Case Closed

I just got back from a meeting in one of the foreign embassies in town. Then I turn on my computer, and apparently Kunti had answered my letter. It is negative. I did not put much hope when I sent it. And now there is no hope at all. She is too disappointed and angry at us all. And she even threw Kucil and Menik away too when the problem was me, me, and me only. Is it wrong if I get disappointed in her too? As Kucil said, Kunti sees me, Kucil and Menik as one package. So none of us can put some sense into her. Dammit!!

"Bukankah teman terakhir yang mengerti kita adalah sahabat ketika semua teman kita pergi dan tidak mengerti posisi kita?"

That's what Menik said in our YM chat just now. So true, isn't it? I tried to explain everything in the letter. I tried to apologize to her. I even tried to be the loser. But either she's too stubborn or simply too stupid to accept my apology. I know, I can't push her. I can't force her to do what I want. And like I said, everyone has their own personality and style. So, I respect her decision. Even if it means that I'm losing a best friend. Maybe we're in different wavelength, so whatever I say won't matter to her. Hereby, I rest my case.

Maybe I'm giving up.
Maybe I'm a coward.
Or maybe I'm just setting her free.
Whatever you think of me, this case is already closed.

Goodbye, friend.
Have a good life.
And thanks for everything...