Bidadari Bengal Self-Motivating

A cloudy day which would be nice to spend just at home. But here I am, working my brain off for another deadline. Why can't I be at this cafe without my macbook? I love it here, but I'd love it even more if I could just sit and read leasurely. Still have 3 unread novels and 3 missing bestfriends. This is only the first month. Can't imagine how the next 3 months will be like. Oh well, guess I'm just gonna have to sweat it out. Been like a crying sissy these past two days. No more of that. I'm Bidadari Bengal. I can go through anything. This is nothing compared to what a person with cancer must go through. I'm a perfectly healthy and happy woman! This is the way to succeed. I can do it. As long as the money's ready. :p

Pecah

Dan menangislah gue di taxi. Betapa tololnya. Crying over nothing. Stupid!!

Screw This!

Suddenly feeling alone. I already know I don't have a life off work. It always work work work. I miss my brother. I miss mom. I miss Bangbag. I can't even see my best friends. Either I can't make the time, or they're also busy. I want to have a real 'me' time. I need it.

Right now, I've just finished work and still stranded at the office. Menik and Kucil are having a good time in Bogor. Enjoy it, cuys. ;) Wish I could be there too.

Time flies today. I just saw my watch, and it's already half past ten, I'd thought it's still around 8 pm. Shit! I really don't have a life, do I? I'm hungry. I wanna have a day off. I wanna pamper myself at the spa. I wanna go home.

The boss all went home. The other guys are still here, and SMOKING. In this air-conned room. I'm stressed out. Suddenly the frustration just came, poof! And now I wanna cry. I hate them for this. I can't even tell them to go out if they need to smoke, because they're playing this stupid computer games. And I won't go out too. This is my place, too. I have a right to be here, and they don't have a right to smoke here! Dickheads!

Dammit! I think I'm gonna cry! Fuck this! I'm going home! Screw you all!

Element - Bukan Orang Suci

BUKAN ORANG SUCI - Element

Mestinya kau mengerti
Saat pertama kali
Kala kau peluk diriku

Jangan pernah biarkan
Diri terhanyut nafsu
Aku bukan orang suci

* Bukalah matamu berpaling dari diriku
Benamkan semua mimpi-mimpimu
Jujur pada hati masih banyak cinta menanti
Jangan kau harapkan aku

reff:

Lupakan semua rayu
Jangan kagumi aku
Karna ku tak cinta kamu

Mohon kau tinggalkan aku
Tak usah kau harap lagi
Karna cinta untukmu palsu

Tak perlu lagi sesali
Anggap tak pernah terjadi
Saat ku lepas dirimu

Pernahkah kau sadari
Aku tak pernah berjanji
Untuk setia padamu

repeat *
repeat reff

Mendadak keinget lagu ini. Dulu gue suka banget nyanyi lagu ini tanpa nyadar isi liriknya. Sekarang pas gue dengerin lagi, kok ternyata liriknya gue banget! Wakakakakakaa... Yups, gue emang bukan orang suci. Kalo baca blog gue dari awal, you'd know why. ;)

Nyampah 01302010

Sabtu mendung, gerimis keciiiil banget, mengantar kepergian si Bengal ke kantor. Euh, sebenernya siy yg nganter si Bengal tu supirnya sang kakak, trus mau bahas apa sih sebenernya ini? Hehee.

Au ah. Posting gak jelas. Nyampah lagi deh. Ehehehehee...

You're A Bad Boss If...

I found this BusinessWeek article about bad bosses here. I copied and pasted it here, along with my comment or review on how all those signs reflect one or more of my bosses. ;)

1. Don't Know Your Job

Illustration by David Foster

You're the invisible man, the one who doesn't delve into the details or pitch in. You insulate yourself, telling us it's "not my job" and to "just do it." We know your dirty secret: You're out of touch. It's time to step away from your precious spreadsheets and get your hands dirty. You can't channel talent, time, and tools if you don't know how they're already being deployed.

The problem here is you involve yourself too much and make every idea seems like yours while at first you seem to be rejecting all our ideas. But you ARE out of touch too, sometimes. You're totally the opposite of invisible, and that sometimes freaks us out.

2. Don't Listen

Illustration by David Foster

We've seen it all. You fiddle with your BlackBerry (RIMM) when we're speaking. You interrupt constantly to make your points. And you roll your eyes and grow impatient—unless you're talking. No matter, you disregard our input anyway. So we've given up; we don't come to you anymore. And we both suffer for it. If you want to succeed, rebuild that goodwill. It'll require time and toil, but the best relationships always do.

Oh hell, yeah! You totally does this all the time. And interrupt frequently with unimportant things. For example, we were discussing about a new concept for a client, then suddenly you cut it and said to no one in particular, 'Wait! I think we need a new scanner. Have someone get it by tomorrow.' Then you continued to other things unrelated to the things we need to actually discuss. Sweet, eh?

3. Closed-Minded

Illustration by David Foster

You're gifted and accomplished, the best and brightest. And that has made you susceptible to pride. Now, you're quick to reach conclusions. Everything is one-sided, with no room for discussion, differences, or dissent. You may view yourself as all-knowing, but conditions change. And talent doesn't stand for "my way or the highway" for long. Pride goeth before a fall. Question is, can you open up and adapt before then?

In a way, this reflects on my comment for point no 1 above. You do ask us for our opinions and inputs on every stuff. But before we even finish any sentences, you cut us and drop our ideas then talk about other different things. Honestly, we're sick of it, you know?

4. Poor Preparation

Illustration by David Foster

Another emergency meeting. Drop what you're doing, they need it now. We're changing direction and working late again. It's always last minute, make it up as you go along. Maybe it fosters teamwork and creativity sometimes, but you can only cry wolf so many times. In reality, the unexpected drama reflects your inability to set expectations, plan ahead, and think it through. And it's just wearing us down.

Well, need I say more? -_-'

5. Not Building Skills

Illustration by David Foster

"People are our most important asset." Well, it's empty rhetoric here. Maybe you want to be hands-off or encourage self-reliance. Whatever the intent, you're not helping us grow. And that's your real job as a manager: to broaden our outlook, push us beyond our comfort zones, exemplify the corporate values, and focus us on learning, serving, persevering, leading, and advancing. Don't take that responsibility lightly.

On one hand, you do try to encourage us. But on the other hand, you also smother us with your shit. Encourage us, my arse!!

6. Overzealous

Illustration by David Foster

History remembers the tyrants but rarely the subjects who did the heavy lifting. It's no different here. You've created a divide-and-conquer atmosphere, all stick and no carrot, where everyone should be the same workaholic reflection of you. Eventually, your bullying and rah-rah intensity produces one question: "Why?" You may think we should be in "for life," but what are you giving back in return for that blind loyalty?

Oh well, now I know why I don't have a life.

7. Don't Maintain Discipline

Illustration by David Foster

All the workers come and go as they please, living according to their own rules. No one knows who is where or doing what, and the result is chaos. Maybe you want to be our buddy—or experience how a sweat shop atmosphere fosters only resentment. Either way, coddling does no favors to anyone. Like it or not, you need to set rules and hold people accountable.

Err well, you don't let us go anywhere. You keep us here and watch us like a hawk. What you really need is a creative secretary who can make up a proposal. We are better than that. We actually have ideas, you moron!

8. Never Heard of Tact

Illustration by David Foster

You always remind us that we're replaceable and working at your pleasure. Yes, it's your legendary bluntness. Your talent and tenure shields you from scrutiny. Sadly, your lack of self-awareness results in everyone—superiors and reports—maligning or marginalizing you. Brains take you only so far; eventually, you'll need to build and nurture relationships. And that requires people skills: listening, charming, understanding, and compromising. Think you're up for that?

No problems here.

9. Lack Influence

Illustration by David Foster

It's funny how we're usually last to get face time and resources. Our mission is vital and performance exceeds expectations. You'd like to believe it's jealousy, but maybe the messenger is undercutting the message. Look at your variables: appearance, body language, and speaking and writing styles. Do you always convey the image of a polished professional who can work in a team and get the job done? If you can't, you'll never get anyone's ear.

Ha! Whenever you try to project your know-it-all personality, I don't think they buy it, Sir. You're kind outdated and basic. :p

10. Blindside Us

Illustration by David Foster

Ah, there's nothing like a surprise. Whether you're singling us out in public or ambushing us in private, you're not afraid to render judgments and deliver lectures. Despite our advanced degrees and track records, you still treat us as servants. Instead of dropping the news all at once, give us fair warning when our performance doesn't meet expectations. Always take action immediately—and discreetly.

Seriously? You have no problems on this. You're okay. But still, you need to see the other points above. :)



So, see? There. You'll see why we're all frustrated, one way or another. *Sigh*

01282010, 11:30 am

Semalem mampir di Pizza Hut waktu jalan pulang. Laper banget sih nggak. Tapi gue emosi aja. Udah musti nginep di kantor pada malem sebelumnya, sendirian di kantor berhantu itu, untung aja gak ada yang gangguin. Ato mungkin ada, cuman gue aja yang gak nyadar, maklum gak sensitif. Hihiks... Trus gue semaleman itu kelaperan banget, gak ada yang bisa disuruh beli makanan, stok makanan instan gak ada, mau pesan delivery tapi gak pegang cash. Sengsara aja. Trus gak sempet tidur. Emang nikmat banget yang namanya dunia kerja itu yak?

Paginya langsung dijemput bos untuk presentasi ke klien. Kelar siang, kirain udah boleh tidur dulu deh biarpun gak boleh pulang. Emang sih si bos justru langsung pulang, katanya mau tidur dulu 2 jam. Gue di drop di kantor, dan baru masuk udah digeret sama bos yang 1 lagi gara-gara ada proposal yang butuh diolah dikit lagi. Setelah itu, baru mau kabur ke meja gue, eeeh, malah lanjut meeting. Tega banget luu, boooos...

Akhirnya pulang malem juga. Gak ada bedanya sama hari kerja sibuk biasa. Hihii. Yaaah, itulah makanya gue emosi sampe impulsively mampir pas lewat Pizza Hut. Pesen macem2, dan abis semua loh! Ajiiiib...

*Setan!! Kenapa sih pas gue bisa konsen nge-blog malah banyak aja orang mondar-mandir di belakang gue?*

01272010, 06:47 pm

Alhamdulillah, proposal yang dibikin sampe begadang dan gak pulang2 itu tembus juga. Tinggal revisi dikit, trus jalan deh eventnya. Uhuuuy... Rencana dijalanin di 4 titik. Tapi dalam kota. Gak jalan2 deh. Hiks.

Selama proses pembuatan konsep event ini, gue dapet beberapa kenalan baru yang cukup asik. Biarpun gak semuanya bakal kerjasama dalam proyek ini, tapi moga2 siy bisa bareng untuk yang kedepannya lagi. Yang jelas siy gue pengen kerja bareng Joey, cowok yang pernah gue ceritain di posting beberapa hari lalu. Selain dia emang kelihatannya ok di bidangnya, orangnya jug ok dari segi look. Ihihihihiks. *Yaelaaah, tinggal bilang kalo lo naksir aja susah amat, Ngal!*

Gue kangen banget sama Bangbag. Udah beberapa hari ini gak sempet ketemu sama my favorite niece. I hope she hadn't forgotten about me. She's 2 y.o. now. And very smart, active, and sometimes mischievious. Every morning when it's time for me to leave home for work, she would come to me and give me a big hug. Then I'd kiss her cheeks, forehead, nose, lips, and ears. Our ritual, and I wouldn't miss it for the world. Oh well damn, apparently I often had to miss it, though. Gara2 musti kerja sampe gak pulang! Huh. Bangbag dear, I'm going home tonight. I miss you so much, kiddo. ;)

So tired, I don't know what to write. So, bye. :p *garing abis*

Mario Winans feat. P. Diddy - I Don't Wanna Know

I Don't Wanna Know - Mario Winans feat. P. Diddy

[P. Diddy - talking]
Hold up, let me answer my phone
Some bitch callin me about some bullshit probably
I'ma call you right back
I'm doin' this mixtape right now
Now back to what I was sayin

[Verse 1 - Mario Winans]
Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

[Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

[Verse 2 - Mario Winans]
Oh baby
I think about it when I hold you
When lookin in your eyes, I can't believe
I don't need to know the truth
Baby keep it to yourself

[Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

[Break - Mario Winans]
Did he touch you better then me (touch you better then me)
Did he watch you fall asleep (watch you fall asleep)
Did you show him all those things that you used to do to me (do to me baby)
If your better off that way (better off that way)
Baby what I like to say (all that I can say)
Go on and do your thing and don't come back to me
(Stay away from me baby)

[Verse 3 - P. Diddy]
I don't wanna know where your whereabouts or how you movin
I know when you in the house or when you cruisin
It's been proven, my love you abusin
I can't understand, how a man got you choosin (yeah)
Undecided, I came and provided ma
My undivided, you came and denied it (why?)
Don't even try it, I know when you lyin (I know when you lyin)
Don't even do that, I know why you cryin (stop cryin)
I'm not applyin no pressure, just wanna let you know
That I don't wanna let you go (I don't wanna let you go)
And I don't wanna let you leave
Can't say I didn't let you breathe
Gave you extra cheese (c'mon), put you in the SUV
You wanted ice so I made you freeze
Made you hot like the West Indies (that's right)
Now it's time you invest in me
Cause if not then it's best you leave
Holla, yeah

[Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

01262010, 07:56 pm

Tadi sore kelaperan, dan dengan sedikit usaha akhirnya bisa bikin egg sandwich di pantry kantor. Rada darurat sih bahannya, jadi gak pake sayur n mayo dll. Tapi yang penting enak dan lumayan ngenyangin. Hehee...

Enaknya punya kantor kayak di tempat gue, kalo bahannya ada, lo mau masak apa aja oke, selama itu gak butuh oven. Tapi kalo lagi apes, kelaperan aja lo sampe sengsara. Dan gue udah ngalamin itu berkali2. Makanya sejak pindah tempat, gue jadi rajin kontrol stok bahan makanan gue di kulkas dan lemari. Di kantor ya. Kalo dirumah mah gue udah tutup mata, pasti selalu penuh deh tuh pantry gue. :p

Yang harus ada adalah instant hot drinks, seperti Nescafe 3-in-1 yang Originale, Kopiko Brown Coffee, Milo, Delfi Hot Cocoa, dan teh hijau celup. Trus kalo mie instant sih pasti. Favorit gue Indomie rasa soto dan Sedap Mie Goreng. Terus bubur instan Risotto yang rasa soto. Ada juga biskuit Sari Gandum-nya Roma. Dan lain-lain dan sebagainya dan seterusnya. Oh iya, kalau minuman yang ready-to-drink paling gue belinya Pulpy Orange dari Minute Maid aja. Padahal tadinya gue gak suka karena rasanya terlalu manis bagi gue. Terus jadi suka setelah ngalamin minum si Pulpy yang bener2 dingin baru keluar dari chiiler yang bagus. Enak, pret. Hahahaa...

Oh iya, yang jelas gue musti punya persediaan sambel botol ABC yang super pedas dan cabe rawit buat makan Indomie. Hehee. Gak ada telor gak apa2 deh asal ada rawit. :p Dan ngomongin ini bikin gue jadi laper lagi. Damn...

Avril Lavigne - Losing Grip

Losing Grip - Avril Lavigne

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone
You, you need to listen
I'm starting to trip, I'm losing my grip
And I'm in this thing alone

Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
When you turn around can you recognize my face
You used to love me, you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't okay
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone
You, you need to listen
I'm starting to trip, I'm losing my grip
And I'm in this thing alone

Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud

Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone

Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was there
I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care
We're not going anywhere

Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was there
I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care
We're not going anywhere

This is my favorite Lavigne's song. Totally. I can sing it beautifully, trust me.

Benci Rider

Ketiban rider edan berbagai artis yang mau kita pake di beberapa event mendatang. Ampun deh. Mang lo pikir lo siapa siy, tis? Kita pake lo aja kita bayar, kok masih minta macem2? Kayak lagu lo terkenal aja gitu... Cuih.

Yaah, ada siy memang lagu lo yang terkenal, tapi kan gak sampe kayak Slank ato GIGI apalagi Linkin Park gettoh. Mereka minta macem2 mah wajar. Lah, elo? Masa lo udah lewat banget cuuy... Cuih lagi...

Meet Joey

Rencana kemarin untuk ngumpul bareng cewek2 bubar karena pada sakit semua. Rencana hari ini ngumpul bareng cewek2 juga bubar karena gue musti kerja dan yang lain masih sakit juga. Setengah hari pertama gue habiskan bersama si boss hotel-hopping, checking on our next venues. Met a guy there, not cute, not handsome, but was kinda attractive. At least to me. His name is, let's say, Joey. He's dark, big, smart, and sexy (ahem!). We talked for quite a length of time, mostly about work. And he shared some of his experience in the industry. Lumayan bikin gue ternganga siy. Ternganga kagum sama ngiler liat orangnya. Hihihiy.

He looks like a guy in my previous workplace who was a CosmoMan. Kucil, you must know who he is, right? Jadi lo gak bakal heran kalo gue sampe ngiler ngeliatnya. *Ngiler? Hiperbola kaleee.* Oh, well. Who knows? Maybe one day he'd divorce his wife and send her to the maid service agency, and put his children in an orphanage. :p

*Jahat amat siy gue?*

Pants On The Ground - Larry Platt

Qiqiqiqiqiqi... This guy seriously is a 62 year old General named Larry Platt. Hands down, General, Sir!

Taken from Youtube, posted by bleedingroses360.

Rodrigo Santoro

Pertama kali gue liat Rodrigo Santoro adalah di film Love Actually. Gue inget banget liat adegan yang ceritanya dia ML sama salah satu tokoh wanita disana. Si Rodrigo cuma pake brief, ketat, dan tubuhnya yang indah itu! So totally hot! Really made my day. Hugh Grant is so last century. ;)

Trus nonton dia juga di 300. Huaaaa... Sadis! Scalding hot! Jadi si Raja Persia jahat. Ceritanya badannya guede banget, raksasa gitulah. Dan piercing dimana-mana. And barely clothed. Biarpun jahat, gue tetep nafsu dwueeh. Wkwkwkwkwkwk. Mr Santoro, would you be my King? Ahaaayy...

Dan kemarin gue liat dia di Post Grad, in a role so totally different from that Persian King. And I loved it! Some kind of mellow clip director. That glasses made him look intelligent, sad, and hot. Dammit! I can't stop using the word 'hot'! Like I said, I'd do him anytime. I might even let you impregnate me, Rodrigo Babe. Mwaaa...

*Slut Mode On*

Restless Slash Horny

I gotta say I feel so restless today. I stayed at home. I watched a movie. I read on FP. I played with Bangbag. I even had a normal chat with Mom. And still I can't stay still. And to think that I have to work tomorrow, it just adds to my misery. I doubt even if I did go out, I'd feel better.

I've been sitting fitfully, tossing and turning on my bed, went to the fridge like I always do when I'm bored, even if I already know by heart what stuffs were in there. Nothing cures.

I know I'm not not stressed out since I'm a happy go lucky girl. I hate responsibilities but that doesn't deter me from trying to be as happy as I can at any given time. I might love the feeling of being in one of my blue moods. But I LIKE those blue moods! So despite the BLUE notion, it's still something I like, and it shows that I can't be stressed out, right? I'm rambling.

On second thought, maybe I am not that restless? Maybe I'm just plain horny and need some good humping. Damn! Who am I gonna fuck this time? Fuck fuck fuck!!!

Post Grad

I watched Post Grad. And there's my long lost Rodrigo Santoro. Damn, he's hot! Well, since this is my post about the movie, I guess I'll tell about the man in another posting. Tee hee.

Right, Post Grad, a movie about a young woman who just graduated from college and is about to conquer the world. Or so she thought. She had her whole life planned since early in life. Get good grades, in turn get full scholarship, then graduated and get a job in a top publishing company. This young woman, Ryden (Alexis Bledel), has a weird family. A do-it-yourself father (Michael Keaton), a stingy mom (Mrs Lynch, you know, that bitch teacher in Glee), an outrageous grandma (Carroll Burnett), and love-to-lick-other-people's-head little brother. She also has a male best friend who is totally in love with her and willing to do anything for her. Kinda Dawson-Creeky, I know. But I can't help liking this movie.

Everything in the movie is cliche. An American life. Kinda Legally-Blondish, but well, she's brunette. Oh, oh, oh! I almost forgot. There's this hot neighbour, a Brazilian infomercial director. He's 34, and almost slept with Ryden. They're on it, but her family intrude. Hahaa. Talk about bad timing! LOL.

A light movie, some comedy, some food for thoughts from unexpected persons, and you get a good pastime. Oh, and don't forget! There's Rodrigo Santoro! Oh my beloved Almighty! I'd do him right now if he's here. Shyte!!

Give Me An Oven!!

Looking at the sky for hours. Feeling better, but the headache is still there. Cloudy sky, cool breeze, very nice weather. If everyday is like this afternoon, it would be heavenly. No heat, but no rain either. Love it. But still wish for the headache to go away.

Craving for warm home made cookies. If only I had an oven, I would have been in a baking spree. Imagine the blissful aroma of baked goods! Chocolate chip cookies, cinnamon rolls, pound cake, butter cookies, cupcakes and muffins, oh God. Please send me a beautiful oven soon. I promise to at least bake once a week. Provided if the schedule allowed. Please please please... Amen.

Once Upon A Boring Saturday

Hey peeps. Unlike any other weekend, I decided to stay at home today. When my headache hadn't subsided by lunchtime, I knew I needed a total rest, at least for a day. I had promised to hang out with my gal pals, but am really sorry chicas, I don't think I can make it. Tomorrow, maybe? Just hope there wouldn't be any calls or messages from my bosses. I've worked my ass off since the first day of this year. You could say that this might my last homey Saturday for the next few months, as there are already too many projects scheduled. I shouldn't complain, I know. But I'd love a rest now and then, ya know?

I work for two, no, three bosses. It is one company, but there are 2 main areas of work: advertising and event organizer. When I first worked in the company, I was placed in the advertising. A few months later, the EO boss asked for me to be moved to his division. As time goes, orders and projects and pitchings come in, and in between my main job, the ad boss would still get me to help with their projects. I don't know what their agreement was, but I was under the impression that if the EO needs me, that should be my priority. But heck, now I have to do two jobs with one pay, and the ad even puts me to work when I'm already swamped with many EO projects. Bosses dears, you need more people. How long do you think Frigie and I could survive?

I really do want to go out today and see the girls. If only this headache would go away. Dammit! Guess I'd just get an aspirin and sleep. Let's see after, if it's gone, I'd call Kucil and Menik. Afraid if I can't see them again for a long time.

01222010, 04:05 pm

Luar biasa ngantuknya hari ini. Pengennya kabur dari kantor trus krimbat dan pijat reflexy, minum hot chocolate, makan cake yang enak, trus pulang, meriung di kasur gue yang udah paling pewe sejagat raya itu deh.

Trik Si Bengal Baca FP

Lately, I've been reading stories on FP again using my BlackBerry. Like last night, I was already at home at 9 pm. After a shower, I laid down on my bed and started to continue reading Stumble, and like usual, time flew so fast. The next time I looked at the watch, it was 2 am. Holy shit! It didn't even feel like an hour yet!

Pertama kali baca FP di BB, gue ada masalah dengan button down yang untuk klix next ke chapter berikutnya. Dan gue jadi setiap kali cuma bisa baca chapter 1 mulu, ato cari cari cerita yang kelar dalam 1 chapter. Daripada penasaran. Padahal ratusan cerita bagus disitu. Baru-baru ini aja gue nemu trik, copy page addressnya, trus paste di boxnya, dan ganti nomor chapternya secara manual. Telat banget ya gue? Hihiy. Yah, tapi akibatnya, gue jadi sering lupa waktu dan kurang tidur gara2 baca itu tiap malem sebelum tidur.Damn!

01152010, 02:58 pm

Lagi nunggu makan siang. Makin gk jelas kapan makannya, padahal udah laper banget. Katanya mau mulai jam 3, padahal kita udah disini dari jam 2 kurang. Gubraaak!! Yo wis lah. Gpp. Tempatnya super asik n aroma makanannya udah kecium. Hehee. Maybe one day I'll write about this place.

Anyway, dari tadi pagi sampe tadi siang ada kerjaan bareng Ryan lagi. Kalo dulu masih ada rada debar2 kayak liat cowok keren, sekarang udah jadi mati rasa. Dan itu bikin gue mikir. Gue maunya cowok kayak apa siy? Si Ryan kurang apalagi coba? Putih, ngguanteng, kaya, educated. And totally not my taste. Damn. Mentah lagi deh. Hahaa. Dan barusan dia pindah duduk ke sebelah gue. Yups, we're still in a pack, together with the other crews. All males. And he decided to sit with me? Well, duh.

Do I need to check my mental health? My male radar is perfectly fine. And there are a bunch of eligible ones. And I don't find any of them attractive enough. And I was usually kinda easy to be attracted. 

Oh well. Probably just plainly not in the mood.

One Down, Two to Go

Thank Almighty, one proposal is done and delivered. Two more are still waiting. Need more energy and peace of mind to finish them in time. No digression and disturbing things. Please let them be finished soon. Very soon. 

Now I'm gonna go home and maybe watch a movie before sleep. Wish for a peaceful night as am expecting no rest this weekend. Already booked for supervising a photo session this Saturday. With Ryan. Ahahahahahahaaa...

Right, good night and see y'all... Mwaaa...

01132010, 09:56 pm

Pheeww... For the last 3 days, I've been pulled this way and that by my bosses. Each with their own projects and agenda. Both are racing against their own deadlines. And I have to put up with their panics, tantrums, and lacks of data. I am so done with making those freaking proposals!! Or not... Hahah. No, of course not. How else would I earn my money if not by doing my job? :p

But seriously, you need to make up your mind on where would you have me? Working with the BossMan? Or working with the BossLady? I only have 2 hands and one brain. And very very limited time. And patience. Jeez.

Right, I changed my mind. I am so not in the mood to tell about today. Totally drained. Not that I'm complaining. Much.

01122010, 08:47 pm

Hari yang menyebalkan! Dan gue bahkan gak tau kenapa. Well, selain karena abis dikerjain klien. Masa dia bilangnya kepengen dibikinin ini itu, trus kita buatin proposalnya secara maksimal. Sampe pulang malem gak jelas. Udah dikirim. Pas udah tinggal beberapa hari menjelang Hari-H kita musti konfirmasi dong. Dan dia cuma bilang kalo udah dapet tempat dan cuma buat perbandingan harga doang. For fuck's sake!! you only need to make a few phonecalls to those prospective vendors, you fucking morons! And instead you made us work like that? Such lazy immoral idiots! 

Fuck you, assholes! May you burn in hell when you die! But in the meantime, give us all your projects and money, and leave us alone... Pricks!

01102010, 08:15 pm

It's such a relaxing Sunday afternoon. I'm hanging out with my best friends. We're talking, drinking, browsing. Each with their own favorite things. But we're here together. Listening to Menik telling us her revelations of her almost boyfriend. Listening to Mama's story about her almost boss. Eating Menik's Indomie in a Starbuck. Blogging away on my mac. And waiting for Kucil's never coming potato chips.

We don't need to talk all the time. Even when we're all silent, it's never awkward. Right now, Menik is laying down her head on the armchair and she seems only a secong away to Neverland. Kucil is watching her hubby playing on the laptop. Mama is going to church for the afternoon service. And I've run out of ideas of what to write. What a comfortable silence. 

The latest news on Menik: she just got a revelation on her relationship with Duduy. It appears that they were never honest with each other. Each has their own unfinished business. And it gets in the way of their supposedly romance. Inconfidence, impatience, lies, bad thoughts, they all play parts in destroying the romance. Well, chica, maybe when you both had settled your unfinished issues, then it might be your time to be together again. For now, just get on with your life.

Mama just had an interview. And the prospective boss is made of the same mold with her previous boss in Ntar Tipi. And that's such a killjoy. Puts doubt on her. Made Mama halt her decision. Come on, Ma. Don't be afraid. It's only temporary anyway. If you got a better offer, you'll take it. Meanwhile, get what's available. Even only for putting butter on your bread. You know you need it, Ma.

Kucil and her hubby went to a wedding party earlier today. Then I found her rant on Twitter on how someone got touchy feely to Ndut. Wow, very territorial. Chica lionessa, that's what you are, cuy. ;) Now, she needs to shop for groceries. You'll make a great mom one day, Cil.

Oh, I got 5 slaps from Bangbag this morning. With no apparent reasons. Kiddo, you're killing me... I don't know why, or how, but she plays rough these days. Banging her toys, throwing them on the floor, and laughing hysterically when they break. Smacking and kicking all she wants. Damn! Who taught you that, kid?? Stop it, will you? It's not nice. And it's not polite. Please...

On a better note, we're going to have dinner. Yaayyy!! So, see ya, folks. Please drop by and tell me what you're having for dinner. :)

Kriteria Wanita Jawa

‎​9 kriteria wanita sempurna menurut primbon orang jawa kuno :
1. Pinter ngatur duit.
2. Nek blanja irit.
3. Ning kasur genit.
4. Nek digoyang njerit.
5. Wulune sejimprit.
6. Anune sempit.
7. Rasane legit.
8. Nek entut suarane. aloon banget lan sue … Tiiii … iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.
9. Hobine titit..B)

Got this one from BlackBerry broadcast message. :D

Beri Cinta Waktu - Malique & D'Essentials

BERI CINTA WAKTU - Malique & D'Essentials

Dengarlah bisikkku

Saat ku merindumu

Tetes air mata

Tak dapat sembunyikan rasa

Cintaku untuk dirimu

Bilakah kau tau

Ketika kau jauh

Menangis hatiku

Saat kumemanggil namamu

Tiada lagi hadir untukku..oh

Bila ku katakan kini

Arti hadirmu disini

Mungkinkah kau kan kembali

Bersama denganku

Beri cinta waktu

Untuk memahami

Untuk meyakini

Bila esok yang kan terjadi

Semua indah yang terjalani

Dengar bisikku

Ku merindumu

Kini kau jauh menangis hatiku

Masih adakah ruang hatimu

Untukku kembali..oh

Beri cinta waktu

Untuk meyakinimu..

Oy, Menik!!

Menik, you sure are a weird chick. Why are you still thinking of your love life as games? Ini tentang hubungan antara 2 orang, Nik. Antara pria dan wanita. Bukan balapan.

Gue gak ngerti apakah ini gara2 lo dulu kebanyakan baca novel Harlequin ato apa, yang mana hero dan heroinenya bener2 musti ada mind games bla bla bla gitu. Yang cowok pake strategi menaklukkan si cewek. Yang cewek sibuk menghalau serangan dan bersikeras dia gak bakal sampe takluk. And so on and so on, terus they made love passionately, and they live happily ever after. Well, not exactly like that, but the gist of it is that you still don’t understand how to treat your relationship with him. At least that’s how it seems.

Dalam suatu permainan yang adil ada peraturannya. Dan selalu buat kesepakatan di awal kalau memutuskan untuk mengikuti suatu permainan. You didn’t do that, cuy! You’re the only person in the relationship who thinks you are in a game. He doesn’t. Well, shame on you! Now you’re broken and crying and sad etc. While he just seems oblivious to the situation you are in.

Wake up, Menik! Either you tell him you want him, or tell him to leave you alone. And forget about these games whatsoever. You've made it as a mind game. Well, it's your mind. And your heart which get damaged. I and Kucil only could stand in the background and watch you go berserk every single day. And read your crazy tweets. Cuy, much as I am entertained by your weirdness, I'd rather you forget him and move on. I don't care how. You actually know how, you just get swayed over and over agin by him. Hiiiiihhh...

01062010, 07:05 pm

Am alone at the office. Feels great though, when the boss doesn’t call. I’ve finished my tasks, and the other guys are going outta town. Boss Man is with Om Noy in their room. They keep calling me there, for nothing. For nothing. No work to do. Doh. Mendingan gue di ruangan gue yang ber-AC dan tak berasap rokok dwuooong…

Anyway, pagi ini dimulai dengan mandi pagi-pagi banget karena diminta datang lebih cepat ke kantor. Semalam gue ngungsi ke kamar JBoy karena kamar gue musti dijebol. Penyebabnya? Pipa septic tank diperkirakan udah ambrol dan lapuk, padahal salurannya ada di bawah lantai kamar gue. Jadi pas gue semalem pulang, kaget deh. Kasur dan sofa kecil di kamar menghilang, trus lemari dan drawer ditutupin plastik raksasa. Ternyata dipindahin ke kamar JBoy tu kasur. Segala macem botol2 parfum dan perlengkapan dandan gue juga udah diungsiin kesana. Padahal mah, gak pernah dipake juga tu perlengkapan make up. Dibuang juga gak apa2 kali, mak. Ihihi… Kamar JBoy dulu tuh sebenernya kamar gue. Jadi berasa déjà vu juga semalem. Berasa masih di SMU, bikin PR, masih jaman pager, belum ada hape dan BlackBerry. Qiqiqiqiqi…

Begitu keluar kamar, Bangbag lagi tiduran di depan TV. Tumben banget niy anak jadi anteng tak lincah. Ternyata gara2 dia mendadak demam. Padahal hari ini kan hari pertama dia masuk sekolah lagi. Hiks. Gak tega liat dia yang biasanya petakilan abis jadi diem gitu. Cepet sembuh ya, Sayang. Ntar Tante Bengal beliin es krim deh kalo udah sembuh. Kalo dibolehin sama Mama itu juga. Hehee… Pokoknya cepet sembuh ya, Sayang. Muaaaachhh!!

Anyways, I do enjoy my new spot at the office. It has an air conditioner, so the guys aren’t allowed to smoke in here. They have to go outside for that. Thank God. I’ve never thought I’d see the day… The problem is, the internet connection hasn’t been installed yet. So, I must do with my BB until the PCs are connected. And my eyes are sore to the point of nausea. *Hueeek*

So  okay, I have to go now. So, see ya, peeps… 

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Hey - Fatima Rainey

HEY - Fatima Rainey

You shouldn't hesitate 'bout 

my feelings for you

i've proven so many times in 

different ways for you

i hope somewhere deep inside 

you know that i love you

coz whenever you go walking my way

Chorus:

i say hey, hey

i love you till the morning comes, ooh

i say hey, hey

i'll kiss you in the morning sun

Now is not the right time to get serious

(now is not the right time

now is not the right time, baby)

i don't wanna seem mysterious

(just give me time,

in time i'll be forever set myself on you)

but whenever you come walking my way

Chorus: 

i say hey, hey

i love you till the morning comes, ooh

i say hey, hey

i'll kiss you in the morning sun

* pa ra pap....

Love you more than words can say

love you more in every way

the love we share is oh...so strong

i know that we both belong

but whenever you come walking my way

Chorus:

i say hey, hey

i love you till the morning comes, ooh

i say hey, hey

i'll kiss you in the morning sun

* pa ra pap....

Bridge:

coz whenever you come walking (walking)

my way (my way) my way

i say...

Chorus:

i say hey, hey

i love you till the morning comes, ooh

i say hey, hey

i'll kiss you in the morning sun

(repeat until fade)

01022010, 09:15 pm

Hari ini salah satu kerabat gue meninggal dunia. Dia adalah nyokapnya Liz. Dan Liz adalah sepupu ipar gue. Jujur, gue gak kenal juga dengan almarhumah, padahal gue lumayan dekat dengan Liz. Gue dan kakak gue udah di rumah duka dari jam 6 pagi, siapa tahu ada yang bisa dibantuin. Keluarga dan kerabat mulai bermunculan jam 7an lewat. Dan gak ada yang nolongin gimana gitu. Mustinya kan kalau ada apapun, sekecil apapun itu, orang2 bisa nolongin, walaupun hal kecil. Sementara anak2nya dan suami almarhumah pastinya sedang sibuk ngurusin jenazah dan pemakaman. Agak risih juga melihat kejadian tersebut, walaupun disana bisa dibilang gue orang luar. Mungkin gue cuma bisa bantu pegangin kain untuk nutupin jenazah saat dikafani, but at least I did something. Not that I'm counting.

It's simple, really. I may be a bad girl. Not to say lazy. But it's just proper and nice if you help out with something whenever someone is in trouble. Preparing mineral water is easy. Bringing out chairs only takes some energy, and easily remedied by a meal. It's not like it would kill us to do that. Right?

Happy New Year 2010!!
All the best for ya!
Mwaaa...