Craving Ken

This is lust. Totally. Reading into his gestures and body language, and his eyes, I know I can get him. Me and him, we're one of a kind. Bad boy and bad girl. The question remains: will I make a move on him?

Been thinking about him more and more lately. I miss his light touches, the seemingly unintentional brushes of his hand against me, the naughty smiles, the way he steal glances at me, everything bad sides of him. Dammit, Ken! Why are you married?? *frustrated*

Back in Bali, when I was swimming with Boty and CrewCut at the hotel that night, I knew he was watching. Playing with his BB, but he took pictures of us. He sent me one, and initiated our BB chat. And for the remaining time in Bali, we chatted every night. Nothing heavy, deep, or even kinky. Just playful chats mostly about my coworkers and food, :p

Do I have a crush on him? Hell yes! Do I lust after him? Totally. And being a female, this question is always lurking whenever there's a guy involved: do I love him? God, no! And I can't let it go that way. I have had enough with married guys. Jeez, such a slut, huh? But as ground rules, I always tell them to prioritize their families. That what I intend to have is fun, and nothing serious. This ain't a justification. Hell, I know this can't be justified. I'm not proud of what I do. But I no longer care that much. Life is short. And I just want to be happy. At this moment, commitment is bullshit for me, and I can't even picture me being tied to a man. Eeww...

So, Ken. I'll try my damnedest to hold myself from you. But if you made the first move, I might not be able to refuse. And I won't be held responsible for it. Tau sama tau aj deh ya. Lo badung, dan gue bengal.

Aduh, tolong... Kenapa lo nafsuin banget gitu sih, Ken? Semogaaaa lo bisa nahan diri ya, Ken. Emang dasar kampret lo!!