantor? Aneh...

New Day Gak Jelas

A new day for me. Feels great to be free!! Even if there's still something left hanging. I mean, the way he threatened me, then just keeping silent til now, I can't help but wonder if he's preparing his revenge strategy. I hope I'm wrong.

Still dunno what I wanna say. Still speechless.
*Sigh*...

Udah Putus

Semalem ikut begadang persiapan venue untuk event. Sebenernya gak ada kerjaan juga buat gue. Tapi tetep ikut bantu2, skalian cari pengalaman. And menghindar untuk pulang cepet, secara masih ketar-ketir kalo tau2 Alv muncul.

Right, gue udah putusin cowok sampah itu. Pokoknya dari gue semua udah kelar. Apapun yang dia mau lakukan, itu bukan urusan gue. It's finished, and I'm ecstatic... Hopefully, I'll never set eyes on him anymore, at least in this lifetime. One day, maybe I'll tell how I did it. How I at last could let go. But not now. It's insignificant anyway. What's important is I'm free. Yayyy...

Dunno what else to say.

05012009, 10:14 am

Lagi mengumpulkan dan mempertahankan keberanian. Mau merubah nasib. Moga-moga berhasil. Amin.

To Batman: thanks for your harsh words last night. It solidified my will to be free from him. Sekarang, semua risiko akan gue ambil untuk lepas dari ini semua.