Second BBM chat with Agy. It was still awkward. I know he wants something from me. He sent me his picture, then he asked me to do the same. I said that I was still looking more or less the same, still ugly and fat. Then can you believe what he said?
'You were beautiful last time we met, you know. Otherwise I wouldn't volunteer to take you home. And I still remember what we did that night.'
My first reaction: shocked. And then I was partly insulted, partly flattered. Easygoing that I am, I decided to take it lightly. And I replied, 'I also remember that first time in the car. My hands were shaking afterward.'
'But you'd seen me plenty of times before that, right? Why would you be shaking?'
'So? Yeah, we were familiar to each other, but we only got intense that night. Deg-degan, tau... Tapi gue gak nyangka lo masih inget.'
'Never forget. Setiap gue inget itu, langsung pusing.'
Aha! So, he was into me. Well, I kinda hurt his pride at that time, that's why we parted not at the best of terms. And this is the first contact between us after more than 4 or 5 years. Damn, it's been so long.
After that, the chatting got awkward again. I didn't know what to say to him, so I just left him hanging. And we haven't continue the convo yet. Maaany times I want to start, but I try to keep myself from doing exactly that. I'm still in a relationship. Before I get closure on this one, I'd better let Agy be. I don't want to repeat what happened on our first try.
You might wonder why I sound like I did want to start a new relationship with him. Well, I'm still not sure about that. But I know that I never really forget about being with him, about how it felt, short that it was. What we had was physical, but it was mindblowing. I never forget. Apparently he doesn't forget, too.
Honestly, I want out from my current relationship. I've been meaning to break up with Ben for weeks now, maybe even months. And suddenly Agy slip back into my life, deeper into my mind. The memory gets sharper, and it left me wanting. Badly.
Shit! I hate this. I don't want to hurt anyone. I'd be hurting Ben for a bad reason. Well, okay, Agy or no Agy, I've been meaning to break up with Ben. Being stupid, I keep on delaying and delaying. On the other hand, I have hurt Agy once. Doesn't he hold any grudge? Is he looking for payback? Am I being an idiot for letting him back into my life?
Friday, June 24, 2011
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Syd's in Town
Syd is in town! Yeaayy... And we're gonna go on a road trip, babyyyyy... :D
She's picking up her friend in the airport today. Tomorrow, we're gonna go to Jakarta Fair. After that, there's a friend's wedding reception dinner. Oh, so many things to do. Not to say I still have to prepare for an event which will be executed next week.
She's picking up her friend in the airport today. Tomorrow, we're gonna go to Jakarta Fair. After that, there's a friend's wedding reception dinner. Oh, so many things to do. Not to say I still have to prepare for an event which will be executed next week.
Wednesday, June 08, 2011
08062011
Right, so he started the chat at around 11.30 pm last night. When I heard the message alert, I thought it was an emergency seeing that it was almost midnight. Imagine how my heart dropped when I saw it was Agy. Jeez, man. It was like an adrenaline rush. Should I answer it right away? Or waited until the next morning? Decision, decision...
Monday, June 06, 2011
Reconnected?
Deg-degan gue. Gak ada angin gak ada badai, tadi siang Agy nge-add pin BBM gue. My God. After years of no communication, dia nge-add gue. Dia yang nge-add gue, not the other way around. I thought he hated me and want nothing to do with me forever. Jadi penasaran dia mau apa. Setelah gue approve, udah gitu doang. Ngajak chat juga nggak. *Dueeeeng...*
Oh, well. Let's see what would he do. Trying to be patient and not starting the chat with him. :p
Oh, well. Let's see what would he do. Trying to be patient and not starting the chat with him. :p
Friday, June 03, 2011
SuperBengal
Ketemu teman2 lama. Udah hampir setahun gak ketemu. Sekarang saatnya event lagi, lanjutan yang tahun lalu. Kembali di hotel yang sama, cuma bedanya sekarang udah ada wifinya. Kenceng pula. Horeeeee...
Agak ketar-ketir juga sih. Karena gue udah beberapa bulan terakhir diekspor ke kantor baru, dan gue sebenernya gak dikasih ikutan event lagi sama Boss Lady karena dia mau gue konsen sama kantor baru ini. Cuma gue kan kangen banget yak sama lapangan. Udah niat bujuk-bujuk Boss Man dan Om Noy supaya gue boleh ikutan, eh ternyata mereka malah yang minta gue ikut karena kepepet kekurangan orang. Alhamdulillaaaaah... :p Anyway, karena gue ada kesibukan juga di kantor baru, maka gue gak ikut meeting dan briefing apapun untuk event ini. Malahan kayaknya si bos dan para PIC pada sibuk masing-masing. Katanya, gue cukup pegang 1 hal disana. Yaudah, gue nyantai. Toh tugas gue sama seperti salah satu kerjaan gue di roadshow event ini tahun-tahun yang lalu.
Naaaah, ternyata yang terjadi malah lain. Mendadak gue musti bantu belanja sehari sebelum event karena anak-anak sebagian besar udah di lapangan karena musti preparation venue, dan yang lain ditarik ke acaranya Boss Lady. Gue dikasih list belanjaan, ditransferin duit 15 juta, dan belanjalah gue keliling Jakarta. Untung ditemenin CrewCut, kalo gak ya mampus aja gue bawa bertumpuk-tumpuk gembolan kemana-mana. Hiks... Itu baru di preparation.
Nah, pas event udah mulai, entah siapa PIC yang mustinya tugas, atau si bos juga lagi keder dan kurang koordinasi, dan memang si klien ngasih brief cuma jebret aja tanpa penjelasan eksekusi yang diharapkan seperti apa, jadilah bapak-bapak bos dan klien terhormat dikit-dikit nyari gue nyuruh ini-itu yang gue aja gak tau sebenernya musti ngapain. Lah, brief dan konsep event aja gue gak pernah terima. Layout venue aja gue gak dikasih, rundown acara gak tau, pokoknya gak ada brief apa-apa. Namun, dengan kesaktian gue yang setingkat diatas dewa, dan setiap orang yang kepepet pasti nemu aja solusi, gue selama 2 hari ngarang bebas aja tentang segala macam solusi dari masalah yang pada muncul dadakan. Untung semuanya bisa dijalanin.
Emang seru sih. Karena budget dipotong, kita musti kurangin jumlah kru. Semua multitasking, tapi gue udah dibilangin cuma harus bantuin di 1 hal aja. Eh, yang terjadi lain. Pos gue adalah tempat dimana klien dan partner-partnernya ngumpul dan ngerubungin gue untuk update info. Lo bayangin aja kalo lo sebagai kru EO yang harus terima update dari peserta event, trus rekap infonya n the spot sambil ditungguin klien disitu juga, dan ada partner-partnernya yang bos-bos semua nungguin update tiap jam di tenda gue. Sementara bos gue dan anak-anak dikit-dikit nelponin gue minta dicariin solusi ini-itu. Daaaan, para konsumen yang beli produk semua dibawa ke tenda gue untuk database. Gue SENDIRIAN yang ngerjain itu selama 2 hari. Gak sempet makan, sumpah!
Yang gue heran kenapa musti pada nyariin gueeee? Dan sekarang gue rasanya mau pingsan. Capek banget, badan kaku dan pegel, dan gak sempet istirahat. Anak-anak pada libur kelar event, gue malah bikin report event plus meeting dan ngerjain kerjaan kantor baru. Tau deh. Gue mau tidur. Ciao...
Agak ketar-ketir juga sih. Karena gue udah beberapa bulan terakhir diekspor ke kantor baru, dan gue sebenernya gak dikasih ikutan event lagi sama Boss Lady karena dia mau gue konsen sama kantor baru ini. Cuma gue kan kangen banget yak sama lapangan. Udah niat bujuk-bujuk Boss Man dan Om Noy supaya gue boleh ikutan, eh ternyata mereka malah yang minta gue ikut karena kepepet kekurangan orang. Alhamdulillaaaaah... :p Anyway, karena gue ada kesibukan juga di kantor baru, maka gue gak ikut meeting dan briefing apapun untuk event ini. Malahan kayaknya si bos dan para PIC pada sibuk masing-masing. Katanya, gue cukup pegang 1 hal disana. Yaudah, gue nyantai. Toh tugas gue sama seperti salah satu kerjaan gue di roadshow event ini tahun-tahun yang lalu.
Naaaah, ternyata yang terjadi malah lain. Mendadak gue musti bantu belanja sehari sebelum event karena anak-anak sebagian besar udah di lapangan karena musti preparation venue, dan yang lain ditarik ke acaranya Boss Lady. Gue dikasih list belanjaan, ditransferin duit 15 juta, dan belanjalah gue keliling Jakarta. Untung ditemenin CrewCut, kalo gak ya mampus aja gue bawa bertumpuk-tumpuk gembolan kemana-mana. Hiks... Itu baru di preparation.
Nah, pas event udah mulai, entah siapa PIC yang mustinya tugas, atau si bos juga lagi keder dan kurang koordinasi, dan memang si klien ngasih brief cuma jebret aja tanpa penjelasan eksekusi yang diharapkan seperti apa, jadilah bapak-bapak bos dan klien terhormat dikit-dikit nyari gue nyuruh ini-itu yang gue aja gak tau sebenernya musti ngapain. Lah, brief dan konsep event aja gue gak pernah terima. Layout venue aja gue gak dikasih, rundown acara gak tau, pokoknya gak ada brief apa-apa. Namun, dengan kesaktian gue yang setingkat diatas dewa, dan setiap orang yang kepepet pasti nemu aja solusi, gue selama 2 hari ngarang bebas aja tentang segala macam solusi dari masalah yang pada muncul dadakan. Untung semuanya bisa dijalanin.
Emang seru sih. Karena budget dipotong, kita musti kurangin jumlah kru. Semua multitasking, tapi gue udah dibilangin cuma harus bantuin di 1 hal aja. Eh, yang terjadi lain. Pos gue adalah tempat dimana klien dan partner-partnernya ngumpul dan ngerubungin gue untuk update info. Lo bayangin aja kalo lo sebagai kru EO yang harus terima update dari peserta event, trus rekap infonya n the spot sambil ditungguin klien disitu juga, dan ada partner-partnernya yang bos-bos semua nungguin update tiap jam di tenda gue. Sementara bos gue dan anak-anak dikit-dikit nelponin gue minta dicariin solusi ini-itu. Daaaan, para konsumen yang beli produk semua dibawa ke tenda gue untuk database. Gue SENDIRIAN yang ngerjain itu selama 2 hari. Gak sempet makan, sumpah!
Yang gue heran kenapa musti pada nyariin gueeee? Dan sekarang gue rasanya mau pingsan. Capek banget, badan kaku dan pegel, dan gak sempet istirahat. Anak-anak pada libur kelar event, gue malah bikin report event plus meeting dan ngerjain kerjaan kantor baru. Tau deh. Gue mau tidur. Ciao...
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