Tekad gue hari ini adalah gue harus mulai usaha nulis lagi. Mau nulis di blog aja rasanya males banget. Males mikir, males ngetik, males riset kalo ada hal yg musti diriset, males kalo ada anak kantor yang ngintip kalo gue lagi nge-blog, males semua-muanya deh.
Pas lagi di jalan ato sibuk, tau2 nongol aja tu inspirasi. Ada aja yang pengen ditulis. Begitu ada waktu buat nulis, udah standby di depan macbook, eh lupa semua apa yang mau ditulis. Jadinya malah nyampah gak jelas kayak gini nih. Kamfredd... :(
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Thursday, December 16, 2010
An Opportunity Came and Used ;)
The maid resigned. Peeps in my house were pissed off. Come on, it's not like you were underpaid or badly enslaved. Pffftt, maids! Can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em.
Ah well, at least with her gone, I got this morning totally alone at home. Dad, mom, and Bangbag were already gone to their respective destinations, and I was still waiting for Crewcut to come and pick me up. Half an hour of solitude. I miss being totally alone at home like this. But 30 minutes would never be enough, and knowing I would have to get my ass to work did not help either. That's when the brain blinked and winked at me. :p
I texted Crewcut to tell him to go straight into the house when he arrived on the pretext of using the toilet should anyone asked. Anyone such as the security guys and the neighbours. Not long after I texted him, he arrived and went straight in. I guess he knew instantly what my intention was. He already got his cues from the non-existent car in the garage that no one but me were at home. He knocked at my door and I opened it, wearing my robe. Err, okay, I guess I shouldn't bore you with details, yeah? After all, you'd know what happened after I opened that door. You should... :p
All crankiness gone! So yeah, it was an opportunity that came and used. ;)
Ah well, at least with her gone, I got this morning totally alone at home. Dad, mom, and Bangbag were already gone to their respective destinations, and I was still waiting for Crewcut to come and pick me up. Half an hour of solitude. I miss being totally alone at home like this. But 30 minutes would never be enough, and knowing I would have to get my ass to work did not help either. That's when the brain blinked and winked at me. :p
I texted Crewcut to tell him to go straight into the house when he arrived on the pretext of using the toilet should anyone asked. Anyone such as the security guys and the neighbours. Not long after I texted him, he arrived and went straight in. I guess he knew instantly what my intention was. He already got his cues from the non-existent car in the garage that no one but me were at home. He knocked at my door and I opened it, wearing my robe. Err, okay, I guess I shouldn't bore you with details, yeah? After all, you'd know what happened after I opened that door. You should... :p
All crankiness gone! So yeah, it was an opportunity that came and used. ;)
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Incompatible BB-Blogspot
Entah kenapa, udah beberapa hari terakhir ini gue mengalami kesulitan ngeblog dari BlackBerry gue. Padahal lagi mood nulis, eh alatnya gak mendukung. Kan gue gak selalu berada dekat laptop ato PC. Pas lagi di taxi ato lagi duduk di Starbucks, trus pengen nulis, eh gagal maning. Bete. Dan begitu udah nangkring di depan monitor laptop, langsung mati ide lagi. Moodnya ilang, idenya ilang, dan kalaupun jadi nulis ya hasilnya nyampah kayak gini.
Damn...
What is it with you, Blogspot?
Damn...
What is it with you, Blogspot?
Monday, December 06, 2010
Question and Elaboration
Q: What do you write when you want to write but you don't know what to write?
A: Errr, none?
-______-'
A: Errr, none?
-______-'
Friday, December 03, 2010
My Own Good Friday
Thank You, Providence, for this overall good day. When everyone else were dissin n cussin traffic jams, rain, and everything else, I thankfully had fun.
For starter, I had a delightfully luscious moist carrot cake for breakfast. I'd say it's on par with the ones in New York bakeries or cakeries. Way to jump start my day, eh? :D And then, Crewcut picked me up for work, in the rain and all. There were jams, but we found a new alternative cutting road. No other motorbikes and cars alongside us. What usually takes 30 minutes, we made it in 10 minutes. Hahahaaa... Once again, thank God.
When we arrived at the office, I made coffee and we had our morning rituals of chatting and joking in the pantry. Before we knew it, it was already 11 am. Unproductive but fun morning. :p We ordered lunch of nasi warteg. Joe, our office boy chose the menu for me. It was oseng taoge, telur ceplok, and balado terong. Anjrit, enak gila!! After lunch, we chatted again. And again, time flew away. When I went back to my desk, it was already 3 pm. What an unproductive but fun afternoon. ;)
I harvested my crops in Farmville, hunting my friends profiles for extra stuffs in FV, etc etc, which took me almost 2 hours. I had an appointment of early dinner at 5 with one of our vendor. But since it was raining cats and dogs, we had to postpone until the rain subsided. It's only for 1,5 hours though. After the rain stopped, we went to this all you can eat resto in the south. It's a treat, and we had so much fun. We chatted, the four of us, about everything. About our past project together, work, even broadcast world and stuffs. Between me and them, we probably all had 11 rounds. That's how hungry they were. Well, not me. Trying to watch my intake and all. :p
When it's all done, I took a ride with Dan and he dropped me off at PIM. The mall was about to close for the night, but not until I bought my new Starbucks tumbler and satisfy my caffeine craving. Seeing how awful the queue was at the taxi stand, I decided to walk out the mall and catch a taxi there, to no avail. Meanwhile, I took a peek and saw the queue was getting even worse. So, I decided to cross the sky bridge and try to get a taxi home from the mall across the street. Almost equally awful queue, but there's a premium taxi waiting for new passengers. Only one taxi, and the other people seemed oblivious. I thought, what the heck, and decided to take that taxi. Costed me more than twice, but it was all worthed it. Luxurious car, sipping my Starbucks peppermint moccha from the new tumbler, listening to jazzy music from my BB playlist. I almost wished for traffic jams so I could enjoy my ride home. Hahahaaa... I'm just that whacko sometimes. :p
Well, then. I'm off to bed now. Have a nice weekend, peeps.
For starter, I had a delightfully luscious moist carrot cake for breakfast. I'd say it's on par with the ones in New York bakeries or cakeries. Way to jump start my day, eh? :D And then, Crewcut picked me up for work, in the rain and all. There were jams, but we found a new alternative cutting road. No other motorbikes and cars alongside us. What usually takes 30 minutes, we made it in 10 minutes. Hahahaaa... Once again, thank God.
When we arrived at the office, I made coffee and we had our morning rituals of chatting and joking in the pantry. Before we knew it, it was already 11 am. Unproductive but fun morning. :p We ordered lunch of nasi warteg. Joe, our office boy chose the menu for me. It was oseng taoge, telur ceplok, and balado terong. Anjrit, enak gila!! After lunch, we chatted again. And again, time flew away. When I went back to my desk, it was already 3 pm. What an unproductive but fun afternoon. ;)
I harvested my crops in Farmville, hunting my friends profiles for extra stuffs in FV, etc etc, which took me almost 2 hours. I had an appointment of early dinner at 5 with one of our vendor. But since it was raining cats and dogs, we had to postpone until the rain subsided. It's only for 1,5 hours though. After the rain stopped, we went to this all you can eat resto in the south. It's a treat, and we had so much fun. We chatted, the four of us, about everything. About our past project together, work, even broadcast world and stuffs. Between me and them, we probably all had 11 rounds. That's how hungry they were. Well, not me. Trying to watch my intake and all. :p
When it's all done, I took a ride with Dan and he dropped me off at PIM. The mall was about to close for the night, but not until I bought my new Starbucks tumbler and satisfy my caffeine craving. Seeing how awful the queue was at the taxi stand, I decided to walk out the mall and catch a taxi there, to no avail. Meanwhile, I took a peek and saw the queue was getting even worse. So, I decided to cross the sky bridge and try to get a taxi home from the mall across the street. Almost equally awful queue, but there's a premium taxi waiting for new passengers. Only one taxi, and the other people seemed oblivious. I thought, what the heck, and decided to take that taxi. Costed me more than twice, but it was all worthed it. Luxurious car, sipping my Starbucks peppermint moccha from the new tumbler, listening to jazzy music from my BB playlist. I almost wished for traffic jams so I could enjoy my ride home. Hahahaaa... I'm just that whacko sometimes. :p
Well, then. I'm off to bed now. Have a nice weekend, peeps.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Doyok's Story
Temen kantor gue, si Doyok, itu kadang2 emang aneh. Selalu kesel sama istrinya, sering ngedumel tentang si Hani di depan temen2 di kantor. Kadang gue suka ketawa geli dengernya, tapi sering juga risih sendiri. Masalah rumah tangga kok ya dikoar di muka umum gitu, bukannya disimpen di rumah aja? Kan sama aja buka aib sendiri.
Jadi masalahnya tu lebih kurang begini. Sebelum nikah sama Hani, si Doyok udah pernah nikah, tapi terus cerai. Penyebabnya gue gak tau deh, tau kalo dia pernah nikah sebelumnya juga dari cerita anak2 pas gak ada dia. Hehe. Nah, Doyok n Hani sempet kerja sekantor dan disitulah mereka kenal. Saat itu, status Doyok adalah pacar sahabatnya Hani. Tiap hari mereka pulang bertiga. Dan Hani selalu dianter terakhir karena rumahnya lebih dekat ke rumahnya Doyok. Hahahahaaa, lama2 jadi kayak sinetron. :p
Kalo menurut pengakuan Doyok sih dia putus sama sahabatnya Hani bukan karena ada orang ketiga. Lama setelah mereka putus baru Doyok jadian sama Hani. Eh, ngapain juga gue nyeritain awal hubungan mereka ya? Twew.
Anyways, kita fast forward aja ya. Di awal pernikahan mereka, semua baik2 aja. Tapi beberapa bulan setelah itu, mulailah muncul masalah. Hani selalu mencari alasan nolak kalo Doyok ngajak ML. Jelas aja Doyok bingung. Dari ngebujuk, ngerayu, sampe marah dll semua udah dilakukan, tapi selalu mentah. Dia sampe nanya ke ortunya Hani ada apa sebenernya dengan anak mereka. Pertanyaan yang mereka sendiri pun gak punya jawabannya.
Kalo gue ngulik2 ke Doyok, gue berasumsi bahwa Hani punya trauma, entah dengan hubungan ortunya yg ternyata kurang harmonis (tapi masa iya sampe segitunya?) atau dia mengalami pelecehan seksual setelah menikah sama Doyok (lebih masuk akal tapi dia malah ngamuk2 kalo Doyok nanya). Pokoknya udah bertahun2 dan Doyok yang malang tetep belum tau kenapa istrinya sendiri menolak untuk disentuh. Bertahun2, cuys. Kesian banget deh temen gue ini. :(
Gue pernah nanya, kenapa gak dicerai aja. Secara gak ada yang nyalahin juga kalo misalnya Doyok ninggalin dia, kan salah satu kewajiban istri adalah melayani suami. Tapi Doyok bilang konsekuensi pernikahannya ya begini, dia merasa masih sanggup, dan sebenernya emang sayang sama Hani biarpun berantem terus. Salut juga sih gue. Hahahaa. Gue nanya lagi, kira2 sampe kapan dia bakal tahan. Sampe umur 70 tahun gak ML sama sekali gitu? Dia diem aja. Malah jadi bengong. Weks.
Dan hal yang ironis, mereka berdua suka anak kecil, bilangnya selalu pengen banget punya anak. Bok, lo musti ngempret baru bisa hamil n punya anak. Cerita bayi dibawain sama burung bangau itu cuma bohongan. Ckckckk... Kalo pas bagian ini gue mau nyela juga udah males deh.
Nah, mereka berdua ini suka berantem di telepon. Doyok sampe teriak2 gitu. Cuek banget deh, padahal ada gue n Boti yang seruangan sama dia. Pernah suatu kali gue, Doyok, n Cucun pergi nyari materi buat event. Doyok milih nunggu di mobil sementara gue n Cucun ke Gramedia. Pas balik ke mobil, dari jarak 2 meter aja kita bisa denger dia teriak2 di mobil. Pas masuk mobil, dia lagi maki2 Hani bilang taik, setan, dll. Trus hapenya dilempar ke dashboard sambil terus ngomel2 sendiri. Cucun nanya dia marah2 sama siapa. Jawabnya, 'biasa, bini gue.' Dueeeng, berantem kasar gitu mbok ya jangan di depan orang lain. Udahin dulu teleponnya, ato permisi dulu keluar kalo mau terus berantem. Fiuuuhhh...
Kadang gue kasihan, kadang gue kesel sendiri. Terus, ngapain juga gue ceritain masalah rumah tangga orang lain ya? Untung aja semua orang yg gue sebut di blog ini gue kasih nama samaran. Kalo gak, abislah gue. :p
Jadi masalahnya tu lebih kurang begini. Sebelum nikah sama Hani, si Doyok udah pernah nikah, tapi terus cerai. Penyebabnya gue gak tau deh, tau kalo dia pernah nikah sebelumnya juga dari cerita anak2 pas gak ada dia. Hehe. Nah, Doyok n Hani sempet kerja sekantor dan disitulah mereka kenal. Saat itu, status Doyok adalah pacar sahabatnya Hani. Tiap hari mereka pulang bertiga. Dan Hani selalu dianter terakhir karena rumahnya lebih dekat ke rumahnya Doyok. Hahahahaaa, lama2 jadi kayak sinetron. :p
Kalo menurut pengakuan Doyok sih dia putus sama sahabatnya Hani bukan karena ada orang ketiga. Lama setelah mereka putus baru Doyok jadian sama Hani. Eh, ngapain juga gue nyeritain awal hubungan mereka ya? Twew.
Anyways, kita fast forward aja ya. Di awal pernikahan mereka, semua baik2 aja. Tapi beberapa bulan setelah itu, mulailah muncul masalah. Hani selalu mencari alasan nolak kalo Doyok ngajak ML. Jelas aja Doyok bingung. Dari ngebujuk, ngerayu, sampe marah dll semua udah dilakukan, tapi selalu mentah. Dia sampe nanya ke ortunya Hani ada apa sebenernya dengan anak mereka. Pertanyaan yang mereka sendiri pun gak punya jawabannya.
Kalo gue ngulik2 ke Doyok, gue berasumsi bahwa Hani punya trauma, entah dengan hubungan ortunya yg ternyata kurang harmonis (tapi masa iya sampe segitunya?) atau dia mengalami pelecehan seksual setelah menikah sama Doyok (lebih masuk akal tapi dia malah ngamuk2 kalo Doyok nanya). Pokoknya udah bertahun2 dan Doyok yang malang tetep belum tau kenapa istrinya sendiri menolak untuk disentuh. Bertahun2, cuys. Kesian banget deh temen gue ini. :(
Gue pernah nanya, kenapa gak dicerai aja. Secara gak ada yang nyalahin juga kalo misalnya Doyok ninggalin dia, kan salah satu kewajiban istri adalah melayani suami. Tapi Doyok bilang konsekuensi pernikahannya ya begini, dia merasa masih sanggup, dan sebenernya emang sayang sama Hani biarpun berantem terus. Salut juga sih gue. Hahahaa. Gue nanya lagi, kira2 sampe kapan dia bakal tahan. Sampe umur 70 tahun gak ML sama sekali gitu? Dia diem aja. Malah jadi bengong. Weks.
Dan hal yang ironis, mereka berdua suka anak kecil, bilangnya selalu pengen banget punya anak. Bok, lo musti ngempret baru bisa hamil n punya anak. Cerita bayi dibawain sama burung bangau itu cuma bohongan. Ckckckk... Kalo pas bagian ini gue mau nyela juga udah males deh.
Nah, mereka berdua ini suka berantem di telepon. Doyok sampe teriak2 gitu. Cuek banget deh, padahal ada gue n Boti yang seruangan sama dia. Pernah suatu kali gue, Doyok, n Cucun pergi nyari materi buat event. Doyok milih nunggu di mobil sementara gue n Cucun ke Gramedia. Pas balik ke mobil, dari jarak 2 meter aja kita bisa denger dia teriak2 di mobil. Pas masuk mobil, dia lagi maki2 Hani bilang taik, setan, dll. Trus hapenya dilempar ke dashboard sambil terus ngomel2 sendiri. Cucun nanya dia marah2 sama siapa. Jawabnya, 'biasa, bini gue.' Dueeeng, berantem kasar gitu mbok ya jangan di depan orang lain. Udahin dulu teleponnya, ato permisi dulu keluar kalo mau terus berantem. Fiuuuhhh...
Kadang gue kasihan, kadang gue kesel sendiri. Terus, ngapain juga gue ceritain masalah rumah tangga orang lain ya? Untung aja semua orang yg gue sebut di blog ini gue kasih nama samaran. Kalo gak, abislah gue. :p
11302010, 07:53 pm
Entah kenapa hari ini rasanya aneh. Badan gue kedinginan terus dari kemarin. Terus hari ini moodnya rada bluish gitu. :(
I'm either PMS-ing, or just fell into my blue moods. Damn...
Definitely need something to perk my ultimately boring life up. Hey, shaggable guys, where the hell are you??
I'm either PMS-ing, or just fell into my blue moods. Damn...
Definitely need something to perk my ultimately boring life up. Hey, shaggable guys, where the hell are you??
Monday, November 29, 2010
Fallen Out of Love with Dearest Alay
Been reading these stories in Fiction Press. Categorized under Romance, the theme is of the forbidden relationship between teacher and his female student. I don't know why but I find these stories appealing. Sexy. Not that I ever have had a crush on any of my teacher. Eeww, they're gross!
I've read this kind of stories before, also on FP, but they were more into THE romance. No, THE drama, actually. The ones I'm reading now are more into sexual. They're well written without the whole super sappy drama stuffs. Not in the mood for sappy stories.
Damn, these stories make me want to have a guy. Remember my previous postings about this alay I'm supposedly had fallen in love with? Well, I no longer am in love. I've fallen out of love, if I ever was. Dammit!! I knew it! It was only a momentary digression. Alays have always been a big no-no for me. I find them repulsive blablabla. And there I was, head over heels. But no longer. Thank you, Providence. :p
Well, see. I was having the early stage of fever and stuff, the things that led to my bronchitis diagnosis. I know it's weird. You'd probably think I made it up. I didn't. I was ill, and somehow my mind worked in such a weird way that made me think I was in love with him. Hahaa. I'm that crazy.
Honestly, I feel kinda relieved. But on the other hand, I miss the feeling of being in love. I want to fall in love. I want to have a crush on a guy. It's an exhilarating feeling. I want to feel those fabulousness, the adrenaline rush whenever I think of the object of affection, the blushings and blank minds, the feminine confidence. Oh, how that would be so awesome! Instead, I don't feel a thing now. Just empty and bored. I don't necessarily feel I must have a boyfriend. Just having a reciprocated crush would be enough. At least for starters. I really miss those feelings. *sigh*
I am so fuckin bored out of my mind! Jeez!
I've read this kind of stories before, also on FP, but they were more into THE romance. No, THE drama, actually. The ones I'm reading now are more into sexual. They're well written without the whole super sappy drama stuffs. Not in the mood for sappy stories.
Damn, these stories make me want to have a guy. Remember my previous postings about this alay I'm supposedly had fallen in love with? Well, I no longer am in love. I've fallen out of love, if I ever was. Dammit!! I knew it! It was only a momentary digression. Alays have always been a big no-no for me. I find them repulsive blablabla. And there I was, head over heels. But no longer. Thank you, Providence. :p
Well, see. I was having the early stage of fever and stuff, the things that led to my bronchitis diagnosis. I know it's weird. You'd probably think I made it up. I didn't. I was ill, and somehow my mind worked in such a weird way that made me think I was in love with him. Hahaa. I'm that crazy.
Honestly, I feel kinda relieved. But on the other hand, I miss the feeling of being in love. I want to fall in love. I want to have a crush on a guy. It's an exhilarating feeling. I want to feel those fabulousness, the adrenaline rush whenever I think of the object of affection, the blushings and blank minds, the feminine confidence. Oh, how that would be so awesome! Instead, I don't feel a thing now. Just empty and bored. I don't necessarily feel I must have a boyfriend. Just having a reciprocated crush would be enough. At least for starters. I really miss those feelings. *sigh*
I am so fuckin bored out of my mind! Jeez!
Saturday, November 27, 2010
11272010, 10:35 am
Hah, akhirnya internet di rumah nyambung lagi. At least untuk weekend ini gue bisa puas2in main Farmville n browsing2. Hahahahaa... Niat banget bawa pulang laptop kantor cuma untuk main game. :p
Anyway, gue positif kena bronchitis, dan sekarang lagi dalam tahap penyembuhan. Udah bosen sama yang namanya kasur n duduk manis. Pengen sibuk lagi. Tapi apa daya, naik turun tangga aja pake batuk2. Bete!
Whatever, sekarang weekend. Berarti saatnya untuk nyaloooooon... Ato pijit ya? Ato makan2 enak aja? Hmmm... Secara Menik n Kucil lagi pada sibuk, this is gonna be a solo weekend again, I guess.
Anyway, gue positif kena bronchitis, dan sekarang lagi dalam tahap penyembuhan. Udah bosen sama yang namanya kasur n duduk manis. Pengen sibuk lagi. Tapi apa daya, naik turun tangga aja pake batuk2. Bete!
Whatever, sekarang weekend. Berarti saatnya untuk nyaloooooon... Ato pijit ya? Ato makan2 enak aja? Hmmm... Secara Menik n Kucil lagi pada sibuk, this is gonna be a solo weekend again, I guess.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Risking My Health
Anjiss, judulnya serem aja. Padahal mah isinya malah penuh keriaan. :p
Abis gak masuk kerja, langsung dadakan jadi host untuk party kantor gue di salah satu club di Jakarta. My favorite band and MCs were all there. They even played my favorite songs without me asking for them to. :D Aaaah, it's good to be talent coordinator, eh? Well, that's only one jobdesc amongst others that I have. Hehe. Felt as if it was my own party...
So, in my unfit condition, I screamed, I sang, I jumped, I danced, I drank, I did everything but improving my health. I did all that despite the doc's bronchitis analysis. Damn! Serves me right if I get worse tomorrow. -____-'
Yang lucunya, begitu mulai ada yang bubar duluan, pada pake nyalamin gue dulu, padahal tiap hari juga ketemu di kantor kalee. Bener2 deh, jadi kayak gue yang punya acara n perusahaan. MC yang naik ada kali 10 orang, sebenernya gue ngundang mereka sebagai tamu doang, tapi syukurlah, mereka ternyata naik dengan kesadaran sendiri, hihihii... Anak2 yang dulu pernah kerja di kantor gue juga pada nongol, klien pun ada yang dateng, bos2 artis dan vendor, sampe bos2 klien juga loh tumplek bleg semua. Puas juga sih. Hehe...
So, my wish before I sleep, I pray that all those activities didn't ruin my lungs and things. I'm so tired of this stupid flu, I just wanna get well soon. Amen.
Abis gak masuk kerja, langsung dadakan jadi host untuk party kantor gue di salah satu club di Jakarta. My favorite band and MCs were all there. They even played my favorite songs without me asking for them to. :D Aaaah, it's good to be talent coordinator, eh? Well, that's only one jobdesc amongst others that I have. Hehe. Felt as if it was my own party...
So, in my unfit condition, I screamed, I sang, I jumped, I danced, I drank, I did everything but improving my health. I did all that despite the doc's bronchitis analysis. Damn! Serves me right if I get worse tomorrow. -____-'
Yang lucunya, begitu mulai ada yang bubar duluan, pada pake nyalamin gue dulu, padahal tiap hari juga ketemu di kantor kalee. Bener2 deh, jadi kayak gue yang punya acara n perusahaan. MC yang naik ada kali 10 orang, sebenernya gue ngundang mereka sebagai tamu doang, tapi syukurlah, mereka ternyata naik dengan kesadaran sendiri, hihihii... Anak2 yang dulu pernah kerja di kantor gue juga pada nongol, klien pun ada yang dateng, bos2 artis dan vendor, sampe bos2 klien juga loh tumplek bleg semua. Puas juga sih. Hehe...
So, my wish before I sleep, I pray that all those activities didn't ruin my lungs and things. I'm so tired of this stupid flu, I just wanna get well soon. Amen.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Si Bengal Tumbang
Bangkeeee!!! Besok mau party, eh disuruh dokter istirahat total. Monyong! Kemungkinan bronkitis katanya. Gimana cara gue bisa kena bronkitis?? Jadi katanya gue minum dulu obat dari dia selama 3 hari, kalo masih belum membaik, gue harus rontgen thorax. Hikss...
Besok kan yang ngundang orang2 diluar anak kantor itu gue. Kalo gue gak nongol ya gak keren banget toh? Kira2 serem gak sih kalo gue nongol di club gitu dengan memakai masker? :p
Pokoknya gue harus cari alasan biar besok bisa ngantor, hence go to the party. Hmm, ideas?
Besok kan yang ngundang orang2 diluar anak kantor itu gue. Kalo gue gak nongol ya gak keren banget toh? Kira2 serem gak sih kalo gue nongol di club gitu dengan memakai masker? :p
Pokoknya gue harus cari alasan biar besok bisa ngantor, hence go to the party. Hmm, ideas?
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Ngigo 11162010, 2:20 am
Jam segini kebangun dan malah baca timeline di Twitter. Bukannya tidur lagi aja keq. Beberapa malam terakhir yg lagi rame adalah review tentang drama musikalnya Joko Anwar, Onrop. Well, it got rave reviews. Tapi 1 temen gue yg ngetwit betapa bosannya dia pas lagi nonton. Hahahaaa. So, probably it's not for everyone. ;)
Waking up at this hour, a mug of hot chocolate would be such bliss. Plus a good read until falling sleepy again. Maybe watching boring news too. :p
Well, just that notion about news puts me back into sleep. Night, peeps. :)
Waking up at this hour, a mug of hot chocolate would be such bliss. Plus a good read until falling sleepy again. Maybe watching boring news too. :p
Well, just that notion about news puts me back into sleep. Night, peeps. :)
Monday, November 15, 2010
Bengal Bimbang. Lagi?
After days of stalking his socmed accounts, even the ones he didn't share, I finally found the courage to start a chat with him via BB Messenger. Firstly, it's because I saw that he'd changed his profile picture again. This time, it must have been taken years before, because his face looks sharper and more pointed. For lack of a better word, he's rather plump now. Well, compared to that new profile picture, I mean. He's really not plump at all. :p
I thought I could just tease him about it when I started the chat. Turned out we didn't discuss it at all. Not even close to that. It's like touch and go. And to prolong it, I asked him about the song that he sang to me the other day. I made up a reason so he'd send me the music file. And he did! Yayyy!!!
But, there's this thing that put me down. He's language style was so alay. Honestly, I don't like that. So I tried to open my mind. I mean, I like this guy. But talking to him in person feels so different than when we do online chat. His written language is a turnoff. Man, he typed 'iaaaa' for 'yaaaa'. *sigh*
So, if it's that easy for me to 'unlike' him, that I must not have been like him that much, eh? Is that good news, or bad news? Well, good news because soon I can go back to my normal self. Bad news because I still let myself judge people unfairly. I know writing style does not reflect his intelligence. But it's kinda hard for me to rule that out. Inarticulate means stupid. So narrow-minded. I can't help it... Damn!
But am still trying. Don't let alay slang and typos cloud my judgement. After all, the real thing is when both of us together in persons, right? That's when you feel the real touch, hear every spoken words, and look at each other's eyes.
One remaining question: he's still oblivious, will I keep trying? *sigh*
I thought I could just tease him about it when I started the chat. Turned out we didn't discuss it at all. Not even close to that. It's like touch and go. And to prolong it, I asked him about the song that he sang to me the other day. I made up a reason so he'd send me the music file. And he did! Yayyy!!!
But, there's this thing that put me down. He's language style was so alay. Honestly, I don't like that. So I tried to open my mind. I mean, I like this guy. But talking to him in person feels so different than when we do online chat. His written language is a turnoff. Man, he typed 'iaaaa' for 'yaaaa'. *sigh*
So, if it's that easy for me to 'unlike' him, that I must not have been like him that much, eh? Is that good news, or bad news? Well, good news because soon I can go back to my normal self. Bad news because I still let myself judge people unfairly. I know writing style does not reflect his intelligence. But it's kinda hard for me to rule that out. Inarticulate means stupid. So narrow-minded. I can't help it... Damn!
But am still trying. Don't let alay slang and typos cloud my judgement. After all, the real thing is when both of us together in persons, right? That's when you feel the real touch, hear every spoken words, and look at each other's eyes.
One remaining question: he's still oblivious, will I keep trying? *sigh*
Nusrat Fateh Ali & Michael Brook - Tracery
The song is called Tracery, performed by Nusrat Fateh Ali and Michael Brooks.
Listen to it, and see if it doesn't move you somehow. It's like I were suddenly swooshed by magic into another dimension. A dimension where people lived a 12th century mid eastern lifestyle. Sand and dust, dirty camels, slick merchant, colorful harem girls, romantic heroes, intrigues, smell of exotic spices, heat, dried fruits, figs and dates, tents in the middle of the desert, belly dancers, and Kama Sutra. Damn, so sexy... I don't wanna open my eyes.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Bengal Misses Her Alay
Being ill sucks. Staying in bed for more than a day puts me in a restless mood. Adding an alay into the equation results in fiasco. A fiasco in my mind. Jeez, I am head over heels. Oh please cure me. I hate being sick, and I can't stand missing someone like this.
Sometimes, I feel as if I'm in the twilight zone. The theme song plays over and over in my head. This object of my affection is so totally unlikely for me. I like tall guy, white and muscular, smart and articulate, clean cut and shaven, and he IS not even one of those things, for Pete's sake!! He's an alay, what more can you expect?
I'm a lost cause. For me to stoop this low is unforgivable. *pardon my expression, no offense to alays out there*. And to know that he's indifferent is the last straw. I think I should go see a shrink.
I miss him, I keep thinking about him. I realize that he's definitely not the first thing in my mind every time I wake up, but he's the one in mind before I sleep. I miss him. Yeah, alay or not, I miss him. :(
Sometimes, I feel as if I'm in the twilight zone. The theme song plays over and over in my head. This object of my affection is so totally unlikely for me. I like tall guy, white and muscular, smart and articulate, clean cut and shaven, and he IS not even one of those things, for Pete's sake!! He's an alay, what more can you expect?
I'm a lost cause. For me to stoop this low is unforgivable. *pardon my expression, no offense to alays out there*. And to know that he's indifferent is the last straw. I think I should go see a shrink.
I miss him, I keep thinking about him. I realize that he's definitely not the first thing in my mind every time I wake up, but he's the one in mind before I sleep. I miss him. Yeah, alay or not, I miss him. :(
Friday, November 12, 2010
Missing His Voice
He sang to me. His lips right at my ear. That's the click, the moment that I fell into him. Just some stupid song. In the midst of people rushing around in the convention building, he sang at my ear. I might have been blushing, I couldn't remember. And for him, for him it might be just another song to sing, another chick to woo, and then forgets all about it.
He said it was his own song. He made it, he had recorded it, and about to release it next year. Who knows? He might be the next big thing, or just another alay wannabe. Still, he's my alay. Damn, how did I get this corny? I disgust myself. :(
Yeah well, I miss his voice, and his presence. I can't even remember how it's like. The time we spent was too short, and all I got left just flashes of feeling, images, and voices. And I'm starting to lose them too.
Weird. It's just too weird for me to feel this way.
He said it was his own song. He made it, he had recorded it, and about to release it next year. Who knows? He might be the next big thing, or just another alay wannabe. Still, he's my alay. Damn, how did I get this corny? I disgust myself. :(
Yeah well, I miss his voice, and his presence. I can't even remember how it's like. The time we spent was too short, and all I got left just flashes of feeling, images, and voices. And I'm starting to lose them too.
Weird. It's just too weird for me to feel this way.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Bengal Naksir Alay :p
It's been a while since the last time I have a serious crush on someone. I guess I have one now. Flu plus crush equals shitdom. That's what I'm feeling at the moment. Totally blue and clueless. Not liking it a bit.
Ketemu cowok pas ngerjain event kemarin. Sebenernya bisa dibilang dia itu rival secara dia juga kerja di EO. Cuma karena klien kita ini pengen event besarnya ini ditangani langsung sama 3 tim, jadilah ada 3 perusahaan yg bekerja sama ngerjainnya. EO gue khusus ngerjain acara, EO dia khusus ngerjain produksi, dan yg 1 lagi khusus konsep dan image. Berbulan-bulan menggodok segala detail dan rincian, tapi bener2 ketemu dan ngobrol sebelum event itu paling cuma 2x. Hahaa, kesan pertama cuma nih anak rambutnya alay beuut. :p But something stickes, his voice was resonant and a bit husky. Just the way I like it. Damn, the trap had been opened.
Event selama seminggu, dan selama seminggu itu kita sering musti cek & ricek bermacam detail barengan. Secara pekerjaan, dia udah pasti ok karena dia udah pernah ngerjain event ini beberapa kali sebelumnya. Justru gue yang anak baru. But he's okay, not patronizing at all. Gak kelihatan keras ato apa, malah pas lagi ada show di panggung, kita udah pasti di posisi paling belakang untuk ngawasin situasi dan kondisi. And guess what, we know the same songs, we even sang and danced together. Gak ada yang jaim deh padahal bos2 kita juga ada disana. Hahahaa...
Diluar itu, kita mulai bercanda beneran pas 2 hari menjelang event berakhir. Dan mungkin disitulah gue mulai suka sama dia. Kampret. Dari segitu banyak cowok yang seliweran kenapa gue musti naksir sama anak alay ini? *jedotin kepala ke tembok* Mending kalo dia juga suka sama gue. Hiks...
Event udah kelar, udah saling add di Facebook, kalo kontak BB mah udah dari kapan tau, dan sampai disitu aja. Gak ada ajakan ngobrol, gak ada tag foto ato apa, gak ada apapun yang nunjukin dia ada perhatian sama gue sedikitpun. *yaowoooh, desperate amat gue yak? Preeeet!!*
I know he's not married, he's 30, and he's mobile, and he's definitely not gay. Oh well, he does love beautiful, skinny, lithe women. -____-' Stupid me to feel this way, ya? Dengan seleranya yang seperti itu, jelas aja dia gak bakal ngelirik gue in that way. *banting monitor*
Tapi nikmatin aja deh. Asik juga ngerasain kayak begini lagi. Ngecek BB terus, stalking FB dan Twitternya dia, sama liatin foto2nya di BB gue. Wakakakaak, gue bener2 parah deh. Najis lo, Bengaaal!! Hadoooh hampooooonnn...
Ketemu cowok pas ngerjain event kemarin. Sebenernya bisa dibilang dia itu rival secara dia juga kerja di EO. Cuma karena klien kita ini pengen event besarnya ini ditangani langsung sama 3 tim, jadilah ada 3 perusahaan yg bekerja sama ngerjainnya. EO gue khusus ngerjain acara, EO dia khusus ngerjain produksi, dan yg 1 lagi khusus konsep dan image. Berbulan-bulan menggodok segala detail dan rincian, tapi bener2 ketemu dan ngobrol sebelum event itu paling cuma 2x. Hahaa, kesan pertama cuma nih anak rambutnya alay beuut. :p But something stickes, his voice was resonant and a bit husky. Just the way I like it. Damn, the trap had been opened.
Event selama seminggu, dan selama seminggu itu kita sering musti cek & ricek bermacam detail barengan. Secara pekerjaan, dia udah pasti ok karena dia udah pernah ngerjain event ini beberapa kali sebelumnya. Justru gue yang anak baru. But he's okay, not patronizing at all. Gak kelihatan keras ato apa, malah pas lagi ada show di panggung, kita udah pasti di posisi paling belakang untuk ngawasin situasi dan kondisi. And guess what, we know the same songs, we even sang and danced together. Gak ada yang jaim deh padahal bos2 kita juga ada disana. Hahahaa...
Diluar itu, kita mulai bercanda beneran pas 2 hari menjelang event berakhir. Dan mungkin disitulah gue mulai suka sama dia. Kampret. Dari segitu banyak cowok yang seliweran kenapa gue musti naksir sama anak alay ini? *jedotin kepala ke tembok* Mending kalo dia juga suka sama gue. Hiks...
Event udah kelar, udah saling add di Facebook, kalo kontak BB mah udah dari kapan tau, dan sampai disitu aja. Gak ada ajakan ngobrol, gak ada tag foto ato apa, gak ada apapun yang nunjukin dia ada perhatian sama gue sedikitpun. *yaowoooh, desperate amat gue yak? Preeeet!!*
I know he's not married, he's 30, and he's mobile, and he's definitely not gay. Oh well, he does love beautiful, skinny, lithe women. -____-' Stupid me to feel this way, ya? Dengan seleranya yang seperti itu, jelas aja dia gak bakal ngelirik gue in that way. *banting monitor*
Tapi nikmatin aja deh. Asik juga ngerasain kayak begini lagi. Ngecek BB terus, stalking FB dan Twitternya dia, sama liatin foto2nya di BB gue. Wakakakaak, gue bener2 parah deh. Najis lo, Bengaaal!! Hadoooh hampooooonnn...
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Mati Gaya di Acara Keluarga, Selalu...
Haduuuuh, paling stres kalo lagi acara keluarga deh. Banyakan yang gue gak kenal. Basa basi n pasang muka manis. Sopan to the max. Apalagi kalo yang punya acara tuh justru keluarga ipar. Makin mati gaya deh. Dan ternyata mereka lebih rewel nanyain soal jodoh. Eyangs n tantes, please deh. None of your business ye! Oh, one more thing, you need to shut your mouth up, too, dear bro. Dasar kompor mledug! Huh!
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
Always Could Do With An Embrace
As I wrote in my previous posting, when weary or tired with the world, being in someone's arms is the cure. And I could do with an embrace right now. Not anyone's arms. But someone who's emotionally involved with you. Not best friends, but lovers. Because this embrace should be followed by arousing touches, loving kisses, all that lead to our bodies become one. Because that's when you feel the connection. That's when you're being most open emotionally. That's what gives you the adrenaline rush. And when it's over, that's when you're being content. At peace with the world. At peace with yourself.
Yes, I could do with that kind of embrace right now...
Yes, I could do with that kind of embrace right now...
Bengal & Agy, Once Upon A Time
Minggu lalu, tiba2 Syd SMS bilang. 'Eh, kata Ibu sekarang si Agy single tuh. Trus dia udah masuk Islam.'
Flabbergasted, I answered, 'ooookaaay. And what's that supposed to do with anything?'
'Well, cuma keinget aja dulu lo n dia. Siapa tau kalian mau balik lagi. Secara dulu tuh agama jadi masalah kan?'
-______-'
Hell, well, right. So, even my best friend doesn't know the real story until now. *ooops* You see, I was still with Alv back then. Awalnya, perjanjian gue dan Alv saat itu adalah kita gak serius. Kapanpun mau putus silahkan. And kinda in a so called open relationship. I hung on to those deal. In reality, Agy was the only guy other than Alv. It was only for 2 days for Pete's sake!
It was Syd's brother's wedding. I stayed at her house for those 2 days. One time, at about 11 pm there's something needed to be done for the wedding, and Agy offered to do it. He asked me to go with him to the photocopier. The stuff didn't take long to do. When we were almost back to the house, he stopped the car. Out of the blue, he asked whether I had a boyfriend. I just shrugged. Yeah, I know, I kinda misguided him. And I was in a temporary break with Alv. But all day he sent me this come hither signals. The best friend of my best friend's brother who usually acted indifferent suddenly showering attention on me. It was so obvious. He even rubbed my cold feet in front of Syd's family and relatives earlier that night.
So the car stopped. He told me that he actually had a crush on me for a long time. I was silent. A bit shocked and unbelieving. I had no clue whatsoever. I asked him why he hadn't given any signs. And he said that he had been in relationships. None of them serious. And he wasn't looking for anything serious too. But sometimes, a guy just needed to be hugged. Needed someone to take him in her arms. When feeling weary of the world, being in someone's arms is the cure.
'Kalo cuma untuk meluk aja gue masih bisa, Gy. Tapi cuma peluk aja. Lo mau?'
Very softly he said, 'Mau banget...'
So I took him in my arms. I stroked his hair. Just holding on like that for a few moments. He stirred. I thought he wanted to end it, so I let him go, but he held me and for a fraction of a second everything but us seemed to disappear. He kissed me. Oh so softly at first. I froze. Stupidly froze. My mind went blank. Sensing no fight, he kissed me again, this time sensually licking and biting my lips. I let go my breath, my lips opened and he went deeper. Then it's over. And I was still frozen.
He said my name. I blinked. 'Why did you do that?' I asked.
He just shrugged.
I tried to move, but my hands were trembling. It was a funny sensation. My mind was still fuzzy. "Hey look! My hands are trembling, Gy!' *Anjis, polos banget gue waktu itu ya?*
'Ya ampun, soriiii banget, Ngal. Gue gak bermaksud sampe gitu. Gue gak bisa nahan, tau-tau nyium lo gitu.'
'Kita masuk aja yuk. Udah ditungguin sama kakaknya Syd kan... Let's just forget about it, shall we?'
He agreed. We said nothing after that. We entered the house and acted as if nothing had happened. It was late. He went into his designated room, I changed clothes and prepared to sleep. It's no surprise that I couldn't put myself to sleep. He was on my mind. I played the kissing scene over and over again. Trying to analyze whether I had led him on or not. On my part, I only offered to hold him for a moment. Nothing else.
Syd wanted to be with her brother and sister, so I was to sleep alone that night. I decided to get out and watch TV since I couldn't close my eyes. Before long, he went out his room and went to me. Standing by my sofa, silently asking permission to join me. I just smiled, I don't know what else to do. And I didn't want to rouse the whole house should we had a fight. And I was curious anyway. He sat next to me, before long we were holding hands.
The possibility of any of Syd's family member to suddenly wake up and caught us in contact put me in a dilemma. But sweet as he was, I threw all cautions away. *emang dasar bengal aja sih. :p* Then he pulled me so we were cuddling. Just watching tv and chatted leisurely. I don't remember until now what were watching or what we were chatting about, but it was a totally different experience compared to being with Alv. Agy was a sweeter and polished male.
'Can I kiss you again?' I turned my head and his face was only an inch away. Hesitation on my part, but that didn't deter him. He moved closer and we kissed again. Long kiss. Intimate kiss. He didn't even let me breath. I had to break our kiss to pull in some air. He captured my lips again. This time, his hands started roaming on my neck, going under my shirt, touching the sides of my breasts. Just circling, kinda putting me in a frenzy. There were a part of my anatomy longing for his touches. But he kept denying it. A moment later he pulled away.
He just looked at me. His hands on my breasts, my hands on his ruffled hair. I decided to test him. I moved closer and lick his ear. I blew softly. He shivered. I could feel his goosebumps. Power trip!! I loved the feeling. Little bites, fingers playing softly on the back of his neck, and all hell went loose. He devoured me. No chance for me to keep away. He didn't let me touch him, I let him take control. And it felt so great.
Suffice it to say that we loved those moments. The next day, he kinda asked me to be his girl. But as I was already with Alv, and I wasn't sure whether it was only lust speaking, I said no. Well, I can't say that he took it well. I've led him on, but he already knew my situation. He wanted me to choose, so I chose. Years of relationship against hours of intimation, what do you think?
It was long before I got fed up with Alv. And I've forgotten about it until Syd brought it up in a single SMS. Damn, now I have memories, and no one to relive it with. I'm soooo curious about how Agy is now. I want to know how he's doing. But then again, probably it's better this way. Probably not knowing is the better now. Probably...
Flabbergasted, I answered, 'ooookaaay. And what's that supposed to do with anything?'
'Well, cuma keinget aja dulu lo n dia. Siapa tau kalian mau balik lagi. Secara dulu tuh agama jadi masalah kan?'
-______-'
Hell, well, right. So, even my best friend doesn't know the real story until now. *ooops* You see, I was still with Alv back then. Awalnya, perjanjian gue dan Alv saat itu adalah kita gak serius. Kapanpun mau putus silahkan. And kinda in a so called open relationship. I hung on to those deal. In reality, Agy was the only guy other than Alv. It was only for 2 days for Pete's sake!
It was Syd's brother's wedding. I stayed at her house for those 2 days. One time, at about 11 pm there's something needed to be done for the wedding, and Agy offered to do it. He asked me to go with him to the photocopier. The stuff didn't take long to do. When we were almost back to the house, he stopped the car. Out of the blue, he asked whether I had a boyfriend. I just shrugged. Yeah, I know, I kinda misguided him. And I was in a temporary break with Alv. But all day he sent me this come hither signals. The best friend of my best friend's brother who usually acted indifferent suddenly showering attention on me. It was so obvious. He even rubbed my cold feet in front of Syd's family and relatives earlier that night.
So the car stopped. He told me that he actually had a crush on me for a long time. I was silent. A bit shocked and unbelieving. I had no clue whatsoever. I asked him why he hadn't given any signs. And he said that he had been in relationships. None of them serious. And he wasn't looking for anything serious too. But sometimes, a guy just needed to be hugged. Needed someone to take him in her arms. When feeling weary of the world, being in someone's arms is the cure.
'Kalo cuma untuk meluk aja gue masih bisa, Gy. Tapi cuma peluk aja. Lo mau?'
Very softly he said, 'Mau banget...'
So I took him in my arms. I stroked his hair. Just holding on like that for a few moments. He stirred. I thought he wanted to end it, so I let him go, but he held me and for a fraction of a second everything but us seemed to disappear. He kissed me. Oh so softly at first. I froze. Stupidly froze. My mind went blank. Sensing no fight, he kissed me again, this time sensually licking and biting my lips. I let go my breath, my lips opened and he went deeper. Then it's over. And I was still frozen.
He said my name. I blinked. 'Why did you do that?' I asked.
He just shrugged.
I tried to move, but my hands were trembling. It was a funny sensation. My mind was still fuzzy. "Hey look! My hands are trembling, Gy!' *Anjis, polos banget gue waktu itu ya?*
'Ya ampun, soriiii banget, Ngal. Gue gak bermaksud sampe gitu. Gue gak bisa nahan, tau-tau nyium lo gitu.'
'Kita masuk aja yuk. Udah ditungguin sama kakaknya Syd kan... Let's just forget about it, shall we?'
He agreed. We said nothing after that. We entered the house and acted as if nothing had happened. It was late. He went into his designated room, I changed clothes and prepared to sleep. It's no surprise that I couldn't put myself to sleep. He was on my mind. I played the kissing scene over and over again. Trying to analyze whether I had led him on or not. On my part, I only offered to hold him for a moment. Nothing else.
Syd wanted to be with her brother and sister, so I was to sleep alone that night. I decided to get out and watch TV since I couldn't close my eyes. Before long, he went out his room and went to me. Standing by my sofa, silently asking permission to join me. I just smiled, I don't know what else to do. And I didn't want to rouse the whole house should we had a fight. And I was curious anyway. He sat next to me, before long we were holding hands.
The possibility of any of Syd's family member to suddenly wake up and caught us in contact put me in a dilemma. But sweet as he was, I threw all cautions away. *emang dasar bengal aja sih. :p* Then he pulled me so we were cuddling. Just watching tv and chatted leisurely. I don't remember until now what were watching or what we were chatting about, but it was a totally different experience compared to being with Alv. Agy was a sweeter and polished male.
'Can I kiss you again?' I turned my head and his face was only an inch away. Hesitation on my part, but that didn't deter him. He moved closer and we kissed again. Long kiss. Intimate kiss. He didn't even let me breath. I had to break our kiss to pull in some air. He captured my lips again. This time, his hands started roaming on my neck, going under my shirt, touching the sides of my breasts. Just circling, kinda putting me in a frenzy. There were a part of my anatomy longing for his touches. But he kept denying it. A moment later he pulled away.
He just looked at me. His hands on my breasts, my hands on his ruffled hair. I decided to test him. I moved closer and lick his ear. I blew softly. He shivered. I could feel his goosebumps. Power trip!! I loved the feeling. Little bites, fingers playing softly on the back of his neck, and all hell went loose. He devoured me. No chance for me to keep away. He didn't let me touch him, I let him take control. And it felt so great.
Suffice it to say that we loved those moments. The next day, he kinda asked me to be his girl. But as I was already with Alv, and I wasn't sure whether it was only lust speaking, I said no. Well, I can't say that he took it well. I've led him on, but he already knew my situation. He wanted me to choose, so I chose. Years of relationship against hours of intimation, what do you think?
It was long before I got fed up with Alv. And I've forgotten about it until Syd brought it up in a single SMS. Damn, now I have memories, and no one to relive it with. I'm soooo curious about how Agy is now. I want to know how he's doing. But then again, probably it's better this way. Probably not knowing is the better now. Probably...
Monday, September 27, 2010
10042010, 05:02 pm
The mood is blue. Looking at me, you might not know it. I just feel a little empty inside. Bored to the skull. So bored that I think I'm on the brink of stupidity. I feel stupid. Maybe I AM stupid. I don't know. This is a new level of emotion for me. Can it even be called an emotion?
Anyways, I was out of town back on Lebaran. I celebrated it at a harbor city somewhere in Java. Interesting, seeing that I wasn't with any of my family then. I was working, and I was the only Moslem there. No ketupat or lontong, no cakes, no cookies. Only instant noodles and instant porridge. Pathetic, I know. Going through it, I felt kinda miserable. But now, it makes a funky story. Something to boast. Hahaa... Yes, I am that weird. :p
Wow, the rain and thunder is awesome!! I love rains! Okay, I feel better now. Let's enjoy the freezing air. Let's spray our faces with rain. Let's get wet! Wooot!!!
Anyways, I was out of town back on Lebaran. I celebrated it at a harbor city somewhere in Java. Interesting, seeing that I wasn't with any of my family then. I was working, and I was the only Moslem there. No ketupat or lontong, no cakes, no cookies. Only instant noodles and instant porridge. Pathetic, I know. Going through it, I felt kinda miserable. But now, it makes a funky story. Something to boast. Hahaa... Yes, I am that weird. :p
Wow, the rain and thunder is awesome!! I love rains! Okay, I feel better now. Let's enjoy the freezing air. Let's spray our faces with rain. Let's get wet! Wooot!!!
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Beyotch!!
Menderita kekesalan dan kebosanan. Semuanya terhadap kerjaan. Yang jelas kelelahan juga. Semua campur aduk, bikin kepala pusing, badan gak enak, semua gejala stres nongol. Jadi gak sabaran kalo menghadapi orang, terutama 1 perempuan di kantor, sebut aja Cucun - shortened from Pecun, yang badan dan emosinya gede, tapi perilaku dan etiknya kerdil.
Beberapa minggu gue tiap hari musti lihat makhluk hina ini, secara dia yang ditunjuk jadi koordinator proyek yang baru aja kelar. Dan demi Tuhan, dia adalah perempuan pertama yang bener2 pengen gue hajar abis, pengen rasanya bayar supir bus antar kota untuk kawinin dia dan bawa dia ke ujung pulau antah berantah dan gak usah kembali lagi. Najis deh tuh perempuan!!
She brings out the worst in me. It's a good thing I can keep cool, even if only on the outside. Other peeps at the office are all hostile when it comes to her. And I can't decipher as to why we still keep her. It's not like she's that good. Gaaaahhh!!! I need to hit something!! Fuck her to the hell and back!
Beberapa minggu gue tiap hari musti lihat makhluk hina ini, secara dia yang ditunjuk jadi koordinator proyek yang baru aja kelar. Dan demi Tuhan, dia adalah perempuan pertama yang bener2 pengen gue hajar abis, pengen rasanya bayar supir bus antar kota untuk kawinin dia dan bawa dia ke ujung pulau antah berantah dan gak usah kembali lagi. Najis deh tuh perempuan!!
She brings out the worst in me. It's a good thing I can keep cool, even if only on the outside. Other peeps at the office are all hostile when it comes to her. And I can't decipher as to why we still keep her. It's not like she's that good. Gaaaahhh!!! I need to hit something!! Fuck her to the hell and back!
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Monday, August 30, 2010
Vigil
Spent the weekend at the hospital for Gramps. He's had a liver failure, and now he's in the ICCU. I know mom is so sad, but she still prioritizes on Bangbag. I understand how she feels. I've been there. The gist is, Gramps' condition is critical, even fatal. The doctors had said that it's just a matter of time. We're counting days. We just hope that he will pass peacefully, without pains.
God bless you, Gramps. Wishing and praying seem to be the only things I can do for you at the moment. :(
God bless you, Gramps. Wishing and praying seem to be the only things I can do for you at the moment. :(
Friday, August 27, 2010
Sakura Drops - Utada Hikaru
SAKURA DROPS - Utada Hikaru
Koi wo shite owari wo tsuge
Chikau koto wa kore ga saigo no Heartbreak
Sakura sae kaze no naka de yurete
Yagate hana wo sakasu yo
Furidashita natsu no ame ga
Namida no yoko wo totta su-tto
Omoide to DABUru eizou
Aki no DORAMA saihousou
Doushite onaji you na PANCHI
Nando mo kuratchaun da
Soredemo mata tatakaun darou
Sore ga inochi no fushigi
Koi wo shite subete sasage
Negau koto wa kore ga saigo no Heartbreak
Sakura sae toki no naka de yurete
Yagate hana wo sakasu yo
Kurikaesu kisetsu no naka de
Kutsu ga suriheratteku
Motto kata no chikara nuite
Kako wa dokoka ni shimatte oke
Koko kara sou tookunai darou
Mita koto mo nai keshiki
Tomaranai mune no itami koete
Motto kimi ni chikazukitai yo
Hitomawari shite wa modori
Aoi sora wo zutto tesaguri
Koi wo shite owari wo tsuge
Chikau koto wa kyou ga saishou no good day
Sakura made kaze no naka de yurete
Sotto kimi ni te wo nobasu yo
Suki de suki de doushiyou mo nai
Sore to kore to wa kankei nai
Koi wo shite owari wo tsuge
Chikau koto wa kore ga saigo no Heartbreak
Sakura sae kaze no naka de yurete
Yagate hana wo sakasu yo
Furidashita natsu no ame ga
Namida no yoko wo totta su-tto
Omoide to DABUru eizou
Aki no DORAMA saihousou
Doushite onaji you na PANCHI
Nando mo kuratchaun da
Soredemo mata tatakaun darou
Sore ga inochi no fushigi
Koi wo shite subete sasage
Negau koto wa kore ga saigo no Heartbreak
Sakura sae toki no naka de yurete
Yagate hana wo sakasu yo
Kurikaesu kisetsu no naka de
Kutsu ga suriheratteku
Motto kata no chikara nuite
Kako wa dokoka ni shimatte oke
Koko kara sou tookunai darou
Mita koto mo nai keshiki
Tomaranai mune no itami koete
Motto kimi ni chikazukitai yo
Hitomawari shite wa modori
Aoi sora wo zutto tesaguri
Koi wo shite owari wo tsuge
Chikau koto wa kyou ga saishou no good day
Sakura made kaze no naka de yurete
Sotto kimi ni te wo nobasu yo
Suki de suki de doushiyou mo nai
Sore to kore to wa kankei nai
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Bengal is Stressed
#nowlistening to Sakura Drops - Utada Hikaru.
Now that I've set the mood, let's start blogging.
What I need at the moment is a solitary holiday at the beach for a month. No work stuffs, no calls and messages from the office, no rundown or schedule to follow, no panicky female boss, just me and free time. Wouldn't that be such bliss?
Sometimes I wonder what would it be like to have a novel heroine life. The scene I always have in mind is me being alone on the beach. I'd be wearing a white dress, barefooted, looking far away at the horizon. It would be in the afternoon, there would be no one else but me and my mysterious thoughts. I'd imagine being burnt out and needing time off, that's why I were at that beach. Burnt out, tired, sick of the world, having no one to run to, no relationships, and all those pathetic situations. My skirt is half wet, the wind blew my long hair, some of the hair were covering my face, but I wouldn't care. Staring at the horizon, breathing deep, half waiting for who knows what, half contemplating to jump into the sea and have fun in the water, and just when I decided to swim in my white clothes, suddenly a guy on a horse galloped toward me yelling at me to stop. I would be so shocked because I thought I were alone, uncomprehending until he jump off the horse and take me into his arms. *sheesh, how more cliche could it be? :p*
He'd scream, 'What the hell do you think you're doing?'
And I'd be, like, 'Who the hell are you? Let me go!!' I'd squirm trying to get off him but he wouldn't let me go.
And the struggle would go on for some time, all those friction and unintentional touches would arouse both of us. All those time the issue would still be unclear until he took a firm hold of my arms and snap, 'Stop it, woman! I won't let you go unless you promise to stop this stupid suicide!'
I'd look so flabbergasted and froze, unbelieving how he would have the gall to think that I, I would contemplate such thing. Suicide were the last thing on my mind. 'Suicide? Who?' I'd ask stupidly.
'You! Who else?' He'd scowl and I would suddenly realize how sexy he looked.
'What? What make you think such a thing? Just who are you? How dare you accusing me like that?'
'Why else would you try to jump, with that desperate face?'
I'd stare at him, trying to make sense of everything, whether he were even real or not. 'Dude, fyi, I was gonna swim. What you called MY desperate face was me expressing my boredom before deciding to be impulsive and just go swim. Duh!'
Right, to make long story short, we would be snapping at each other for a while, but he'd get it eventually. Next scene would be how we would try to fight the growing chemistry. But seeing that I were an impatient writer, *Me? A writer? Hmmm*, I'd cut the bullshit and let's just fast forward to how he eventually let me go and I'd be stumbling backward before he grabbed and steadied me again. This time, he'd keep holding me. Our eyes caught, everything else seemed to have disappeared. Only me, him, our breathes synchronized, and he'd pull me closer, closer, and closer. I wouldn't have the power to break the hypnotizing stare, and our lips touched. Nothing else happened for a few seconds, just touched and stayed still. Then one of his hand would snake up and stay at the back of my neck, it would navigate how he want to kiss me. After a few long seconds, his lips would move. And I'd counter each of his moves, softly at first. So softly I could tell that he's losing patience. Tensions grew, and he'd snap. He'd kiss me hard, tongue invading every crevice and his other hand touching all over my body, arousing me. Bla bla bla and we'd end up in bed. And we'd fuck happily ever after. *So fucking cliche, girl! Pleeeease be more creative!!*
Well, I guess that was my stress level talking, added by being never-ending horny. And there's nothing I can do about it. Fuck you very much! :D
But the point is, I really so fucking need a holiday. *Sigh*
Now that I've set the mood, let's start blogging.
What I need at the moment is a solitary holiday at the beach for a month. No work stuffs, no calls and messages from the office, no rundown or schedule to follow, no panicky female boss, just me and free time. Wouldn't that be such bliss?
Sometimes I wonder what would it be like to have a novel heroine life. The scene I always have in mind is me being alone on the beach. I'd be wearing a white dress, barefooted, looking far away at the horizon. It would be in the afternoon, there would be no one else but me and my mysterious thoughts. I'd imagine being burnt out and needing time off, that's why I were at that beach. Burnt out, tired, sick of the world, having no one to run to, no relationships, and all those pathetic situations. My skirt is half wet, the wind blew my long hair, some of the hair were covering my face, but I wouldn't care. Staring at the horizon, breathing deep, half waiting for who knows what, half contemplating to jump into the sea and have fun in the water, and just when I decided to swim in my white clothes, suddenly a guy on a horse galloped toward me yelling at me to stop. I would be so shocked because I thought I were alone, uncomprehending until he jump off the horse and take me into his arms. *sheesh, how more cliche could it be? :p*
He'd scream, 'What the hell do you think you're doing?'
And I'd be, like, 'Who the hell are you? Let me go!!' I'd squirm trying to get off him but he wouldn't let me go.
And the struggle would go on for some time, all those friction and unintentional touches would arouse both of us. All those time the issue would still be unclear until he took a firm hold of my arms and snap, 'Stop it, woman! I won't let you go unless you promise to stop this stupid suicide!'
I'd look so flabbergasted and froze, unbelieving how he would have the gall to think that I, I would contemplate such thing. Suicide were the last thing on my mind. 'Suicide? Who?' I'd ask stupidly.
'You! Who else?' He'd scowl and I would suddenly realize how sexy he looked.
'What? What make you think such a thing? Just who are you? How dare you accusing me like that?'
'Why else would you try to jump, with that desperate face?'
I'd stare at him, trying to make sense of everything, whether he were even real or not. 'Dude, fyi, I was gonna swim. What you called MY desperate face was me expressing my boredom before deciding to be impulsive and just go swim. Duh!'
Right, to make long story short, we would be snapping at each other for a while, but he'd get it eventually. Next scene would be how we would try to fight the growing chemistry. But seeing that I were an impatient writer, *Me? A writer? Hmmm*, I'd cut the bullshit and let's just fast forward to how he eventually let me go and I'd be stumbling backward before he grabbed and steadied me again. This time, he'd keep holding me. Our eyes caught, everything else seemed to have disappeared. Only me, him, our breathes synchronized, and he'd pull me closer, closer, and closer. I wouldn't have the power to break the hypnotizing stare, and our lips touched. Nothing else happened for a few seconds, just touched and stayed still. Then one of his hand would snake up and stay at the back of my neck, it would navigate how he want to kiss me. After a few long seconds, his lips would move. And I'd counter each of his moves, softly at first. So softly I could tell that he's losing patience. Tensions grew, and he'd snap. He'd kiss me hard, tongue invading every crevice and his other hand touching all over my body, arousing me. Bla bla bla and we'd end up in bed. And we'd fuck happily ever after. *So fucking cliche, girl! Pleeeease be more creative!!*
Well, I guess that was my stress level talking, added by being never-ending horny. And there's nothing I can do about it. Fuck you very much! :D
But the point is, I really so fucking need a holiday. *Sigh*
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
SYTYCD - Kayla & Kupono
This is one of my favorite SYTYCD coreography, Addiction. The song is Gravity by Sara Bareilles.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Ngabuburit
Hari ini dapet pengalaman baru dong... Ngabuburit keliling wilayah kantor gue naik motor sama Crewcut. Ternyata asik juga ya, hihihi... Adem, angin siwir-siwir, asik deh pokoknya. Kemana aja gue selama ini? :p
Asli cuma keliling doang, gak beli apa-apa. Gue jadi tau wilayah belakang kantor gue tuh kayak apa, nemu beberapa warung yang bikin gue penasaran pengen cicipin masakannya, ada daerah yang banyak pohon juga ternyata, semacam taman kota terselubung gitu deh, dll.
Pas 3 menit sebelum maghrib, kita udah sampe lagi di kantor. Parkir motor, taro helm, cuci tangan, terus bedug deh. Selamat berbuka puasaaaaa... :D
Asli cuma keliling doang, gak beli apa-apa. Gue jadi tau wilayah belakang kantor gue tuh kayak apa, nemu beberapa warung yang bikin gue penasaran pengen cicipin masakannya, ada daerah yang banyak pohon juga ternyata, semacam taman kota terselubung gitu deh, dll.
Pas 3 menit sebelum maghrib, kita udah sampe lagi di kantor. Parkir motor, taro helm, cuci tangan, terus bedug deh. Selamat berbuka puasaaaaa... :D
Oh, Bangbag
I miraculously survived two days of baby sitting Bangbag. My notorious Bangbag... My can't-ever-sit-still Bangbag. I'm still alive and well! Though somewhat out of breathe and sweaty. Hehee.
Bangbag is the most adorable tot in the whole wide world at the moment. At least until I have my own child. :p She is so smart, smart, and also smart. Damn, I love that kid!
Mucho mucho huggy kissy kissy muachh...
*guemeeeessss...*
Bangbag is the most adorable tot in the whole wide world at the moment. At least until I have my own child. :p She is so smart, smart, and also smart. Damn, I love that kid!
Mucho mucho huggy kissy kissy muachh...
*guemeeeessss...*
Friday, August 13, 2010
Mikir Liburan
Wuidih, udah hari Jumat aja. How time flies. Secara hari ini gue gak puasa, dan cowok2 lagi pada jumatan, gue nikmati light lunch gue berupa roti sobeknya Sari Roti n Kopiko Brown Coffee. Celup celup masukin mulut. Muantaaappp... :D
Hari2 gue udah mulai agak santai, tapi belum bisa berasa free enak gimana juga. Hari ini musti meeting sama klien untuk proyek setelah lebaran, Trus ada calon klien yang ngebet banget minta dibikinin event selama Ramadhan. Lah, Ramadhan udah mulai gini, emangnya sempet ya bos?
Yang jelas kemungkinan gue bakal gak lebaranan bareng keluarga nih kalo proyek luar kotanya jadi. N bisa2 gak ketemy sama Sid, padahal dia mau ke Jakarta ntar September. Pengen nyusul dia ke Aussie, duitnya belum cukup. Paling jauh ya sampe Cengkareng bisanya. :p Rencana proyek itu sekitar 2 minggu, Sid di Jakarta cuma 2 minggu, n gak mungkin juga gue culik tu anak ikut gue. Huh...
Ato gue yang kabur ke Singapore aja skalian Sid balik ke Aussie ya? Kalo jadwal event memungkinkan sih. 3 hari aja gpp deh. Kalo bisa sih lanjut ke Bangkok kali ya, tapi kalo sendirian gak cihuy juga. Mana gue gak bisa baca tulisan Thai pula. Ke Malaysia mah ogah, mendingan gue ke Bali aja. Bagusan Jakarta juga lah daripada KL. Cuma cari alternatif liburan yang murah tapi di luar Indonesia. Ternyata susah juga ya. Hehee...
Pokoknya gue harus liburan sebelum tahun 2010 berakhir!! Ahahahahahahahahhh!!!
Hari2 gue udah mulai agak santai, tapi belum bisa berasa free enak gimana juga. Hari ini musti meeting sama klien untuk proyek setelah lebaran, Trus ada calon klien yang ngebet banget minta dibikinin event selama Ramadhan. Lah, Ramadhan udah mulai gini, emangnya sempet ya bos?
Yang jelas kemungkinan gue bakal gak lebaranan bareng keluarga nih kalo proyek luar kotanya jadi. N bisa2 gak ketemy sama Sid, padahal dia mau ke Jakarta ntar September. Pengen nyusul dia ke Aussie, duitnya belum cukup. Paling jauh ya sampe Cengkareng bisanya. :p Rencana proyek itu sekitar 2 minggu, Sid di Jakarta cuma 2 minggu, n gak mungkin juga gue culik tu anak ikut gue. Huh...
Ato gue yang kabur ke Singapore aja skalian Sid balik ke Aussie ya? Kalo jadwal event memungkinkan sih. 3 hari aja gpp deh. Kalo bisa sih lanjut ke Bangkok kali ya, tapi kalo sendirian gak cihuy juga. Mana gue gak bisa baca tulisan Thai pula. Ke Malaysia mah ogah, mendingan gue ke Bali aja. Bagusan Jakarta juga lah daripada KL. Cuma cari alternatif liburan yang murah tapi di luar Indonesia. Ternyata susah juga ya. Hehee...
Pokoknya gue harus liburan sebelum tahun 2010 berakhir!! Ahahahahahahahahhh!!!
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Puasa Apek
Hari pertama puasa, dan tepat jam 12.30 siang gue mengalami menstruasi. How lovely. Not!!!
Damn sucks!!!
Damn sucks!!!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Met Puasa, Y'all...
Mengucapkan Selamat Menjalankan Ibadah Puasa Ramadhan
Mohon dibukakan pintu maaf yang sebesar-besarnya
dan
Selamat beraktifitas
Mohon dibukakan pintu maaf yang sebesar-besarnya
dan
Selamat beraktifitas
Ciyeeeh...
Redenominasi Rupiah
Sebenernya apa sih yang diributin sama orang2 tentang redenominasi? Jadi saat ini ada wacana tentang redenominasi mata uang Rupiah. Trus orang2 pada ribut dan panik membicarakan tentang ini.
Menurut mereka, pemerintah gak boleh melakukan hal itu. Gimana dengan uang yang ada di tangan ato di tabungan? Gak ada nilainya lagi dong? Segala macam hak milik yang udah dibeli mahal-mahal juga jadi gak ada nilainya lagi dong! Blablablablablablaaa...
Haloooohh!! Ini REDENOMINASI, cuys!! Pemangkasan jumlah nol misalnya dari '1000' rupiah jadi '1' rupiah. Setelah redenominasi itu, lo tetep bisa beli produk yang sama dengan harga 1 rupiah seperti ketika nominalnya masih pake 3 angka nol di belakang angka 1 itu. Semua masih tetap sama kok.
Gini deh, misalnya 1 dollar = Rp 9000, setelah redenominasi maka 1 dollar = Rp 9. So, sama aja kan nilainya? Ini cuman simplifying penulisan nilai uang Rupiah ajeee, bukan pemotongan nilai mata uang. Kok pada takut amat sih? Padahal kalo pemotongan nilai uang mah beda lagi, kalo gak salah itu istilahnya adalah SANERING. *Eh, bener gak tuh istilahnya?* Naaaah, kalo pemerintah mau sanering, baru deh lo boleh pada ribut. Ckckckk... Bikin gue gemes aja lo. Hiiiiiiihhhh!!!
Menurut mereka, pemerintah gak boleh melakukan hal itu. Gimana dengan uang yang ada di tangan ato di tabungan? Gak ada nilainya lagi dong? Segala macam hak milik yang udah dibeli mahal-mahal juga jadi gak ada nilainya lagi dong! Blablablablablablaaa...
Haloooohh!! Ini REDENOMINASI, cuys!! Pemangkasan jumlah nol misalnya dari '1000' rupiah jadi '1' rupiah. Setelah redenominasi itu, lo tetep bisa beli produk yang sama dengan harga 1 rupiah seperti ketika nominalnya masih pake 3 angka nol di belakang angka 1 itu. Semua masih tetap sama kok.
Gini deh, misalnya 1 dollar = Rp 9000, setelah redenominasi maka 1 dollar = Rp 9. So, sama aja kan nilainya? Ini cuman simplifying penulisan nilai uang Rupiah ajeee, bukan pemotongan nilai mata uang. Kok pada takut amat sih? Padahal kalo pemotongan nilai uang mah beda lagi, kalo gak salah itu istilahnya adalah SANERING. *Eh, bener gak tuh istilahnya?* Naaaah, kalo pemerintah mau sanering, baru deh lo boleh pada ribut. Ckckckk... Bikin gue gemes aja lo. Hiiiiiiihhhh!!!
Sunday, August 08, 2010
Bengal Juga Manusia
Roadshow gue emang udah kelar, tapi kenapa gue masih juga harus nginep di kantor?? Kenapa hari Sabtu-Minggu gini malah disuruh bikin proposal lagi? Hiks. Bengal juga manusia. Bengal pengen libuuuuur... T_T
Kemarin nangis2 boring gak ada kerjaan, sekarang nangis2 minta libur. Lo ababil ato apa siy, Ngal?
:/
Kemarin nangis2 boring gak ada kerjaan, sekarang nangis2 minta libur. Lo ababil ato apa siy, Ngal?
:/
A Psychopath Bee
Remember Bee? She's one of my best friends. One thing I can say about her: she needs a psychiatrist. Badly. She has this problem with guys. She wants to have a boyfriend so much but anytime a guy is being close to her, one way or another, she drives him away. At times, she could be so cruel she deletes all way of contacting certain guys from her phone books. She even acts as if she doesn't recognize him if he calls. Hello!! What are you? An elementary student? Come on, Bee...
She tries to analyze every guy. But the problem is that her view of the male species is purely hers and doesn't conform to the common view. It's like she has her own world when it comes to it. I'd even think she has some kind of trauma even if she wouldn't admit it. *sigh*
Well, don't try to hard, Bee. You'll scare them away. And relax. Stop stressing yourself out. Okay?
*Bee, antara lo musti ke psikiatris ato mulai cari terapi hormon deh.*
:p
She tries to analyze every guy. But the problem is that her view of the male species is purely hers and doesn't conform to the common view. It's like she has her own world when it comes to it. I'd even think she has some kind of trauma even if she wouldn't admit it. *sigh*
Well, don't try to hard, Bee. You'll scare them away. And relax. Stop stressing yourself out. Okay?
*Bee, antara lo musti ke psikiatris ato mulai cari terapi hormon deh.*
:p
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
SMS Kredit Tanpa Agunan? Tae-Lah!!!
Satu hal yang bikin gue super gedeg saat ini adalah PROMO GENGGES MELALUI SMS!!! Anjing, ngehe banget tuh yang kayak gitu!
Siapa sih yang jualin data nomor handphone gitu? Apa dari operator seluler? Ato dari credit card center? Ato dari manaaaa? Setan lo pada!! Terkutuklah kalian yang jual data pribadi milik jutaan orang demi segelintir duit. Ngerepotin!!
Jadi gini ya coy. Kerjaan lo yang nawarin utang itu sama seperti setan. Kalo orangnya emang butuh, ya terserah. Cuma gue yakin bayar bunganya juga cihuy, otherwise darimana kalian dapet duit? Naah, orang yang gak butuh uang jadi, bisa jadi ada yang tergoda dan pada akhirnya malah jadi numpuk utang. Mereka ambil kredit dari kalian terus seneng2 entah itu pergi jalan2 kemana, ato beli barang2 mahal yang sebenernya juga gak perlu. Cuma gara2 ada uang hasil ngutang sama kalian itu.
In case lo pada tolol goblok idiot ngehe ya, orang yang memang butuh pinjaman uang pasti akan berusaha nyari sendiri. Gak usah lo nawarin kemana2 pake SMS blast kayak gitu. Percaya deh, banyakan yang ngutuk lo daripada seneng. Kalo sehari minimal 5 kali nerima SMS kayak gini, pengennya gue mutilasi aja lo tai pada!! Orang2 yang punya kerjaan bener dan gak cuma nyari easy money kayak kalian bener2 terganggu. Lagi meeting tau2 ada SMS alert. Biarpun hape disilent, tetep aja bakal kepikiran kira2 SMS it dari siapa dan apa isinya, apakah itu mungkin penting, mungkin dari klien, mungkin urgent. Ternyata pas dibaca, isinya adalah tawaran KREDIT TANPA AGUNAN lo yang gengges tai itu. Minimal 5 kali sehari! Gila lo ya! Pada gak tau diri banget gangguin orang kayak gini.
Mungkin setelah denger banyak keluhan, lo jadi nambahin kata2 'maaf mohon diabaikan bila tidak berminat'. HALOOOOHH!! Do you think that stupid line would make it okay for you to send us those freakin' SMS?? Tetep gengges!! Paham?? Oh well, gue rasa sih lo gak bakal paham juga. Secara lo kan tolol ya? Buang2 energi jari aja dong gue ngetik ini? Weww...
Hhhhh, legaaa... Eh gak deng. Gak lega juga sampe SMS2 setan ini berhenti. Cih!!
Siapa sih yang jualin data nomor handphone gitu? Apa dari operator seluler? Ato dari credit card center? Ato dari manaaaa? Setan lo pada!! Terkutuklah kalian yang jual data pribadi milik jutaan orang demi segelintir duit. Ngerepotin!!
Jadi gini ya coy. Kerjaan lo yang nawarin utang itu sama seperti setan. Kalo orangnya emang butuh, ya terserah. Cuma gue yakin bayar bunganya juga cihuy, otherwise darimana kalian dapet duit? Naah, orang yang gak butuh uang jadi, bisa jadi ada yang tergoda dan pada akhirnya malah jadi numpuk utang. Mereka ambil kredit dari kalian terus seneng2 entah itu pergi jalan2 kemana, ato beli barang2 mahal yang sebenernya juga gak perlu. Cuma gara2 ada uang hasil ngutang sama kalian itu.
In case lo pada tolol goblok idiot ngehe ya, orang yang memang butuh pinjaman uang pasti akan berusaha nyari sendiri. Gak usah lo nawarin kemana2 pake SMS blast kayak gitu. Percaya deh, banyakan yang ngutuk lo daripada seneng. Kalo sehari minimal 5 kali nerima SMS kayak gini, pengennya gue mutilasi aja lo tai pada!! Orang2 yang punya kerjaan bener dan gak cuma nyari easy money kayak kalian bener2 terganggu. Lagi meeting tau2 ada SMS alert. Biarpun hape disilent, tetep aja bakal kepikiran kira2 SMS it dari siapa dan apa isinya, apakah itu mungkin penting, mungkin dari klien, mungkin urgent. Ternyata pas dibaca, isinya adalah tawaran KREDIT TANPA AGUNAN lo yang gengges tai itu. Minimal 5 kali sehari! Gila lo ya! Pada gak tau diri banget gangguin orang kayak gini.
Mungkin setelah denger banyak keluhan, lo jadi nambahin kata2 'maaf mohon diabaikan bila tidak berminat'. HALOOOOHH!! Do you think that stupid line would make it okay for you to send us those freakin' SMS?? Tetep gengges!! Paham?? Oh well, gue rasa sih lo gak bakal paham juga. Secara lo kan tolol ya? Buang2 energi jari aja dong gue ngetik ini? Weww...
Hhhhh, legaaa... Eh gak deng. Gak lega juga sampe SMS2 setan ini berhenti. Cih!!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Demi FV & CW
Buka banyak akun FB demi Farmville gue. Qiqiqiqi... Jadi kalo gue butuh material apapun ato butuh bantuan friend untuk melakukan sesuatu, bisa cepet kelar. Daripada udah nunggu 3 hari, tapi jumlahnya gak memenuhu persyaratan, trus akhirnya hangus dan harus mulai dari awal lagi. :p
Pada gak ngerti maksud gue ya? Abis pada gak main FV dan CW sih. Hihihi...
Pada gak ngerti maksud gue ya? Abis pada gak main FV dan CW sih. Hihihi...
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Gak Ada Kerjaan
Beberapa hari ini terasa aneh. Mungkin karena gue udah terbiasa kerja dengan kadar hectic yang luar biasa selama beberapa bulan terakhir. Rangkaian roadshow klien gue udah hampir sampai ujungnya, cuma karena masalah perijinan maka beberapa event terakhir terpaksa dipending dulu. Percaya gak percaya, hal yang begini bikin gue berasa kayak dicemplungin ke jurang kebengongan. Kayak terbang bebas, ngambang bego gak tau mau ngapain. Gimana gak, biasanya nafas aja nyaris gak sempet, eh sekarang, sekarang gak tau mau ngapain lagi selain nafas. Fiuuuuh....
Sampe di kantor tiap hari pagi, trus ngopi n ngegosip bareng BAPAK2 dan MAS2 di kantor. Abis itu ke meja masing2. Trus buka Facebook. Trus panen di Farmville. Trus masak di Cafe World. Trus browsing Detikcom, bloghopping, googling, dll dst dsb. Mau ngeblog, banyak mata-mata di sekitar gue. Makin sore rasanya makin bodoh dan tolol. Hiks... Hei, kerjaan. Ayo mampir sini ke meja si Bengal. Ayooo... ;)
Sampe di kantor tiap hari pagi, trus ngopi n ngegosip bareng BAPAK2 dan MAS2 di kantor. Abis itu ke meja masing2. Trus buka Facebook. Trus panen di Farmville. Trus masak di Cafe World. Trus browsing Detikcom, bloghopping, googling, dll dst dsb. Mau ngeblog, banyak mata-mata di sekitar gue. Makin sore rasanya makin bodoh dan tolol. Hiks... Hei, kerjaan. Ayo mampir sini ke meja si Bengal. Ayooo... ;)
Friday, June 25, 2010
06252010, 05:20 pm
It's been pretty hectic. And I am sick! Tonight we all about to go to western Java. I don't have much energy left. I need sleep. I need rest!!
And to think that the small city doesn't even have a decent lodging. I'm so gonna bring my own bed sheet and stuffs. Can't bear the place even when I'm not there yet.
*disgusted*
*goosebumps*
And to think that the small city doesn't even have a decent lodging. I'm so gonna bring my own bed sheet and stuffs. Can't bear the place even when I'm not there yet.
*disgusted*
*goosebumps*
Monday, June 14, 2010
Fulfilled
Done the deed again! Yihiiy!! :D
Ehm, so I once again stayed the night at the office to prepare for the next project. Alone. Then CrewCut came back and said he was gonna sleep at the office too. Teehee...
We did it in the bathroom, on my table, on his chair, and even in the photocopy room. Just like in R rated movies. Umm, that session in the photocopy room was a new thing for us. Small room, and mirror covered one side of wall. Yes. That. Was. Hot. ;)
Suffice to say, it was a fully heated night. Damn! I'm still sore.
Ehm, so I once again stayed the night at the office to prepare for the next project. Alone. Then CrewCut came back and said he was gonna sleep at the office too. Teehee...
We did it in the bathroom, on my table, on his chair, and even in the photocopy room. Just like in R rated movies. Umm, that session in the photocopy room was a new thing for us. Small room, and mirror covered one side of wall. Yes. That. Was. Hot. ;)
Suffice to say, it was a fully heated night. Damn! I'm still sore.
Wednesday, June 09, 2010
Pacar vs Selingkuhan
Pacar memberimu SENYUMAN
Tapi
Selingkuhan memberimu KEBAHAGIAAN
Pacar akan menceritakan Yang Tidak Benar ttg dirimu
Tapi
Selingkuhan akan Tutup Mulut dgn smua kesalahanmu
Pacar hanya menerima Kelebihanmu
Tapi
Selingkuhan akan menerima Kekuranganmu
Pacar datang disaat kamu tertawa bahagia
Tapi seorang selingkuhan akan datang saat kamu berderai air mata
Kirim ke temanmu yg punya selingkuhan,,
Agar dia menyadari betapa pentingnya seorang selingkuhan daripada Pacar
Hidup Perselingkuhan
Beuuhhhh
:D=D=))prikitiww<3<3wekekek:D=D=))
Ken sent me this message to my BBM. Such an ass! A tempting ass. Hahaa...
Tapi
Selingkuhan memberimu KEBAHAGIAAN
Pacar akan menceritakan Yang Tidak Benar ttg dirimu
Tapi
Selingkuhan akan Tutup Mulut dgn smua kesalahanmu
Pacar hanya menerima Kelebihanmu
Tapi
Selingkuhan akan menerima Kekuranganmu
Pacar datang disaat kamu tertawa bahagia
Tapi seorang selingkuhan akan datang saat kamu berderai air mata
Kirim ke temanmu yg punya selingkuhan,,
Agar dia menyadari betapa pentingnya seorang selingkuhan daripada Pacar
Hidup Perselingkuhan
Beuuhhhh
:D=D=))prikitiww<3<3wekekek:D=D=))
Ken sent me this message to my BBM. Such an ass! A tempting ass. Hahaa...
Tuesday, June 08, 2010
Orang Jahat!
Hari ini keluar lagi rekaman video pribadi pasangan yang sedang ML, yaitu Ariel dan Cut Tary. Sebelumnya ada rekaman antara Ariel dan pacarnya, Luna Maya. Gue kasihan sama mereka. Entah gimana rasanya sampe dipermalukan seperti itu. Banyak orang jahat di dunia ini ya. Huh...
Punya hak apa orang-orang yang nyebarin video itu? Gimana rasanya kalo mereka yang ngalamin seperti Ariel dan Luna? Cihh... Mau motif dendam keq, sirik keq, iseng keq, yang jelas para penyebar itu gak layak hidup seperti manusia. Nyebarin aib orang aja bisanya, kayak sendirinya sempurna.
Punya hak apa orang-orang yang nyebarin video itu? Gimana rasanya kalo mereka yang ngalamin seperti Ariel dan Luna? Cihh... Mau motif dendam keq, sirik keq, iseng keq, yang jelas para penyebar itu gak layak hidup seperti manusia. Nyebarin aib orang aja bisanya, kayak sendirinya sempurna.
Monday, June 07, 2010
Just Another Story
What a weird weekend. There was a family occasion and we planned to stay at the hotel for the night. But when all those stuffs were over and we're already back in our room, Bangbag started her wailing and screaming her head off. So, Mom decided to go home. The room was already paid, so I decided to stay the night there together with Menik. Gak rugi juga lo nungguin di kamar ya, Nik. Hihihi...
Kucil was in Anyer with Her husband and family. So it's only Menik and I, and we decided to ask Mama to come. She said yes! It's been such a long time since the last time we saw her. She was better, thank God. She had a new job, and she's starting to get settled. Not much stories were shared, but we were content just to spend the night together, just the three of us. But we missed Kucil, though. :(
Anyways, we watched 2 movies: Prince of Persia and Sex & The City 2. I love The Prince of Persia. Fully packed with actions, and nice bods all along. As of SATC2, my God! If there's no beautiful guys there, I would have left the theatre, or at least sleep through the movie. Stupid women. Sexable hunks. ;)
Finished the movie marathon at almost 2 am, Mama went home. We went back to the hotel and went straight to sleep after changing clothes. I swear, this old hotel was really in need of renovation! All dusty and humid and sooo very uncomfortable. The only thing that made me stay the night was only because it was already paid for, and I was expecting a 4 stars hotel breakfast. Well, it was a hotel breakfast, but only barely made it to 3 stars. Hmm...
Right, enough about the hotel. After checking out, we decided to go to Grand Indonesia. No apparent destination. Just going where the feet taking us. Then, there's this mochi ice cream parlour. They serve unique flavours of ice cream mochi and wine-flavoured ice cream. The price, somewhat above reasonable for me. Hehee... But they're okay. Even Menik who didn't like alcoholic drinks decided she loved wines. Wines in shape of ice cream, that is. :p
For late lunch, after going round the mall for the thirtieth times that day, we landed at Manhattan's Fish Market. Been curious about it since I read Ika Natassa's tweet about the place. She's a published writer who is also a senior manager in Indonesia's biggest bank. What a life she has. Damn! And apparently we decided right. The seafood platter was huge, and the fried mushroom was heavenly. Love it love it love it!! :D
I definitely will try each restaurant in that freakin' huge mall some other time! Just thinkin about it makes me hungry now. Hiks...
Kucil was in Anyer with Her husband and family. So it's only Menik and I, and we decided to ask Mama to come. She said yes! It's been such a long time since the last time we saw her. She was better, thank God. She had a new job, and she's starting to get settled. Not much stories were shared, but we were content just to spend the night together, just the three of us. But we missed Kucil, though. :(
Anyways, we watched 2 movies: Prince of Persia and Sex & The City 2. I love The Prince of Persia. Fully packed with actions, and nice bods all along. As of SATC2, my God! If there's no beautiful guys there, I would have left the theatre, or at least sleep through the movie. Stupid women. Sexable hunks. ;)
Finished the movie marathon at almost 2 am, Mama went home. We went back to the hotel and went straight to sleep after changing clothes. I swear, this old hotel was really in need of renovation! All dusty and humid and sooo very uncomfortable. The only thing that made me stay the night was only because it was already paid for, and I was expecting a 4 stars hotel breakfast. Well, it was a hotel breakfast, but only barely made it to 3 stars. Hmm...
Right, enough about the hotel. After checking out, we decided to go to Grand Indonesia. No apparent destination. Just going where the feet taking us. Then, there's this mochi ice cream parlour. They serve unique flavours of ice cream mochi and wine-flavoured ice cream. The price, somewhat above reasonable for me. Hehee... But they're okay. Even Menik who didn't like alcoholic drinks decided she loved wines. Wines in shape of ice cream, that is. :p
For late lunch, after going round the mall for the thirtieth times that day, we landed at Manhattan's Fish Market. Been curious about it since I read Ika Natassa's tweet about the place. She's a published writer who is also a senior manager in Indonesia's biggest bank. What a life she has. Damn! And apparently we decided right. The seafood platter was huge, and the fried mushroom was heavenly. Love it love it love it!! :D
I definitely will try each restaurant in that freakin' huge mall some other time! Just thinkin about it makes me hungry now. Hiks...
Wednesday, June 02, 2010
Tuesday, June 01, 2010
06012010, 07:45 pm
What a boring day. Finish my report on last week's event, and couldn't do anything on the other client's report since the person in charge is out of office this whole day. Got nothing else to do, but the boss didn't let us go home early. Damn.
Already harvested my crops in Farmville, cooked intermittently in Cafe World, such that I got nauseous just staring at the computer screen. I read stories in Fiction Press, browsed international gossips in Yahoo! as well as updated myself on that stupid Israeli fuck-ups. Now you see why I'm so nauseous now. Wish I had gone and get a good massage instead of doing all this.
So, I decided to turn off the lights and putting on some jazzy music while waiting for CrewCut to get back here. I'm going to get a lift home. So not in the mood to beat the traffic on public transport. Guess I'll just get back to browsing now. *sigh*
Already harvested my crops in Farmville, cooked intermittently in Cafe World, such that I got nauseous just staring at the computer screen. I read stories in Fiction Press, browsed international gossips in Yahoo! as well as updated myself on that stupid Israeli fuck-ups. Now you see why I'm so nauseous now. Wish I had gone and get a good massage instead of doing all this.
So, I decided to turn off the lights and putting on some jazzy music while waiting for CrewCut to get back here. I'm going to get a lift home. So not in the mood to beat the traffic on public transport. Guess I'll just get back to browsing now. *sigh*
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
05262010; 06.36 pm
I bought something for Bangbag yesterday. It was a fluffy doll which I would love to play with. I'd say I made up a reason of buying it for Bangbag when in fact I want it for me. Hehee...
Went to a mall in Senayan, but didn't have enough time to browse around or just hangout and having coffee. Darn!!
Went to a mall in Senayan, but didn't have enough time to browse around or just hangout and having coffee. Darn!!
Monday, May 24, 2010
Thinking of Alv
Hey, peeps. It's been a few weeks, eh? Yeah well, life's kinda hectic with those projects coming in. It's not that I'm not grateful, but a few free days would be most welcome. :)
I find myself thinking more and more about Alv these days. Well, we did have good times. And when it gets unbearable, I forcibly remind my head about his bad sides. But you know, time slowly erases bad memories, pains are no longer that sharp, and I have to keep reminding myself of that. I surely don't wanna jump back to him. And yeah, I've thought of calling him. Thank God I could keep myself from doing that.
But hell, some things just keep going back to mind. The warmth of his neck, the good smell of him, the good times we had... Damn it!! Get away, memories...
I find myself thinking more and more about Alv these days. Well, we did have good times. And when it gets unbearable, I forcibly remind my head about his bad sides. But you know, time slowly erases bad memories, pains are no longer that sharp, and I have to keep reminding myself of that. I surely don't wanna jump back to him. And yeah, I've thought of calling him. Thank God I could keep myself from doing that.
But hell, some things just keep going back to mind. The warmth of his neck, the good smell of him, the good times we had... Damn it!! Get away, memories...
Thursday, May 06, 2010
She Makes My Life Beautiful
Bangbag woke me up today. I heard her wailing outside my door, then I heard her shuffeling and basically making noise. Then, she yelled my name. 'Wake up, Auntie, wake up, I wanna come in...'
Well, who am I to refuse? She's my queen. I rose and opened the door. In came my Li'l Bangbag, bouncing all the way to my bed. Then she just stood. Silent. Me? Confused.
'What's going on, dek?'
Silent. Shy smile. Twirling around. Stood still.
Still dumbfounded. 'Dek?'
She just grinned and looking at me. I tried to pick her up but she moved outta reach. Back to bouncing and twirling all around my room. She was so cute with her new purple and white shirt and jeans skirt.
Wait!! New??
'Oh my, you're wearing new clothes, aren't you, dear?'
Then she laughed and hugged me.
Life is beautiful... :)
Well, who am I to refuse? She's my queen. I rose and opened the door. In came my Li'l Bangbag, bouncing all the way to my bed. Then she just stood. Silent. Me? Confused.
'What's going on, dek?'
Silent. Shy smile. Twirling around. Stood still.
Still dumbfounded. 'Dek?'
She just grinned and looking at me. I tried to pick her up but she moved outta reach. Back to bouncing and twirling all around my room. She was so cute with her new purple and white shirt and jeans skirt.
Wait!! New??
'Oh my, you're wearing new clothes, aren't you, dear?'
Then she laughed and hugged me.
Life is beautiful... :)
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
Tribute to SMI
Indonesia just lost a great economist, a heroine. Our loss, the world's gain.
Expecting you to come back when your task is done and be our next President. :D
Just a thought, tough. This is a time when Twitter comes in handy. We'd know who are smart, and who are the fools. ;)
SRI MULYANI INDRASARI
Previously Indonesia's Finance Minister
Presently Managing Director of World Bank Group
Previously Indonesia's Finance Minister
Presently Managing Director of World Bank Group
Expecting you to come back when your task is done and be our next President. :D
Just a thought, tough. This is a time when Twitter comes in handy. We'd know who are smart, and who are the fools. ;)
Tuesday, May 04, 2010
Love Me, Leave Me - Kat Deluna
LOVE ME, LEAVE ME - Kat Deluna
The very first day of my life
Was the day that you let me go
And it was a blessing in disguise
Now I see that I'm beautiful
Cause all we ever did was fight
We were so dysfunctional
Now I've forgotten all the times
And all the days that I was lovin you.
Just like a ghost from my past (he's come back to haunt me)
Saying that you want me back (look at its impossible so...)
Love me, leave me
Cause I've already closed that door
Don't want to be
In the pain I felt before
If I only could be myself
Without your approval anymore
(if you love me, leave me)
If you love me, leave me alone
Now there used to be a time
That I would've taken you back again
But now that I have you out my mind
Now I'm totally independent
So you can save your little lies
Cause I know what's happenin'
You're missin' me but say goodbye now
To all the days I was lovin' you
[Pre-Chorus]
[Chorus]
If you really wanna help
Then you should go
Cause I promised myself
I'd let it alone
At the back of the shelf
Cause where I put what we had
I'll never going back, no
[Chorus]
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Dewasa
Kadang gue mempertanyakan apakah gue ini sebenernya udah dewasa atau belum. Sebenernya apa sih yang menjadi patokan bahwa seseorang itu dewasa atau tidak? Yang pasti bukan umur ya. Anak umur 12 tahun bisa aja bertindak lebih dewasa daripada orang berusia 30 tahun.
Diumur gue yang udah kepala 3 ini gue masih nyantai, dibilang punya target ya gak juga, dibilang gak punya target juga gak. Nah loh? Gue gak pernah mencita-citakan bahwa gue harus nikah di umur sekian, jadi direktur di umur sekian, punya mobil, rumah, anak, naik haji, bla bla bla di umur sekian. Gue cuma pengen bisa hidup tenang dan senang. Gitu aja udah cukup kok. Keluarga dan lingkungan gue yang kadang berisik nyuruh gue nyari pasangan akhirnya diem juga. Bukannya gue gak mau nikah, cuma lebih tepatnya belum mau. Punya cowok sih mau, tapi suami, ntar dulu deh. Belum siap terikat dalam komitmen seperti itu. Masih pengen nyicipin ini itu juga siy. Hihihihihiii...
Punya rumah dan mobil sendiri? Jelas pengen. Tapi dengan pendapatan gue saat ini kayaknya belum bisa juga. Errrr, mungkin lebih tepatnya adalah gue belum bisa memaksa diri gue untuk menyisihkan sebagian pendapatan gue untuk ditabung. Semuanya habis untuk sehari-hari dan entertaining diri sendiri. Mungkin cuma buku dan makan, tapi gak ada yang murah di Jakarta kaleeee... Itu salah satu hal yang membuat gue meragukan tingkat kedewasaan gue.
Jujur, gue memang seperti anak kecil. Masih mau main dan senang2. Kalo bukan gue, siapa lagi yang bisa nyenengin gue? Hahaa. Salah satu efek gak punya pasangan ya gini. Memang udah risiko, santai aja...
Sadar gak sadar, gue selalu ada backup. Entah itu simpenan nyelip yang baru keinget kalo punya pas udah kepepet, ato lari ke dear bro. Yang artinya: gue masih dependen pada orang lain. Tapi udah gak separah dulu. Asli. Dulu gue pasti tiap bulan minta tambahan, apalagi waktu masih pacaran sama si Alv kampret tukang morotin itu. Sekarang gue nyaris gak pernah minta lagi. Paling kalo gue musti keluar kota, untuk pegangan aja. Seringnya gak gue pake juga, malah abisnya buat foya2 lagi pas balik ke Jakarta.
Anyways, gue juga gak ngerti kenapa dari niat pengen nulis tentang kedewasaan kok larinya jadi ke keuangan pribadi gue ya? Hmmmm... Well, whatever. Dewasa ato gak, Alhamdulillah gue happy. Mungkin gak sempurna. Gue masih belum tau juga apa yang bakal bikin kebahagiaan gue sempurna. Tapi gak ganggu banget juga. I have a great family, great friends, great job, and music to accompany me through life. And I thank God for that. :)
Diumur gue yang udah kepala 3 ini gue masih nyantai, dibilang punya target ya gak juga, dibilang gak punya target juga gak. Nah loh? Gue gak pernah mencita-citakan bahwa gue harus nikah di umur sekian, jadi direktur di umur sekian, punya mobil, rumah, anak, naik haji, bla bla bla di umur sekian. Gue cuma pengen bisa hidup tenang dan senang. Gitu aja udah cukup kok. Keluarga dan lingkungan gue yang kadang berisik nyuruh gue nyari pasangan akhirnya diem juga. Bukannya gue gak mau nikah, cuma lebih tepatnya belum mau. Punya cowok sih mau, tapi suami, ntar dulu deh. Belum siap terikat dalam komitmen seperti itu. Masih pengen nyicipin ini itu juga siy. Hihihihihiii...
Punya rumah dan mobil sendiri? Jelas pengen. Tapi dengan pendapatan gue saat ini kayaknya belum bisa juga. Errrr, mungkin lebih tepatnya adalah gue belum bisa memaksa diri gue untuk menyisihkan sebagian pendapatan gue untuk ditabung. Semuanya habis untuk sehari-hari dan entertaining diri sendiri. Mungkin cuma buku dan makan, tapi gak ada yang murah di Jakarta kaleeee... Itu salah satu hal yang membuat gue meragukan tingkat kedewasaan gue.
Jujur, gue memang seperti anak kecil. Masih mau main dan senang2. Kalo bukan gue, siapa lagi yang bisa nyenengin gue? Hahaa. Salah satu efek gak punya pasangan ya gini. Memang udah risiko, santai aja...
Sadar gak sadar, gue selalu ada backup. Entah itu simpenan nyelip yang baru keinget kalo punya pas udah kepepet, ato lari ke dear bro. Yang artinya: gue masih dependen pada orang lain. Tapi udah gak separah dulu. Asli. Dulu gue pasti tiap bulan minta tambahan, apalagi waktu masih pacaran sama si Alv kampret tukang morotin itu. Sekarang gue nyaris gak pernah minta lagi. Paling kalo gue musti keluar kota, untuk pegangan aja. Seringnya gak gue pake juga, malah abisnya buat foya2 lagi pas balik ke Jakarta.
Anyways, gue juga gak ngerti kenapa dari niat pengen nulis tentang kedewasaan kok larinya jadi ke keuangan pribadi gue ya? Hmmmm... Well, whatever. Dewasa ato gak, Alhamdulillah gue happy. Mungkin gak sempurna. Gue masih belum tau juga apa yang bakal bikin kebahagiaan gue sempurna. Tapi gak ganggu banget juga. I have a great family, great friends, great job, and music to accompany me through life. And I thank God for that. :)
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Bengal, Kecuekan, dan Menik
Life is hard, I know. Selalu ada cobaan, halangan, musibah, dan lain sebagainya. Menurut gue pribadi, gue termasuk orang yang beruntung. Selama ini gue hampir selalu bisa melewati segala musibah, kesialan dll dengan baik. Entah itu dengan bantuan orang lain, dengan keberuntungan gak jelas, atau dengan kecuekan gue sendiri. So far, gue bersyukur karena gue punya sifat cuek tersebut. :)
Salah satu sahabat gue, Menik, saat ini sedang tenggelam dalam keputusasaan *jiaaaah bahasanya!*. Musti diakui hidupnya berat. Dia sendirian merantau ke ibukota, harus membantu menanggung beban keuangan keluarganya yang kurang baik, ditambah lagi hal yang sudah pasti bikin hampir semua cewek drop, PATAH HATI. Kadang pusing dan heran kalau baca tweet dan blognya. Namun pada akhirnya, gue harus mencoba memahami apa yang menyebabkan dia sampai seperti itu. Gue selalu mencoba untuk menempatkan diri gue di posisi seseorang, dalam hal ini Menik. Tapi tetep aja gue gak bisa mengerti sepenuhnya kenapa perasaannya bisa sampai seperti itu. *Maapin gue, Meniiiiiik!!! Gue emang gak punya perasaan. Hiks.*
Gue cuma punya kesimpulan bahwa cuek adalah hal yang sangat penting juga. Bukan berarti kita harus cuek sampe gak perduli tentang hal2 yang terjadi di sekitar kita. Kadang bersikap masa bodoh ada untungnya juga loh. Buktinya gue belum ngerasain patah hati atau patah semangat yang dahsyat sampai saat ini. Eeemmmmmh, anyway, ini berarti yang abnormal sebenermya gue ato Menik ya? Jadi ragu juga. Hihiii...
Oy Menik, peace yo. ;)
Ayo semangat, cuy! Udah baca berapa puluh buku motivator masa masih sedih aja? Sini gue temenin makan steak. Hehee...
Salah satu sahabat gue, Menik, saat ini sedang tenggelam dalam keputusasaan *jiaaaah bahasanya!*. Musti diakui hidupnya berat. Dia sendirian merantau ke ibukota, harus membantu menanggung beban keuangan keluarganya yang kurang baik, ditambah lagi hal yang sudah pasti bikin hampir semua cewek drop, PATAH HATI. Kadang pusing dan heran kalau baca tweet dan blognya. Namun pada akhirnya, gue harus mencoba memahami apa yang menyebabkan dia sampai seperti itu. Gue selalu mencoba untuk menempatkan diri gue di posisi seseorang, dalam hal ini Menik. Tapi tetep aja gue gak bisa mengerti sepenuhnya kenapa perasaannya bisa sampai seperti itu. *Maapin gue, Meniiiiiik!!! Gue emang gak punya perasaan. Hiks.*
Gue cuma punya kesimpulan bahwa cuek adalah hal yang sangat penting juga. Bukan berarti kita harus cuek sampe gak perduli tentang hal2 yang terjadi di sekitar kita. Kadang bersikap masa bodoh ada untungnya juga loh. Buktinya gue belum ngerasain patah hati atau patah semangat yang dahsyat sampai saat ini. Eeemmmmmh, anyway, ini berarti yang abnormal sebenermya gue ato Menik ya? Jadi ragu juga. Hihiii...
Oy Menik, peace yo. ;)
Ayo semangat, cuy! Udah baca berapa puluh buku motivator masa masih sedih aja? Sini gue temenin makan steak. Hehee...
Simply Breakfast
Just found this blog today. Full of pictures of Jennifer Causey's breakfast menus. It's like a dream for me. These simple delicious healthy and hearty stuffs on her wooden table, so beautiful and scrumptious and clean and put tears to my eyes. I know, I'm that weird. Or maybe it's just because I love food so much. *sniff*
Man, I am so getting a jar of black cherry jam and whole wheat bread when I get home!!
Credits: Jennifer Causey - Simply Breakfast
Monday, April 26, 2010
Want My Heaven
Starting to drown in another blue mood. Thinking to contact Kucil and Menik but they seem busy. I want to go out somewhere with them and just hang out over coffee. I dunno, something just held me back. Menik is not in a very well condition mentally, and I should just let Kucil be with her husband. Or maybe it's just me want to be alone.
At times like this, a day off and hanging out at a nook with mugs of aromatic coffee and thick riveting novel would sound like heaven. At times like this, I want heaven...
At times like this, a day off and hanging out at a nook with mugs of aromatic coffee and thick riveting novel would sound like heaven. At times like this, I want heaven...
Malibu - Lee Ritenour feat. Phil Perry
This song is my ultimate choice when I need to run away. It always makes me feel like I'm on a beach alone at dusk, wearing white flowing dress, with my hair blown by the wind. Just me and the beach. Wishing I am there now.
04262010, 06:51 pm
A rather laid back day. There's only 4 guys in the office, the others called in sick. Wimps. Hahaaa... It feels so great to have moment like this once every so often. No reports to make, no tasks yet, no strange music in the background, just me, coffee, and the internet.
Putting on some soothing music, it all made for a blueish ambience. I can't explain it well, but it's just my mood, probably. Only I know how it feels, but it's not something bad. In fact, it's what I crave sometimes. It's like being solitary in a comfortable floating bluey bubble. Not lonely, but solitary. Whatever, bottom line is, I love it. :)
Putting on some soothing music, it all made for a blueish ambience. I can't explain it well, but it's just my mood, probably. Only I know how it feels, but it's not something bad. In fact, it's what I crave sometimes. It's like being solitary in a comfortable floating bluey bubble. Not lonely, but solitary. Whatever, bottom line is, I love it. :)
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
M City, Day 2
Day 2 in M City. Actually things are looking much better. :D The work was okay. We had a great crew, so I could sit back most of the time. :D
After work, we all went back to the hotel, then my friend and I went out together to eat durians. Oh my gosh... Those stinking fruits are the gift from heaven!! That's how good it was. We both waited for our boss until he's done entertaining the clients. But we were getting bored so we called the other guys and asked their whereabouts. Turned out they all were hanging out at an angkringan near to our hotel. So we decided to join them, and boy, that was the perfect decision. In years we worked together, that night was the first time we fully enjoyed a night, full of camaraderie, laughing til we drop, sharing crazy stories, taking 2 street musicians hostages, hahahaaa... What a crazy night. No booze, only music and stories and laughs. The street musicians were nutties, they sang many popular Indonesian songs, and made fun with the lyrics. Gosh, it was hysterical!!
Wish to have moments like that soon and often. ;)
After work, we all went back to the hotel, then my friend and I went out together to eat durians. Oh my gosh... Those stinking fruits are the gift from heaven!! That's how good it was. We both waited for our boss until he's done entertaining the clients. But we were getting bored so we called the other guys and asked their whereabouts. Turned out they all were hanging out at an angkringan near to our hotel. So we decided to join them, and boy, that was the perfect decision. In years we worked together, that night was the first time we fully enjoyed a night, full of camaraderie, laughing til we drop, sharing crazy stories, taking 2 street musicians hostages, hahahaaa... What a crazy night. No booze, only music and stories and laughs. The street musicians were nutties, they sang many popular Indonesian songs, and made fun with the lyrics. Gosh, it was hysterical!!
Wish to have moments like that soon and often. ;)
Monday, April 19, 2010
Free at Last
Thank you, dear Almighty for tonight. At last, I could get away from them for about half the night and enjoyed the city freely. Thank you for small mercies. :)
Saturday, April 17, 2010
M City, Day 1
Another out of town project. This time, we're at M City. This is my mom's hometown, and even though I haven't been here for God knows how long, I know this is the best place for rich food. I made plans to visit many food sellers. The best ones here are street hawkers. But again, the boss and the team are such 'banci' that they decided to eat at the usual fast food joints.
For Pete's sake, we have crossed the ocean, and you guys still choose fried rice and dim sum??? Even the dim sum in Kemang Food Fest is somewhat better then these. You fuckin' morons!!!
Starting tomorrow, when my works are done, I'd leave you be and I'd enjoy my free time to the best extent. Just watch me, suckers!!
Bengal's signing off for today. Over and out.
For Pete's sake, we have crossed the ocean, and you guys still choose fried rice and dim sum??? Even the dim sum in Kemang Food Fest is somewhat better then these. You fuckin' morons!!!
Starting tomorrow, when my works are done, I'd leave you be and I'd enjoy my free time to the best extent. Just watch me, suckers!!
Bengal's signing off for today. Over and out.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
BlackBerry Shortcake, Eh Shortcuts
The followings are the simple shortcuts in using your BlackBerry gadgets. What's not so simple is memorizing them all. But anyway, these sure help... :D
Shortcuts from Home Screen :
A » Address Book
B » Browser
C » Direct call from Address Book
D » Memo Pad
F » Profile
G » Google Talk
H » Help Menu
L » Calendar
M » Messages
N » BBM
O » Option
P » Phone
Q » ICQ
R » Alarm
S » Search Menu
T » Task
U » Calculator
V » Saved Messages
X » WLM
Y » Yahoo
MessengerShortcut ini digunakan pada saat baca email atau message … @MESSAGE LIST :
P : Previous date
N : Next date
S : Start search
T : Go top of message list
B : Bottom top of message list
C : Compose
V : View save messages
alt + I : Display only incoming messages
alt + O : Display only outgoing messages
alt + V : Display voicemail
alt + P : Display phone call
alt + M : Display only mms
alt + S : Display only sms
@MESSAGE LIST-HIGHLIGHTJ :
Go to oldest thread
K : Go to newest thread
R : Reply message
F : Forward message
U : Go to unread message (ini nih yang perlu diinget)
L : Reply all the message
alt + U : Mark read/unread : File the message
@VIEW MESSAGE : Reply to the message
T : Top of message
B : Bottom of message
P : Previous page of message
N : Next page of the message
J : Go to oldest message
K : Go to newest
S : Search
U : Go to unread
L : Reply all
SHORTCUT WAKTU MELIHAT MEDIA PICTURE (CURVE, BOLD, JAVE, HURON, DLL):
* Tekan N untuk next picture (pict)
* Tekan P untuk previous pict
* Tekan L untuk merotasi pict hingga 360 derajat
* Tekan 3/R untuk perbesar pict (zoom in)
* Tekan 9/C untuk perkecil pict (zoom out)
* Tekan 7 untuk memperlihatkan pict dalam ukuran aslinya (original size)
* Tekan 1/w untuk mengepaskan ukuran pict dengan ukuran layar (fit to screen) enjoy … :)
Lumayan juga kan? ;)
Shortcuts from Home Screen :
A » Address Book
B » Browser
C » Direct call from Address Book
D » Memo Pad
F » Profile
G » Google Talk
H » Help Menu
L » Calendar
M » Messages
N » BBM
O » Option
P » Phone
Q » ICQ
R » Alarm
S » Search Menu
T » Task
U » Calculator
V » Saved Messages
X » WLM
Y » Yahoo
MessengerShortcut ini digunakan pada saat baca email atau message … @MESSAGE LIST :
P : Previous date
N : Next date
S : Start search
T : Go top of message list
B : Bottom top of message list
C : Compose
V : View save messages
alt + I : Display only incoming messages
alt + O : Display only outgoing messages
alt + V : Display voicemail
alt + P : Display phone call
alt + M : Display only mms
alt + S : Display only sms
@MESSAGE LIST-HIGHLIGHTJ :
Go to oldest thread
K : Go to newest thread
R : Reply message
F : Forward message
U : Go to unread message (ini nih yang perlu diinget)
L : Reply all the message
alt + U : Mark read/unread : File the message
@VIEW MESSAGE : Reply to the message
T : Top of message
B : Bottom of message
P : Previous page of message
N : Next page of the message
J : Go to oldest message
K : Go to newest
S : Search
U : Go to unread
L : Reply all
SHORTCUT WAKTU MELIHAT MEDIA PICTURE (CURVE, BOLD, JAVE, HURON, DLL):
* Tekan N untuk next picture (pict)
* Tekan P untuk previous pict
* Tekan L untuk merotasi pict hingga 360 derajat
* Tekan 3/R untuk perbesar pict (zoom in)
* Tekan 9/C untuk perkecil pict (zoom out)
* Tekan 7 untuk memperlihatkan pict dalam ukuran aslinya (original size)
* Tekan 1/w untuk mengepaskan ukuran pict dengan ukuran layar (fit to screen) enjoy … :)
Lumayan juga kan? ;)
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Craving Ken
This is lust. Totally. Reading into his gestures and body language, and his eyes, I know I can get him. Me and him, we're one of a kind. Bad boy and bad girl. The question remains: will I make a move on him?
Been thinking about him more and more lately. I miss his light touches, the seemingly unintentional brushes of his hand against me, the naughty smiles, the way he steal glances at me, everything bad sides of him. Dammit, Ken! Why are you married?? *frustrated*
Back in Bali, when I was swimming with Boty and CrewCut at the hotel that night, I knew he was watching. Playing with his BB, but he took pictures of us. He sent me one, and initiated our BB chat. And for the remaining time in Bali, we chatted every night. Nothing heavy, deep, or even kinky. Just playful chats mostly about my coworkers and food, :p
Do I have a crush on him? Hell yes! Do I lust after him? Totally. And being a female, this question is always lurking whenever there's a guy involved: do I love him? God, no! And I can't let it go that way. I have had enough with married guys. Jeez, such a slut, huh? But as ground rules, I always tell them to prioritize their families. That what I intend to have is fun, and nothing serious. This ain't a justification. Hell, I know this can't be justified. I'm not proud of what I do. But I no longer care that much. Life is short. And I just want to be happy. At this moment, commitment is bullshit for me, and I can't even picture me being tied to a man. Eeww...
So, Ken. I'll try my damnedest to hold myself from you. But if you made the first move, I might not be able to refuse. And I won't be held responsible for it. Tau sama tau aj deh ya. Lo badung, dan gue bengal.
Aduh, tolong... Kenapa lo nafsuin banget gitu sih, Ken? Semogaaaa lo bisa nahan diri ya, Ken. Emang dasar kampret lo!!
Been thinking about him more and more lately. I miss his light touches, the seemingly unintentional brushes of his hand against me, the naughty smiles, the way he steal glances at me, everything bad sides of him. Dammit, Ken! Why are you married?? *frustrated*
Back in Bali, when I was swimming with Boty and CrewCut at the hotel that night, I knew he was watching. Playing with his BB, but he took pictures of us. He sent me one, and initiated our BB chat. And for the remaining time in Bali, we chatted every night. Nothing heavy, deep, or even kinky. Just playful chats mostly about my coworkers and food, :p
Do I have a crush on him? Hell yes! Do I lust after him? Totally. And being a female, this question is always lurking whenever there's a guy involved: do I love him? God, no! And I can't let it go that way. I have had enough with married guys. Jeez, such a slut, huh? But as ground rules, I always tell them to prioritize their families. That what I intend to have is fun, and nothing serious. This ain't a justification. Hell, I know this can't be justified. I'm not proud of what I do. But I no longer care that much. Life is short. And I just want to be happy. At this moment, commitment is bullshit for me, and I can't even picture me being tied to a man. Eeww...
So, Ken. I'll try my damnedest to hold myself from you. But if you made the first move, I might not be able to refuse. And I won't be held responsible for it. Tau sama tau aj deh ya. Lo badung, dan gue bengal.
Aduh, tolong... Kenapa lo nafsuin banget gitu sih, Ken? Semogaaaa lo bisa nahan diri ya, Ken. Emang dasar kampret lo!!
Thursday, April 08, 2010
Crushing on Him
I miss Ken. Funny, eh? I don't know whether I like him that much or just because I'm bored at the moment. There's still CrewCut, but honestly, conversing with Ken has way more appeal. Hehee... It has been proven repeatedly.
Flirting with him doesn't make me feel bad. Instead, it makes me feel smart if I can shut him up. See, we always try to put the other one down. Semacam cela2anlah... Tapi gak sampe kasar seperti biasanya gue sama anak2. Kesian dia kalo kaget pas tau betapa ancurnya gue. Belum saatnya dia tau itu. Huahahahahaha...
Hari ini selama meeting gue mikirin dia mulu. Emang sih kita lagi bahas tentang persiapan event yang mana salah satu vendornya adalah dia, jadi pasti ada ngebahas tentang dialah. Wheeww... Tak kunjung lepas si Ken dari otak kurang ajar gue. Dan selama meeting itu gue sempet chatting via BBM sama dia. Emang dasar kampret. Makin kepengen deh gue liat muka dia. Syiiit...
Flirting with him doesn't make me feel bad. Instead, it makes me feel smart if I can shut him up. See, we always try to put the other one down. Semacam cela2anlah... Tapi gak sampe kasar seperti biasanya gue sama anak2. Kesian dia kalo kaget pas tau betapa ancurnya gue. Belum saatnya dia tau itu. Huahahahahaha...
Hari ini selama meeting gue mikirin dia mulu. Emang sih kita lagi bahas tentang persiapan event yang mana salah satu vendornya adalah dia, jadi pasti ada ngebahas tentang dialah. Wheeww... Tak kunjung lepas si Ken dari otak kurang ajar gue. Dan selama meeting itu gue sempet chatting via BBM sama dia. Emang dasar kampret. Makin kepengen deh gue liat muka dia. Syiiit...
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
Bengal's New Flirt
I think I'm in lust!! Damn!! Why does it have to be another OPP?
Well, it's like this. Remember when I told you I went out of town with the boss past midnight to see our vendor? Errr, well, HE is our vendor. The one who took us to his home. The one who gave us shelter. The one who I've had a crush on at first sight. The one who had looked calm and kinda timid at first. Ha! Timid, my arse!!
On a trip last week, fate had it that we spent some time together. Well, not entirely alone, mind you, but it gave the opportunity to speak kinda privately. Slut that I was, I used it to satisfied myself. I swear I couldn't get enough of the sight of him. I walked away to give a distant, then I kept staring at him when he seemed unaware. A few times I thought I caught him stealing glances at me. Or was it the beach? Hmmm... Anyways, it felt great, you know. This feeling, the almost rusted part of my naughty side put to use, teehee...
Let's just call him Kenny. No, call him Ken. Well-proportioned, bigger than the average of Indonesians, and yummy-looking. :p A Sundanese, a bit on the scruffy side, always have a smile on his face, and I'm positive that he's a bad boy. And you all know I always have a soft spot for bad boys. Dang! Hormon Bengal mulai bekerja lagi.
Well, let's see if it's gonna be something, or stay at nothing. What a dilemma...
Well, it's like this. Remember when I told you I went out of town with the boss past midnight to see our vendor? Errr, well, HE is our vendor. The one who took us to his home. The one who gave us shelter. The one who I've had a crush on at first sight. The one who had looked calm and kinda timid at first. Ha! Timid, my arse!!
On a trip last week, fate had it that we spent some time together. Well, not entirely alone, mind you, but it gave the opportunity to speak kinda privately. Slut that I was, I used it to satisfied myself. I swear I couldn't get enough of the sight of him. I walked away to give a distant, then I kept staring at him when he seemed unaware. A few times I thought I caught him stealing glances at me. Or was it the beach? Hmmm... Anyways, it felt great, you know. This feeling, the almost rusted part of my naughty side put to use, teehee...
Let's just call him Kenny. No, call him Ken. Well-proportioned, bigger than the average of Indonesians, and yummy-looking. :p A Sundanese, a bit on the scruffy side, always have a smile on his face, and I'm positive that he's a bad boy. And you all know I always have a soft spot for bad boys. Dang! Hormon Bengal mulai bekerja lagi.
Well, let's see if it's gonna be something, or stay at nothing. What a dilemma...
Thursday, April 01, 2010
Rihanna - Rude Boy
Been listening to this song over and over lately for no particular reasons other than this is a cool song. :p
RUDE BOY - Rihanna
[Chorus]
Come here, rude boy, boy; can you get it up?
Come here rude boy, boy; is your big enough?
Take it, take it baby, baby
Take it, take it; love me, love me
[x2]
Tonight I'ma let you be the captain
Tonight I'ma let you do your thing, yeah
Tonight I'ma let you be a rider
Giddy-up, giddy-up, giddy-up babe
Tonight I'ma let it be fire
Tonight I'ma let you take me higher
Tonight, baby, we could get it on, yeah, we could get it on, yeah
Do you like it?
Boy, I want, want, want whatchu want, want, want
Give it to me, baby like boom, boom, boom
What I want, want, want is what you want, want, want
Nah nah-ah
[Chorus]
Come here, rude boy, boy, can you get it up?
Come here, rude boy, boy, is you big enough?
Take it, take it, baby, baby, take it, take it, love me, love me
[x2]
Tonight I'ma give it to ya harder
Tonight I'ma turn ya body out
Relax; let me do it how I wanna
If you got it I need it and I'ma put it down
Buckle up; I'ma give it to ya stronger
Heads up; we could go a little longer
Tonight I'ma get a little crazy, get a little crazy, baby
Do you like it?
Boy, I want, want, want whatchu want, want, want
Give it to me, baby like boom, boom, boom
What I want, want, want is what you want, want, want
Nah nah-ah
[Chorus]
Come here, rude boy, boy can you get it up?
Come here rude boy, boy is your big enough?
Take it, take it, baby, baby, take it, take it, love me, love me
[x2]
I like the way you touch me there
I like the way you pull my hair
Babe, if I don't feel it I ain't faking, no, no
I like when you tell me 'kiss you here'
I like when you tell me 'move it there'
So get it up; time to get it up: you say you a rude boy: show me what you got now
Come here right now
Take it, take it, baby, baby, take it, take it, love me, love me
[Chorus]
Come here, rude boy, boy, can you get it up?
Come here, rude boy, boy, is you big enough?
Take it, take it, baby, baby, take it, take it, love me, love me
[x2]
[Chorus]
Come here, rude boy, boy; can you get it up?
Come here rude boy, boy; is your big enough?
Take it, take it baby, baby
Take it, take it; love me, love me
[x2]
Tonight I'ma let you be the captain
Tonight I'ma let you do your thing, yeah
Tonight I'ma let you be a rider
Giddy-up, giddy-up, giddy-up babe
Tonight I'ma let it be fire
Tonight I'ma let you take me higher
Tonight, baby, we could get it on, yeah, we could get it on, yeah
Do you like it?
Boy, I want, want, want whatchu want, want, want
Give it to me, baby like boom, boom, boom
What I want, want, want is what you want, want, want
Nah nah-ah
[Chorus]
Come here, rude boy, boy, can you get it up?
Come here, rude boy, boy, is you big enough?
Take it, take it, baby, baby, take it, take it, love me, love me
[x2]
Tonight I'ma give it to ya harder
Tonight I'ma turn ya body out
Relax; let me do it how I wanna
If you got it I need it and I'ma put it down
Buckle up; I'ma give it to ya stronger
Heads up; we could go a little longer
Tonight I'ma get a little crazy, get a little crazy, baby
Do you like it?
Boy, I want, want, want whatchu want, want, want
Give it to me, baby like boom, boom, boom
What I want, want, want is what you want, want, want
Nah nah-ah
[Chorus]
Come here, rude boy, boy can you get it up?
Come here rude boy, boy is your big enough?
Take it, take it, baby, baby, take it, take it, love me, love me
[x2]
I like the way you touch me there
I like the way you pull my hair
Babe, if I don't feel it I ain't faking, no, no
I like when you tell me 'kiss you here'
I like when you tell me 'move it there'
So get it up; time to get it up: you say you a rude boy: show me what you got now
Come here right now
Take it, take it, baby, baby, take it, take it, love me, love me
[Chorus]
Come here, rude boy, boy, can you get it up?
Come here, rude boy, boy, is you big enough?
Take it, take it, baby, baby, take it, take it, love me, love me
[x2]
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Owing So Much
Honestly, I owe this blog so many postings. I used to publish a post everyday, even more than one on good days. But now, I can't seem to be able to make one each week. I make drafts whenever I remember, but no time to finish them.
Funny thing is, by the time I could finish and publish those posting drafts, this post would mean nothing and be the odd one of all. Hahahaaa... *Sigh*
Funny thing is, by the time I could finish and publish those posting drafts, this post would mean nothing and be the odd one of all. Hahahaaa... *Sigh*
Monday, March 15, 2010
Free Day!
Off tomorrow!! A day off!! Yihaaa... But I still need to pack for the trip the day after. But at least, all details had been taken care of, and I can have a full day with Li'l Bangbag and my family. Alhamdulillah...
What I'm gonna do is:
What I'm gonna do is:
- Breakfast at home
- Lunch at home
- Dinner at home
- Watch cable.
- Oh, and of course quality time with Bangbag. ;)
Friday, March 12, 2010
03122010, 07:38 pm
Still cold, and still clueless. The body is a wreck, and the jobs are piling. No breaks allowed. *play dead*
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Escort, Anyone?
Escort? Qiqiqiqi... Somehow Bee and I talked about escorts. Guy escorts. Yummeh... :p
I don't remember what we were talking about exactly, anyway. But for sure, it was something to do with the male population and how we, the ladies, should make use of them. I can only recall a small portion of it. How Bee was frantic and dying to have a boyfriend. And how I wanted a guy too. But I don't want any commitment. I don't want any strings attached to my relationship at the moment. Not yet anyway.
So, one thing came to mind instantly. ESCORT. Teehee. It's convenient, don't you think? We can choose their look, we can tell them how to act and what to do. For a price, I know. But no commitment, no hassle, and we get to be with a man. Wakakakakakaka... Right, it's all only a joke. Come on, no way we would hire an escort!! *Gubrakk*
I don't remember what we were talking about exactly, anyway. But for sure, it was something to do with the male population and how we, the ladies, should make use of them. I can only recall a small portion of it. How Bee was frantic and dying to have a boyfriend. And how I wanted a guy too. But I don't want any commitment. I don't want any strings attached to my relationship at the moment. Not yet anyway.
So, one thing came to mind instantly. ESCORT. Teehee. It's convenient, don't you think? We can choose their look, we can tell them how to act and what to do. For a price, I know. But no commitment, no hassle, and we get to be with a man. Wakakakakakaka... Right, it's all only a joke. Come on, no way we would hire an escort!! *Gubrakk*
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
03102010, 05:46 pm
Catching cold. Tis really not a good thing at this moment. Got stuck in my blue moods. Couldn't put any energy for work. Totally drained and tired when I haven't exactly done anything. Either a blue mood or PMS, I wonder which one I'm having now. Need to be alone.
Shit! Let me sleep!! Please...
Shit! Let me sleep!! Please...
Monday, March 08, 2010
03082010, 11:55 am
Need sleep, badly. Catching cold, which is something I definitely can't afford to get at the moment. I'm in the middle of a road show preparation, multi-events, and there's also another presentation waiting to be submitted.
Not to say how over-demanding BosMama could be. Sorry, Ma'am, but you're such a pain sometimes...
Feels like screaming my head off...
Not to say how over-demanding BosMama could be. Sorry, Ma'am, but you're such a pain sometimes...
Feels like screaming my head off...
Thursday, March 04, 2010
03042010, 07:49 pm
Bangun tidur ku terus meeting...
Terus lanjut ikut lunch meeting...
Sorenya ada meeting lagi...
Dan dadakan malem meeting lagiii...
Terus lanjut ikut lunch meeting...
Sorenya ada meeting lagi...
Dan dadakan malem meeting lagiii...
meetingmeetingmeetingmeetingmeetingmeetingmeetingmeetingmeetingmeetingmeetingmeeting... Gaaaaaahhhhh!!!!
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
Celine Dion - A New Day Has Come
A NEW DAY HAS COME - CELINE DION
I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on and don't shed a tear
So through darkness and good times
I knew I'd make it through
And the world thought I had it all
But I was waiting for you
Hush now
I see a light in the sky
Oh it's almost blinding me
I can't believe I've been touched by an angel
With love
Let the rain come down
And wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul
And drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls
For a new sun
A new day has come
A new day has come
Where it was dark now there is light
Where there was pain, now there's joy
Where there was weakness, I found my strength
All in the eyes of a boy
Hush now
I see a light in the sky
Oh it's almost blinding me
I can't believe I've been touched by an angel
With love
Let the rain come down
And wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul
And drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls
For a new sun
A new day has come
A new day has come
What a beautiful song. And I'm into this one because of Kherington's and Twitch's Viennese Waltz.
Monday, March 01, 2010
Kherington & Twitch - Viennese Waltz
I know that So You Think You Can Dance is already on their 7th season. But I always think that the Kherington and Twitch as the best pair, especially when they dance the Viennese Waltz. The combination of routines, music, costume, and lighting is just so perfect. I can't help but watching it so many times, and it always succeed to make me cry. *Sigh*
Probably because we know the story behind the dance, it escalates the emotion when watching it. Their breaths were that synchronized, the lines were beautiful, everything was just perfect. Right, I'm gushing. I'll leave you to watch it. Took the clip above from YouTube. It was originally posted by mileyrocks2201. Check it out.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Stranded 0210
Damn, we're stranded. Me, Bos Noy, and Boti left Jakarta to Bandung last night, well, more like earlier today as it was actually 1 am. We stopped by for supper and I bought another Starbucks tumbler. Teehee. It was a relatively slow journey. We got to Bandung at about 4.30, couldn't find any vacant room in any hotel. Jeez, those stupid Jakartans really don't know any other places for their holiday, huh? Wait, don't include me. I'm here to work. Anyways, due to no place to go, the boss called one of our friend which is also one of our vendor and he instantly invited us to his house. At 5 in the morning. I doubt if it was totally voluntarily, though. But, he's hot! ;)
He's hot, and taken. Damn. There goes another opportunity. What a waste... *sobs*
He's hot, and taken. Damn. There goes another opportunity. What a waste... *sobs*
Thursday, February 25, 2010
SYTYCD Today
Spent the day watching various clip of SYTYCD. Hahaa... Instead of working, I watched those clips on Youtube. Well, mainly playing the Season 3 because I love Kherington, Twitch, Katee and Joshua, as well as Courtney.
Favorite routines:
1. Kherington & Twitch - Viennese Waltz
2. Katee & Joshua - Bollywood Dance
3. etc.
I like so many routines in this season competition, but those two stood out. :D
Right, back to Youtube now. :p
Favorite routines:
1. Kherington & Twitch - Viennese Waltz
2. Katee & Joshua - Bollywood Dance
3. etc.
I like so many routines in this season competition, but those two stood out. :D
Right, back to Youtube now. :p
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Rainfall - Nitin Sawhney
Got today's tasks done. And I wanted to go somewhere to grab a great coffee. But alas, it rained suddenly. So I had to drink instant coffee-mix. Again. In this mood. Bah!!
CrewCut and Gramps are out on a survey, and Boti is somewhere doing who-knows-what, while Doyok is of course playing an online games. I've harvested my crops and cooked some dishes. And I don't know what else to do. Facebook is getting boring these days. And I don't have any ideas to twit on Twitter.
Then I remember. I am the only notebook user in this office and it means I can browse and download to my heart content with no shared wifi. Oh bliss!! And it's what got me to play all those videos on Youtube. From one musician to the others, and I landed on Nitin Sawhney's world. Was checking the #nowplaying on Twitter, and found this girl hashtagging #nitinsawhney. I must say I could love that girl's tweets. Hahaa.
So here I am, playing his songs one after another without any disturbance. No loading, no usual shits. All smooth and lovely. And set my mood to right. Anyways, the first song of his that I've ever listened to was Rainfall. He collaborated with Urban something, I guess it must be a hip hop group or whatever. And I fell in love instantly with that song. Then I waited until his album came out here in Indonesia. I didn't even care about the price. He's my key to India. Before his songs, I'm sorry to say, I kinda looked down on everthing Indian. I always associated India with countless Bollywood ugly movies and songs and poverty, dungs on the street, etc. No offense. I wasn't cruel, but I was ignorant. And now, I would grab the first opportunity to visit the country.
I started by looking up his name on the internet. Then I was curious on how he could make his music so beautiful. Despite his British background, his music is influenced by his homeland. That is definite. And one thing led to another, one search pushed to another search. I started to look up India history. I fell in love with their myth. I started to read Indian literature. I dream of visiting all those historical and beautiful places scattered all over the country. And it's all because of Nitin Sawhney. Maybe he should get an award for influencing people to get the positive aspects of his country?
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