Rihanna - Russian Roulette

Russian Roulette - Rihanna

Take a Breathe, take a deal
Calm yourself, he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take the gun and count to three
You're sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go

And you can see my heart.. beating
You can see it through my chest
I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving
I know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger.....

Say a prayer to yourself
He says close your eyes, sometimes it helps
And then I get a scary thought
That he's here, means he's never lost

And you can see my heart.. beating
You can see it through my chest
I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving
I know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger.....

As my life flashes before my eyes
I'm wondering if I will ever see another sunrise
So many won't get the chance to say goodbye
But it's to late to think of the value of my life

And you can see my heart.. beating
You can see it through my chest
I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving
I know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger.....

Rihanna's new song. Cool beat. But the lyrics, well, sounds kinda like a fatalist, eh?

Duypret Tai!

Yesterday was the climax of Menik's heartbreak. At least I hope so. I don't want her to stoop lower than this. This should be her turning point. Delete him from your life, cuy. In this case, Kunti's strategy is an effective one. Hehee... He disappointed her again. And in a very not nice way. Laki gak tau diri!

She arrived, went to our table, and cried. only that is enough for making me crackling my knuckles and give my sweet fist to his face, hard. What an evening. That guy needs to be give a lesson for treating her like that. Inhumanly, unfeelingly, and kurangajarly. Mampus aja lo, laki pembawa sial!!

12062009, 03:41 pm

Back at the same spot as last night, this time I'm alone. Menik is on a meeting with her prospective boss who is also our friend back when we all still in NtarTipi. Kucil is on her way here. Long time no hangout all three of us. :)

Anyways, I read my previous posting and came out with the fact that the current guy is only good for sex, not wit. Before I'm with him, I never thought that it would be a problem. But oh well, let me just use him while I can. After all, it's a mutual symbiosm, right? We both get something out of this thing.

I searched for sex blogs and found Zoe Margolis' blog, and the controversy that surrounded her outed previously secret identity. Linked to other blogs and articles, then I found about NightJack and his also outed identity. As the result, his blog had been deleted. The culprit for both cases was The Times, a British paper. I just can't get it in my mind, why would those so called journalists do such things. Nothing got out of it but unnecessary troubles, wrecked lives of the bloggers, and so on. Did they think it's great journalism? I guess they had, and still have, illusions of being famous journalist, and in time would make them high profiled such as Christiane Ammanpour and Riz Khan. Teehee. No wisdoms, only trashy thinking. Shame on you, Brit papers!

Right, enough on that subject. A billion critics won't be able to change their misled way of thinking. Instead, let's enjoy coffee and some bloghopping. Wishing for Kucil and Menik to come soon. Gonna watch a movie, and who knows? Maybe steak for dinner?

Bengal and CrewCut in Early December

Mulai berasa garing lagi. Hidup datar gitu. Almost always swamped with work. Can't barely meet with the gals. And no sex. Tweuww...

Been stucked with CrewCut these past few months. The appeal has started to wear off. At least from my side. I'm not as attracted to him as before. So he's the most appealing guy in the office. But I don't know. He sounded stupid sometimes. And always makes me sort of disgusted by his written language, be it SMS or emails. Yaiks. I can't stand illiterate or intellectual people. At least, for a partner, even if it's for physical things, I still expect some witty remarks or enough knowledge on some worldly and popular stuff. Not being arrogant, stupid as I am, he's still not a match intellectually. Damn! 

Ah well, he's not totally useless. At least I can save my transport money. Hehee. I'm a bitch. Some kind of slut, even. But hey, a girl needs to survive, right? One way or another, I get some physical, and an extra saving on the side. *Wink*

12052009, 08:10 pm

Sekarang gue niatin untuk menulis sesuatu yang memiliki arti, bukan sekadar sampah seperti sebelumnya. Gak yakin bakal berhasil siy, tapi yaaah, usaha boleh dong? Hehe...

At the moment, I'm at my favorite Starbuck outlet with Menik. I sort of kidnapped her this morning and dragged her to my office. I had to do some work there, which turned out to be no work at all. Damn! I went for nothing. But okay, I decided to harvest my crops on Farmville while listening to her rambling about her recent problems. It's sad, really. I don't think I should tell about her problems here. But I do sympathize with her. I wish everything will turn out alright for her soon. Hey, Menik. As Kucil always say, you're not alone. We'll try try to help you whenever we can. That goes without saying, actually. But I just want to assure you of that. :D

Again, we're really worried about Mama. She wouldn't tell us anything. She said she needed some time alone. It's kinda making our imaginations go overdrive. At first, I thought it has something to do with her ex, but she said it's the least of her problems. Menik thinks that maybe Mama's current boyfriend had passed away, but I don't think so. Well, he's terminally ill, but I'm pretty sure it's not his time yet. Kucil hasn't voiced her prediction, yet. Mama, we're all with you. Stay strong, Ma. Whatever it is, however hard it is, you'll get through this sooner or later. It might not feel like it, now. But it will.

On a better note, I copied some bokep stuff from one of my client's external hard disk! Wkwkwkwkwk!! I'm bad, I know. But I can't help it. He lent the hard disk for me to get some much needed data on our recent project. And those files now circulated in my division. Bad girl! :p

This place is nicely unpacked. There are still a few empty tables. And most of the customers have been here for hours. Such as yours truly. There's this cute Japanese guy. He's always at the same corner, EVERYTIME I come here, he's always there. He has a new notebook. It looks slimmer than his usual one. And he also looks better today. Heheheee... I wonder if he's taken yet? Stealing looks at him. And he seems oblivious. To everything. To everyone. Is he autistic? I know he can speak because he takes calls now and then. Hmm, maybe he's the son of the adjacent Japanese grocery store owner? If he's a student, he never seems to be doing any research. No text books around. If he's a business owner, no smartphones around. No BlackBerries nor iPhones. He's mysterious. Always alone at the same place everyday. Doesn't care weekdays or weekends. And one additional problem: I think he's younger. Hehee... Don't want any berondong at the moment. But a bag of pop corns is always welcomed. :D

Later, babe. Let's meet in our entwined dreams tonight. And have explosive sex. I can be your Miyabi, Sensei. Can't wait. ;) 

*Menik, he's mine. Stay the fuck away from him!*

The Cutest Couple 2009

Love this pic!

What a cute couple. ;)

Menunggu 12042009

Hari ini judulnya menunggu. Menunggu hasil revisi outline. Menunggu tim produksinya dateng. Menunggu sang copywriter ngelarin editing narasi. Menunggu klien datang. Menunggu masakan di Cafe World jadi. Dan menunggu tanaman di Farmville untuk panen. Hehee...

Menunggu itu emang bener2 hal yang sangat menyebalkan. Tapi itu kalo gak ada hal lain yang bisa dilakukan. Kalo sekarang sih gue punya beberapa option sambil menunggu:

1. Ngemil
2. Baca buku, eh gak deng. Hari ini gue gak bawa
3. Denger lagu
4. Browsing bokep (wadefak??)
5. Main Farmville (udah dipanenin sama CrewCut)
6. Main Cafe World (udah dimasakin sama CrewCut)
7. Bloghopping (mmh, gak mood juga siy)
8. Ngeblog (...)
9. etc.

Yaaah, mumpung bisa dan situsi aman, ya gue ngeblog aja deh. Cihuy! Blog gue emang akhir2 ini isinya sampah gak penting banget.Dan sekarang juga tetep nyampah siy. Tapi lumayanlah, nambah2 jumlah postingan. 

Udah lama rasanya gue gak ngumpul sama Kucil, Menik, n Mama. Tiap kali mau ketemu, ada aja halangan. Salah satu dari kita gak bisalah, jalanan super macet n stuck n bikin kita immobile lah, gak ada duitlah (klasik, hehee...), dll. Moga2 siy ntar malem bisa ketemu. Tapi belum ada sounding apa2 nih. Wooooy cuuuyz, pada kemana kalian?? Anyway, rada kuatir tentang Mama niy. Kayaknya Mama lagi ada masalah. Waktu chat di BBM kemarin, she said she's not okay. Either it has something to do with her getting married ex, or office matter. I hope she'll be okay soon. Amen.

Menik lagi sibuk dengan pemulihan diri pasca Duypret. Kataya siy udah gak labil lagi. Eeeehh, tau2 malah ada masalah dengan kantornya. Bukan dia bikin masalah ato apa, tapi kayaknya mau ada pengurangan karyawan gitu. I wish the best for you, cuy. Don't give up, yeah?

Dan Kucil, sang nyonya yang lagi dalam proses bikin anak. Xixixi... Baru sembuh dari demam katanya. Moga2 gue cepet dapet ponakan baru. Buat temen mainnya Li'l Bangbag. Must be so cute. Iiiih, jadi gak sabar. Cuy, cepetan deh bikin anak. Kalo butuh bantuan jurus, ntar gue dampingin deh pas lo ML ma laki lo. :p