Getting Stale

Never wanted to be clingy. So, I keep my cool when we barely communicate. Even though I know he doesn't have his cell phone which he lost a couple of weeks ago. Still, he usually borrows his friend's phones or use someone's netbook to log on Facebook. When we don't text, we send messages in Facebook. And he goes to the warnet mostly every night. So, when he seems to be disappearing from earth face these last few days, I kind of get worried. Even pissed. Because if he wants to, he could always find a way to contact me.

What pisses me off is he's the one who said that even if couldn't see each other every weekend or so, at least we must communicate in any way we could everyday. EVERYDAY. I keep my part of the bargain. Why can't he? Stupid asswipe.

I realize that I'm the type of girl who likes touching and physical contact. That's my kind of relationship. I'd like us to meet as often as possible. I can try to work around my schedule if the guy were cooperative. Well, I don't think he is. What he does requires me to commit totally into the relationship. To trust him completely when he's not around. But I want a guy who is available physically. A guy I could touch, I could kiss, a guy who could hold me in his arms. Screw the heart and all those stupid emotions. Just give me his real presence. Otherwise, I might just find the next available guy. :p

It's getting stale. Either I need to think of him in a more casual way, or break him up altogether. Casual seems tempting, though. Let him think we are together. And I'll just put it in my mind that he's a fling. A fuck-buddy. Except, we haven't got to the fucking part, yet. Jeez. Boring, much? Dude... Meh... *rolling eyes*