I Love GIGI

Huaaahhh... This is the day. March 31, 2009. Frigie and I have been losing sleep to get to this day. But it turned out that she couldn't come to the presentation, so it's just me, and the other 2 people on the team. The presentation went well. It was funny, and some of it was outrageus. Those people were nutcases, including my boss. Wahahahahahaa... But we're still waiting for the announcement of who the winner is going to be. The Japanese agency was already out. Now it's between us and AdidasMan's team. Oh Great Teacher, whoever wins, you still win too. Haks haks haks... This is crazy, really. *Masih geleng2 kepala*.

After that, all 4 bosses took me to GIGI's 15th Aniversary concert at Jakarta Theater. It was outstanding! The first half of the show was filled by artists and lead singers singing GIGI's songs. I especially loved performances by Glenn Fredly and Fadly Padi. There were also Giring Nidji, Pasha Ungu, Lusy Rahmawaty, BCL, David Naif, Tria Cangchuters, Kaka Slank, Ariel Peterpan, Andy /Rif, Omelette feat. Yoyo Padi, etc. Yoyo was spectacular!! I can't take my eyes from him. He was so energetic. His level was waaaay above the other drummers in Indonesia, maybe even Asia. He's simply great. I respect you, man...

The rest of the half was of GIGI's playing their songs, most of them were new songs. And they haven't lost their touch. When they play 'Nakal', they really brought the house down. Damn!! I love that song! And for the last song, I forgot the title, all personnel, past and present, were on stage and they all played. It was cool. Aww...

I don't know what else to say about them. GIGI is the best band in Indonesia.

03302009, 09:57 pm

Another Monday is here. Another week has started. Last week was kinda tough, but I went through it just fine. Tomorrow is gonna be the climax. I just hope that it will go really well. I pray that we win this project. After all the effort we put into it. Tapi tetep pasrah, manusia berusaha, Allah berkehendak.

My head feels like there's someone hammering my brain out of my head. A paracetamol and a good sleep will make it alright. But not yet, dear Bengal. Your time hasn't yet to come. Be patient. Finish everything tonight along with Frigie, be prepared for tomorrow, give it your more than best shot, then you can have a rest. It's not like you work that hard, right? It takes your time, but you learn a lot from it. Be grateful, Bengal. *I am grateful, dammit!!*

Eh, but I won't refuse a nice cuddle. Aww... Batman, where are you? Gini deh kalo kampret2an pas sama2 ada kerjaan. Kampret yang satu is in event, the other kampret is pitching on an event. Mana gak ada colongan. Heuh... Story of my life..

Remembering Jakarta Fair

Jakarta Fair. Terakhir gue mengunjungi Jakarta Fair adalah saat venuenya masih di Monas. Kebayang gak udah berapa lama? Gileee... That was back when I was still a very small child. Hahaa... It was a luxury for me. Going out til late at night, cotton candy, sweets, traditional cakes, kerak telor, balloons, taking pictures, lifted on the shoulder of my dad, etc. It's probably more than 20 years ago, jeez. I feel old now. My oldest sister and brother were still alive then. My family was still intact. Jakarta Fair for me is a remembrance of my happy moments with my parents and siblings. Seeing that there are only and my brother left now... I miss them all. So much that I want to cry.

Not good this dwelling on the past. Cheer up, Bengal. You have lots of friends, a brother who loves you, and a very cute Lil Bangbag, and a kinda dynamic life. Doing the right or wrong things, it's your life. Live it up, girl!!

*This damn PRJ project is screwing me up*

8 Hours in Starbucks

I thought I've started to make a post yesterday, but it turned out that it wasn't saved. Damn... Might as well it wasn't that long. So, I presented Frigie and my work last night to the bosses. And they want us to refine it. I should say that it wouldn't be just refinement, but major additions. And we have to finish it today. And there are still designs to be made by our art director, Bulldog. He's not an easy person to get along with. Only Frigie can handle him. This one is yours to follow up, cuy...

Right now, we're back in Starbucks, again working on this project. Ambience is really a boosting factor in enabling us to think and be creative. Just being in this place has made me feel better already. Sitting on the sofa, Acer on my lap, grande hot Americano on the table, a little weird music, but it all boost our mood. Hopefully this will result in our finishing this project on time and satisfactorily. Amen...

Shit, it's raining outside. And Frigie and her boyfriend are out grabbing some lunch. I'm staying here to keep our place and work some more, but hey, I am blogging. Hahaa... What so funny when I came here is the fact that there's Om TOA who was here too like I wrote in my previous post, sitting exactly in the same place, and a young Japanese who is sitting also exactly in the same place the last time I saw him the other day. And I am sitting in the same spot too. Guess this is a place for regulars, eh? Pretty cool, I mean to be a regular in Starbucks. Imagine, how much money would be spent here each week? No, month... Damn... But as they say, it's the ambience that we pay for, not just coffee. You get what you pay for. Just be prepared to lose some more here, because there are great Japanese food around. And how I love Japanese food. Ramen, the usual bento set, Japanese breads and cakes, Taiyakis, Takoyakis, Japanese cheesecakes, all Japanese ingredients also available in the supermarket right next to Starbucks, and a karaoke joint on the other side. Heaven...

I'm very hungry, but I can't afford to buy anymore pastries now. Too expensive and not at all full me up. Thinking what to eat, what can be bought outside, at a minimum cost. Hehee... Om Yo gave us 50G each today to buy coffee and other refreshments. But apparently it won't be enough. Come on... *Sigh*. At the moment, Frigie is taking a dump, she went to the toilet upstairs. Her stomach reacts to coffee almost instantly, hehe. Her boyfriend went home 5 minutes ago. Still struggling with this presentation we're supposed to finish. Actually, Frigie is the one who makes this. I'm just backing her up. See, I give credits where it's due. Not like some other people who like to claim others' work as theirs. Weww... ;)

There's a bunch of kids sitting next to our table. Two boys and a girl wearing hijab. But what surprises me and Frigie is that this girl keeps swearing and saying 'Anjing!'. Even I only say 'Anjrit!' to soften it, to make it less offensive. Kids nowadays... *Sigh*.

Change of position: we are sitting on the carpet. Wakakakakakakakaa... Ndesonya lama-lama keluar juga. Xixixixixi... Cueklah. Bayar ini. Lagian kan disini mau kerja sambil santai. Makin nyaman, makin enak konsentrasinya. *Halahh, cari alasan mode on*.

Hm, now we've been here for 8 hours. Time to grab a very late lunch and go back to our office to continue working. Lama-lama malu juga, cuy. Xixixixixixi... Yuk ah. Starbucks, makasih ya udah jadi tempat tenang gue n Frigie ngerjain presentasi ini. Mayan juga duit yang keluar hari ini selama 8 jam terakhir. Weww...

One Working Holiday

At the moment, I'm working on that Fairlady project with Frigie in a Starbucks outlet. Change of scenery and ambience, secara ini hari libur gettooooh. At least we're feeling kinda refreshed. Actually, today is Frigie's birthday. But I made her go out and work with me. Sorry about that, cuy. Hehee... So, let me just say, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CUY. WISH YOU ALL THE BEST".

Ada om gendut banget yang yang jadi customernya outlet ini. Kenapa gue bisa bilang kalo dia itu customer? Karena pegawai-pegawai Starbucks yang disini kelihatan pada kenal semua sama si om gendut. Diameternya kayaknya lebih dari 2,5x diameter badan gue. Tapi yang bikin dia memorable adalah: suaranya. Bukan karena suaranya enak didenger ato bagus, tapi karena volumenya gede banget. TOA sodara-sodara!! Tanpa dikehendaki, gue jadi tau kalo dia tinggal di Pesanggrahan, adiknya tinggal di Amerika dan lagi mau dioperasi. Frigie nanya ke gue, adiknya kan tinggal di Amerika, kenapa dia yang happy ya, secara dia tinggalnya di Pesanggrahan? Gue jawab aja, mungkin karena dia merasa biarpun gendut tapi dia lebih sehat dari adiknya yang mau dioperasi itu. *halahdotcom banget gak siy?*

Cowoknya Frigie dateng menjemput, dan kita pergi makan malem di KFC. Tadinya siy niat mo nerusin kerja disana, tapi karena satu dan lain hal akhirnya dibatalin. Satu alasan dari Frigie adalah meja. Gak mantap aja kali ye. So we decided to go home. They dropped me off at PIM. I took time to go to Gramedia and browsed the shelves. I bought Budiman Hakim's Sex After Dugem and a chicklit novel, I forgot the title as well as the author, as I grabbed it at the last second before I got to the cashier. And now I'm soooo happy because I have new books. Life is so simple sometimes, ya. New books can give me the high. A stolen kiss can give me the blush. *Grins*.

03252009, 08:35 pm

Today Frigie asked something about Consumer Behavior. That was my one of my favorite subject back when I was still in college. Can't say I could explain it that well, but at least it made me want to relearn it. Consumer Behavior is fun, dynamic, not boring at all. I got an A for it. Hehee...

Must finish the presentation soon. So many things to put into it. So many things still unavailable. So little time left. And so little brain to work on it. *Bete kok otaknya gak pinter lagi mode on*. I swear I'll try to finish it ASAP. Actually, I have to finish it tomorrow. Frigie, don't forget about our date tomorrow. Sorry to spoil your birthday and holiday. Ehehehee...

Going home now. Want to finish early and maybe try to catch a ride. Not in a good mood to see them now. I dunno, suddenly I'm feeling reluctant. Gue ngerepotin mereka banget gak sih? Heuh...

Hysterical and Hyped Moments

Hari ini kepala gue mau pecah. Ditambah lagi sama pengalaman buruk gue semalem. Anj*ng!!! Again, I fought with Alv. And I still have the bruise on my left arm and neck. Someday I might kill that asshole!! God please grant me patience. And please make him let me go. Amen.

It's all cliche. It sucks. He sucks. That's all there is to it. Fuckin brute!! And that pic above is the proof of it. Period. He's such a psycho. He threatened to punch me with a brutal expression on his face. So what if I said no? I have a right to say no. He does not have a right to make me do what he wants every time. He looked sorry afterward. But I just felt nothing. Whatever he said, he couldn't move me. He can't move me anymore. It's all charity from now on. If he forced me to stay with him, that's all he'd get. He won't get love, care, attention, kind words, or whatever those things he wants from me. Just be prepared to get hurt, babe. I hate you. You blackmail me, I have my way to retaliate. Take it...

And now, on to the cool things. So, I spent today mostly with the guys in the other division. Had to transfer my files in the Lenovo into the Acer, the boss wanted me to switch laptop. Again. Hah! And then had a meeting there too. And then waiting for my ride buddies to finish as I always get a hitch from them to get halfway home. Hehee...

While waiting for Bos Noy to finish, I spent the time by browsing, going back and forth to Doyok's desk, and petting (uh) with Batman, *wink, wink*. Somehow, the place was almost empty, and I couldn't help myself when I was browsing. The cubicle was kinda separated and people could hardly see us from the opening. I scooted over and kiss Batman. Hahaaa... The look on his face was priceless!! But then when I pulled away, he pulled me back and kissed me again. My heartbeat was like Buddy Holly drumming in the climax of his songs. And to top it all off, the guys was drinking, and I had drunk Batman's beer mixed with Lychee before. What a potent mixture. And delicious!! *Evil grins*. Then Bos Noy shouted for him. My eyes were tired so I moved to lay down on the sofa. I took a position in a kinda secluded corner and closed my eyes. I guess I fell asleep, because then I felt a hand on my head. I opened my eyes, Batman was sitting and stroking my hair. I didn't even know when he got there. After checking on the situation and make sure that it was safe, we continue kissing and a little petting. Something to be noted, the sofa might be secluded from the other workers, but it was facing right to the street outside. Anyone passing by were definitely able to see us. But who cares, right? Xixixixixi... Adrenaline rush. It really gave us the high. Damn... I just hope that I'm not addicted to it.

Went home at about 10 pm. He called me again after midnite, and we did that two-lettered sound thingy. What a day. And what a night. A way better alternative than my usual days. Nice intermezzo. It's enough for me. After that freakin' manhandling with Alv the night before, at last I can smile again. Cihuuuy... :p

My Researching Days

One of the transcriber I often worked with back when I was working for a research agency added me on Facebook. Then I saw her convo with my ex-partner on their walls. I wanted to laugh out loud. Instantly, I could feel her pains. Ahahahahahahahaahh... So sorry, mbak. Been there, done that. Hihihiks...

My agency, let's call it ResAg (for Research Agency, :p), was not a big one. But we have quite impressive portfolio. My position was Research Executive. I didn't have to look for new clients as they all came to us. The new ones wanted to make new market researches, and the old ones wanted to check the results of their actions against the benchmarks. We did research on markets and products such as cars, motorcycles, banks, snacks, drinks, confectionaries, insect repellents, energy drinks, isotonic drinks, coffees, and even condoms. Neat, eh??

Because it's a small agency, mostly we outsourced for some of the jobs needed to be done. For example, we worked with recruiters to recruit our respondents, there were also transcribers, translators if needed, notetakers, even runners. Oh, and also video and audio men. But when it still could be handled by us alone, we didn't need to outsource. That was also as a saving reason. Hehee... So I need to be able to multitask. Recruiters were always needed, it's impossible if I recruited the respondents all by myself. What I could do was check the respondents, were they fit with the respondents' questionnaire, then prepare the questions for the Focus Group Discussions or In-Depth Interviews, depends on which one we were going to use. Oh by the way, we specialized on qualitative research. For small ones, we might do the quantitative as well. I kept in touch with the clients, whether they need revisions on the RQ, or the amount of groups, etc. I also prepared the basic elements needed to conduct those researches, eg: FGD rooms, audio video, stimulus, flipcharts, recorders, blah blah blah... So many small things but none I could afford to miss, otherwise I might blew the research. One important thing: This thing can only be done once. It cannot be repeated.

After preparations were done, we conducted the actual researches, be it FGDs, in-depth interviews, quick interviews, one day in a life, observations, etc. Most of the time, the clients would want to observe when we conducted the research. That's why the FGD rooms have one way mirrors. Recording is compulsory. We use the record to make the transcriptions of the discussion and interviews. The those transcription were used to make the content, or when we needed to quote the verbatim from the respondents. Then we used it make an analysis and then compiled into the reports.

So, it's all not as simple as it looks. In fact, it's complicated and ribet... But you could say I enjoyed it. Even if the boss were hard. She was really good in making people frustrated. I heard at her company now she has made 2 people resigned. Wow... How rad is that?? Hahahaaa... Anyways, more often than not, she was more frustrated at me than I was at her. :D So sorry, boss.

In this kind of work, you can't stay still. There's always something to learn. Research, research, research. You always get new knowledge, from the actual research, from the Internet, from observation, etc. This job taught me to observe. Not just sightseeing, but also to analyse. Always looking for insights. Always being alert. And always know the new things, the trends, what's hip, be it fashion, clubs, hangout places, movies and soap operas, celebrities, socialites, advertisements, even politics and economics. I also need to know all about the products itself, the brands, and their competitors. The profile of the users. Everything. It's cool, eh?

Now, my brain is frozen. I really need to melt it and make it work again. I need it badly.

Another Sunday

Weeehh, bisa-bisanya gue lupa posting kemaren... Yaaah, bukannya banyak yang mau diceritain juga. Lagi-lagi bangun siang trus bukannya sarapan malah langsung nguber skor di Car Madness. Lagian juga kakak gue belum pulang, mereka lagi ke Cinere beli sarapan. Pas sampe rumah, ternyata gue dibeliin ketupat padang yang porsinya alaihim gambreng, banyak banget!!! Makannya sampe ngos-ngosan, itu juga masih sisa ketupatnya setengah porsi. Pas gue lagi bawa piring kotor ke dapur, eh kakak gue bilang, " Bengal, bubur sumsum n candil buat kamu ada di kulkas ya."

*GLEEEERRRGHHH...*

Trus seperti biasa kalo weekend gue usahain untuk main sama Lil Bangbag, biar dia gak lupa sama auntie-nya yang jarang pulang ini. Hiks... Sumpah tu anak gak abis-abis lucunya. Uuuuuuuuhhhhh gwemweeeessshhh!!! Rambutnya udah nambah panjang beberapa sentimeter, makanya poninya minggu lalu dipotong oleh maknyaknya. Rada miring gitu, tapi mukanya jadi lucu. Badung abis deh! Kelihatan banget kalo dia itu punya gen nakal yang unggul. Halahh...

Sorenya gue cabut ke kantor (he'eh, gue tau ini hari Minggu. Mang ngefek, gitu?) soalnya mau meeting buat refine presentasi pitching. Mpe malem, trus gue males pulang, udah nanggung gitu, gue nginep deh di rumah bos gue. That's my Sunday. Maaf yee, kayaknya postingan2 gue masih garing dan gak ada perkembangan. Heuhh...

Tidur, Makan, Facebook

Sabtu hari leha2... Mantaaaap... Bangun jam 11 siang, sarapan yang telat, jam 1 langsung makan siang lagi, trus tidur.

Bangun tidur ke terus Facebook
Tidak lupa mengecek email
Sambil Googling kutolong Speedy
Membersihkan bandwidth yang tersisaaa...

*Halaahh...*
Sambil makan buah n minum kopi, nonton tv sambil tetep facebook-an. Jam 9-an masak mie instan, trus makan sambil facebook-an juga. Facebook taeeee'!!! Bikin addicted aja, padahal mah cuma gitu-gitu aja. Heuhh...

03202009, 09:20 pm

Wow, it's already Friday again. Time flies so fast. Been some busy workdays. Busy facebooking (oops), working (of course), and brainstorming (well, duh, that's work, right?). But I'm not complaining. In fact, I love it. :D

The office started to fill again. Some designers who had to quit when we lost a big client are back with us now. And I'm glad, because that means I have my loyal customers back. Hahaa... And I can get more assignments, at least proof-reading or FA. D'you hear that, Frigie?? :D

Hoping next week is gonna be a fabulous week. And now I'm about to enjoy my Friday night. At my office. Hehee...

03192009, 03:15 pm

Needs supplements for my dysfunctional and useless brain... Need to concentrate extra harder to make a satisfying, elaborate, comprehensive, and unembarrassing concept to be put into the presentation. Details, details...

Okay, back to work now. I'm feeling good and creative. Yeah, I am. I think. :p

Gak Jelas

Hari ini adalah hari yang gak jelas. Lohh?? Yaaah, pokoknya kemaren udah niat ngerjain buat presentasi Fairlady abis-abisan. Ceritanya sih mau dedicate 1 day for the above-mentioned project. Tapiii... Ternyata proyek utama yang udah mau deadline masih butuh bantuan. Abis itu, eh gue malah blank pas mau ngerjain Fairlady. Huh... Dan yang hebatnya lagi, dari kemaren gue gak sempet main Car Madness. Boro-boro sempet, pas rada luang, malah internetnya yang lemot. Huh lagi ah...

Tapi pokoknya hari ini serba gak jelas buat gue. Mpe sekarang aja gue gak jelas mau nulis apa. Tau ah. Suka-suka yang punya blog aja deh mau terusin nulis ato langsung kabur dan tidur.

Keputusan secara aklamasi:

Udahan ketik postingan gak jelas ini dan langsung tidur.

Yang mengambil keputusan:

• Me
• Myself
• I
• Gue
• Saya
• Aku
• Hamba
• Daku
• Ane
• Ogut
  

03182009, 03:15 pm

Bingung mau ngerjain fairlady dulu ato busyfemale dulu...

Kok kayaknya malah jadi gak ada yang gue kerjain ya?

Kampreet!!

03172009, 11:55 pm

Hari ini mati lampu, kayaknya seluruh Jakarta sampe Depok deh. Kalo gak salah karena ada masalah di PLTU Suryalaya. Mau kerja jadi gak bisa, padahal otak lagi cerah-cerahnya tuh. Kenapa suka gitu ya? Pas lagi banyak ide dan mau dituangin, eh, sarananya ngambek. Akhirnya gue pergi makan siang sama cowok-cowok divisi sebelah, soalnya pesenan Hokben gue ternyata gak diorder. Heuh. Tapi malah enak, bisa makan di warteg. Cuman ya itu, diluar panasnya mwinta ampwun!!

Begitu balik ke kantor, gak lama kemudian listriknya nyala lagi. Tapi moodnya kepalang ngilang. Bete deh! Dan anyway gue juga ada kerjaan lain, so proyek ini harus ditunda dulu sampe malem. Overall, yesterday was productive. And as usual, I went to Om Noy's office to get a hitch home. Hahaa...

I overheard Batman on his phone. He was fighting with his ex about his son. We had a little time alone in the car before going home and he told me what it was all about. Damn, I hate it when a child gets dragged in the parents' fight. Can't say I blame Batman though. And I'm not saying this because I side with him no matter whether he's right or wrong. And that's the first time I saw him angry with purpose. I like the way he expressed his love for his son. Oh well, I always have a soft spot for men who care for their children and don't hesitate to show it. Awww... Be strong, Batman. I pray for you.

Our Son? Huh?

There's something happened yesterday regarding Batman and me. It's all through SMS. It started just like usual. Just saying hi and being perverts. Hahaa... In the afternoon, it was raining like hell. Then a couple of hours later I asked his whereabouts. He was fishing.

"With our son...", he said.

I thought I was mistaken, so I just let it pass. But fishing, in the rain?

"No, it ain't raining anymore. I'm taking our son fishing so he'll be happy."

Okaaay, so I wasn't mistaken indeed. He did say 'our son.' I smiled sheepishly, imagining if we're really together and that the kid were really our son. For the life of me, I couldn't do it. Hahahahaaa...

"Did you just say OUR son, Batman?"

"Namanya juga usaha. Siapa tau lo nekat mau buy 1 get 2..."

No offense, Batman. But for now, I don't intend to be serious with any man. We continued texting. But the point is, I got a feeling that he was digging me up, baiting me. He gave a notion that he sensed my rejection then. He wanted to have a feel if there's a future in this relationship. But then I had to say, what relationship? Isn't this one of those Hubungan Tanpa Status (HTS) thingy? And now it made me worry that he would commit himself to an exclusive relationship with me. I don't want that, yet. With anyone. And would you realize that one of my main concern is his son? What would happen if he had a set of parents that were never home? I know I'm straying, but that still makes sense, right?

Batman, you really need to get to know other women. Don't let me be your one. Much as I got closer to you, I still don't think it's a good idea. Even if it looked like a joke, that's not your kind of joke. I know what you're doing. :) Tapi moga-moga aja ini cuma gue yang kege-eran yak. Tapi juga moga-moga gue gak ketulah ntar nih. Fiuuuh...

I'm comfortable with our situation now. I know he needs a woman soon, who can be his mate as well as a mother for his son. But if he even considers me to be that, I guess I would have to break this HTS thing. I like him, a lot. Shit, it's so not him. I don't want it to end now. Does that make me a selfish woman?

Gagalnya Kaul Bidadari Bengal

Pecah sudah kaul gue untuk diam di rumah sepanjang weekend ini. Hari Jumat kemaren gue udah dirumah gak lama setelah jam 12, tapi trus Alv jemput gue, jadi jalan lagi. Cuma nongkrong di warung Indomie siy. Pulang jam 3an gitu. Langsung tewas. Bangun-bangun udah mo jam 11. Dimeja makan udah disisain 1 burger buatan kakak gue. Baru kelar makan, Facebookan bentar, eh makan siang udah siap. Enak banget cuy. Ada gulai ayam plus kentang ama balado terong. Abis makan trus beres-beres meja. Facebook lagi. Pas udah eneg di depan monitor, gue ke kamar, cuman rebahan bentar, loh kok malah ketiduran yak? Emang dasar kebluk aja kali ye. Bangun tidur kuterus makan... Wekekekekekekekek... Delivery dari salah satu resto Chinese food deket rumah. Menu standar siy: Cap Cay, Fuyung Hai, and Mie Goreng. Yang gak standar cuma porsinya. Banyak banget!! Abis pula... Yassalaaam... Udah itu SMS-an ma Alv, daaaan ketiduran lagi dengan suksesnya. Heuh.

Tadi pagi bangun siang lagi. Cimit nelpon gue ngajak jalan. Gue bilang males, mau dirumah aja. Masih semangat menuhin kaul untuk gak keluar rumah nih ceritanya. Siang ujan dereees banget, petirnya juga kayak setan gitu. Gak berhenti-berhenti. Udah kayak badai gimana tau. Malah gue baca dari salah satu news portal bahwa di Ciputat sempet terjadi hujan es. Untung gak ditempat gue. Bisa-bisa benjol ntar... Pas ujan itu giliran Yuyu nelon, ngajak jalan juga. Gue udah punya alasan pasti untuk nolak: HUJAN DERAS. 'Yawdah, mbak. Kalo ntar udah reda ya jalan aja'... Gubrak...

Bener juga, pas gue lagi makan malem, ujan udah berhenti tuh. Yuyu nelpon lagi, kepengen karaoke. Yassalaaam... Gue hari Jumat tuh abis karaoke 5 jam. Dan masih ada sejuta keraguan untuk matahin kaul gue. Tapi pikir-pikir, karaoke lagi asik juga. Byaaaar... Pecah deh kaul gue. Hiks... Karaoke lagi deh. Dan ini gue baru aja pulang. Hehee...

Remind me to tell you about Batman's SMSs tomorrow, yeah?? Nite, peeps...

03152009, 08:55 pm

Weekend ini gue berniat untuk dirumah aja, gak mau kemana-mana. Kenapa? Pertama, gak punya duit. Hihihihiks. Kedua, gue pengen nikmatin rumah semaksimal mungkin. Rasanya udah lama gue gak leyeh-leyeh santai, main sama Lil Bangbag seharian, mengkonsumsi sarapan, makan siang, dan makan malam semuanya dirumah, beresin kamar gue yang udah kayak abis kena twister, dll. Biarpun gak menutup kemungkinan bakal ada tawaran yang lebih menggoda juga. Wew...

I gotta say, I spent this whole day sleeping, eating, and facebooking. Nothing much to say. Which reminds me, Facebook improved their look. But I don't like it much. Probably because I'm not used to it. Yet. Damn, I prefer the old look. *Sigh*

GIVE US BACK THE OLD FACEBOOK!!!

03132009, 01:45 pm

Feeling happy and exhilarated today. Created an event for The Happy Group's first kopi darat. Which is a lie. Hahahaaa... Actually, it's the birthday celebration of my company as well as its owner, and we're gonna do it in a karaoke place near our office. Because most of the workers are also the member of Happy Group, I published it in the group as if this is the launching event of HG. And by mistake, I sent invitations to ALL members, and some of them actually say yes. Mati gak siy gueeee???? Damnit!! Thank goodness, it should've been started by now. So even if they wanted to come, I don't think they can make it. Amen...

Boss Noy laughed at my expense. Nice, Oom... As long as you're happy lah. Hehee... Tapi gue juga ngeles siy, gue bilang di wall itu bahwa jumlah member yang confirm mau hadir udah melebihi kuota, so pendaftaran dinyatakan ditutup. Keren ya. *Apaan siiiy??*

Udah ah, cabut dulu yak. Badan gue panas, dan satu-satunya cara ngeluarin panas tubuh itu adalah dengan nyanyi. Cihuuuuy...

Bengal and Her Happy Group

Bidadari Bengal has created a group in Facebook. The name won't be shared here, as you would be able to know my real identity if I tell you the group name. Hehee... But basically, its aim is to make a group of happy people. I have many plans for this Happy Group, but I'll tell you when it's already executed.

But I can tell you this: there's gonna be Quote of the Day. Did you just say lame? Ah, but you don't know about our mascot. He's a genius in making instant stupid quotes. When reading those quotes, you would smile --> smile is usually the sign of happiness. Hehee...

OK, lame posting today. I know. *Sigh*...

03112009, 06:55 pm

Feeling dizzy all day. Probably heat stroke. It was like being baked in the oven when I went to office this morning. And it was like being moved to another oven when I walked to lunch with Frigie. This morning, when I just got to the office, Frigie spilled out about one of our co-worker. She's a very difficult person to work with. Along with her assistant, they make it hell for anyone who has to work together with them. Their names simply spell trouble. Just thinking about them is quite nerve-wrecking.

Aside from that, not much happened today. Except maybe for a call from home telling me that there's been a rainstorm. But the situation was still under control, thank God. Yesterday, Batman told me and Boss Noy about how he found his son. I wanted to cry then. It was sad, maybe because I've heard enough of the story that I could feel for him. I'm happy for him. Now, I hope he could take better care of him and work harder as he has more responsibility now. In a way, I care about him. He has become a good friend. Despite his recklessness (and I'm not?? Doh!!), he has a good heart. He suffers long enough. It's time for him to change for the better. Yeah, easy for me to say. :p

Apparently, am not in the mood to write today. But I'll try to improve it somehow someway somewhen. Halahh... Bye, peeps...

Seven Pounds and Push

Today, I watched Seven Pounds and Push. Both were good movies. Seven Pounds, starred by Will Smith and Rosario Dawson, tells about Tim Thomas, a rocket/aeronautics scientist conning as an IRS agent. He took the credentials of his brother, Ben, who was the real IRS agent. He didn't actually con his target with bad intentions. On the contrary, he was testing them to know whether they were good persons and deemed worthy of his organs donations. The plot was a bit slow, but still it still managed to stir my curiosity and kept me in my seat. Overall, I give it an 8.


Push is lighter and full of psychic actions. Interestingly, it reminded me of the Heroes series, just in a less complicated version. Kinda like having a part of Heroes and a part of Pretender. But I like it. Dakota Fanning has been my favorite actress since she was still a small child. She's a genius in acting. Her role in Push is as a Watcher who can see the future. But the future can change, depending on the actions and circumstances of the people involved. Together with Nick the Mover, Kira the Pusher, and a few other psychics, they fought against a government agency who had developed a drug that could enhance their power but at the same time having a fatal effect. Find out about it in their website.

Ciao...

Tante Bengal & Lil Bengal eh Bangbag

Hari ini dari pagi sampai siang main sama Lil Bangbag. She's the cutest, sweetest, loveliest, and most adorable kid ever. Well, she takes after me, of course. Tadi tumben-tumbenan dia gak mau digendong susternya, nempel terus sama gue. Sampe makan pun gue yang nyuapin. Tiap hari aja kayak gitu kenapa, De? Suka sok jual mahal deh sama tante kamu sendiri...

Bangun tidur, Lil Bangbag dengan percaya dirinya langsung berdiri dan jalan ke arah gue. Sempoyongan? Jelas!! Jatuh? Tiap 4 detik... Udah kayak Drunken Master gitu pokoknya. Rambutnya berdiri semua di 1 sisi, mata sipit belum kebuka total, tapi senyumnya maksimal. Aiiiih, I love you so much, kiddo... Akhirnya sampai juga dengan selamat setelah menempuh jarak 1 meter tersebut, hihiiy... Langsung deh njeprok di pangkuan gue. Gemes banget, gue ciumin dia abis-abisan. Tapi ternyata oh ternyata, dia cuma pengen ngacak-ngacak keyboard dan mouse gue... Kampreeet kamu, De!! Kirain deketin gue dengan tulus, ternyata ada maksud lain toh. Hiks... Padahal Tante Bengal cinta kamu setulus hati loooh...

Tadi mama kamu bikin 2 kuncir pohon kelapa di kepala kamu. Trus Tante Bengal tambahin juga pita yang diikat kayak bandana. Heran, kadar keimutan kamu gak ada batas maksimalnya ya? Ampun, De. Tadi waktu Tante Bengal suapin kamu puree pisang, sebenernya Tante Bengal gak tahan, De. Abis rasanya enak banget. Sampe Tante Bengal nyolong 2 suap loh. Kamu gak tau kaaan?? Makanya kamu dibalikin ke suster biar pisangnya gak diabisin sama tante kamu ini. Maap ya, De. Kamu sampe nangis-nangis gitu. Tante Bengal tau kok, dibalik kejualmahalan kamu, sebenernya kamu juga sayang pada diriku. *ngarepdotcom, de...*

Udah ah, Tante Bengal mau mandi dulu trus siap-siap gaul sama Tante Menik & Tante Kucil. Dadaaaah...

'Singing' Starlight

Gue lagi tiduran kekenyangan tadi sore, mendadak Batman ngajak jalan. Tapi dia lagi nunggu adiknya pulang, gantian pake motor. Sementara Alv pengen banget jalan sama gue hari ini, yang akhirnya gue tolak. Mulai muncul perasaan gak enak sama dia, makin sering gue bohongin. Gue hampir tiap hari nebeng pulang sama Batman, biarpun cuma setengah jalan. And it was totally innocent. But I can't talk about it to Alv. So I lied, again, and again, and again... But what the heck. I'm still doing it. If that makes me a bad angel, so be it!!

So, I went out with Batman, and enjoyed it to the fullest. And believe it or not, we spent the time mostly by singing, not 'singing'. Even though I did sing Muse's Starlight with his thingy inside my mouth. From the beginning to the end. And he tasted good. And he felt good too. He was so turned on and at last successfully jacking inside my mouth. According to his confession, that's the first time he ever experienced it. I definitely rock, man!! :D

Well, I'm so sleepy and tired now. I'd better get to sleep. Tomorrow is another day. Good night, peeps.

Have Fun Sampe Pol

Hmm, I didn't have a chance to get online yesterday. I woke up at nine and got ready to go to Menik's boarding room to pick her up so we could go to our friend's wedding together. I couldn't even play Car Madness first. *Sigh*. I didn't even have breakfast. So the minute we arrived at the reception venue, we were like dogs being unleashed. We tried almost all the food in the stalls. And they all tasted good. Praise to the catering. :D

When it finished, we went back to Menik's place to change clothes. There were me, Menik, Kucil, Talia (Kucil's best friend), as well as Hun (Kucil's on and off boyfriend). After that, we hung out at a recently opened donuts chain in Pejaten Village. Not too crowded, and comfortable enough. I had a large glass of Americano. It was nice. I loved it. And of course donuts. *booo, cerita hari ini kok garing banget ye?*

Hhhhh, enaknya abis makan. Wekekekekekek... Sekarang baru deh mood gue naik. *Halahh*. Pokoknya hang out berlima di JCo *yaaaahh, kesebut juga deh namanya!!* mpe gerah. Menik and Hun went out for a smoke. We watched them from inside, and seriously, Menik's style was hilarious. We couldn't stop laughing at her. Seneng-seneng, leyeh-leyeh, dll. Kucil udah tiduran dengan merdekanya di sofa, mpe ketiduran beneran, dengan rambut masih dikonde and masih full makeup. Gue masih nunggu penampakan anehnya untuk muncul di Detikcom. Bayangin dong foto Kucil dengan headline: Makhluk Betina 9 Dimensi Ditemukan di Daerah Jakarta Selatan. Wekekekekekekek...

Meanwhile, muncul ide untuk ngajak anak-anak lain nyodok di salah satu tempat bilyard di Buncit. Kunti dan Yuyu setuju. Kita ke rumah Kucil dulu untuk ngambil baju dia. Sambil ngontak anak-anak lain untuk ngumpul. Akhirnya, begitu sampe di venue, udah ada Kunti and hubby, Cimit, Naboy, Buto and wife. But the last two gak ikutan main, soalnya istrinya Buto orangnya jealous abis. Ceritanya kan dulu Buto naksir Kucil, sampe ngejar-ngejar banget, dan sekarang Ny. Buto gak kasih suaminya untuk berada di tempat yang sama dengan Kucil. Wakakakakak... Perusak suasana banget deh tu orang. Maap ya, Buto. Tapi kenapa siy lo cari bini yang gak bisa diajak ngumpul sama kita juga. Malah jadi jauh gini kan??

Pas udah mulai main, Cimit dan temennya dateng. Trus akhirnya ditambah Mama and Papa. Jiaaahhh... Semalem semua personil lengkap berkumpul. Senangnyaaaa... Norak banget deh mainnya. Cewek-cewek main 1 meja, main bola 8, 3 lawan 3 pula. Gaaak kelar-kelar. Yang cowok aja udah main 10 seri, kita masih belum masukin bola satupun juga. Huahahahahaaa... But we had great fun, for sure. Diseling foto-foto dan berpolah berlagak gila. Seru-lah pokoknya!!

Rencananya anak-anak mau pada nginep di rumah gue, tapi akhirnya bubar. Even si Menik pun gak mau diajak nginep, padahal udah bawa perbekalan tuh. Mereka bubar duluan, sementara gue, Mama, Papa, and Joe nerusin main sebentar. Joe baru dateng and masih pengen main. Trus tercetus ide untuk karaoke, padahal udah jam 1 pagi tuh. Ya sok wae laah... Meluncur deh kita berempat ke Inulvizta. Pol dah seneng-senengnya semalem. Lagu-lagu yang dipesen sama Joe kocak smua. Trus Papa pesen lagunya Linkin Park berapa biji gitu. Ooooh, I'm ecstatic!! Akhirnya bisa nyanyi LP dengan merdeka!! Cihuuy!!!

Pulang jam 4 pagi. Bau rokok. Badan lengket. Mata sepet. Tapi hati senang. Thanks, friends. Luv you all...

03062009, 11:09 pm

Long weekend ahead. Planned to have the gals come to my pad. So far, only Menik had said yes. Tomorrow we're going to attend the wedding reception of Kucil's best friend. Then we'll decided what to do next. Batman and Bos Noy took me for dinner of Sop Kambing at Apin. We agreed to make a new community on Facebook. The bottom line is, it's for happy people. :D

These past few days, I've been spending time with the guys at the event management division. I love it. Feels like I'm back with the guys in my previous workplace. Hahaa... Today was cool. I spent the afternoon there with Batman and Doyok. It was hilarious. But Batman and I were also able to sneak a couple of little touches or nudges in between. Batman smelled so good it made me horny. *Sigh*. Meanwhile, he kept on baiting me to drop my schedule tomorrow and go out with him instead. Sorry, pret. I can't.

Fought with Alv again. I was hard on him. He was being too emotional and insensible and that made me so fed up. At last, he was the one who apologized and tried to make peace with me. I'm so sleepy now. Let me make it up to you on tomorrow's posting. Nite, peeps. :)

Smoking Session with The Gals

Went out with the gals last night. We hung out at a fast food joint near Santa. Actually, it's kinda a weird story. Well, I asked Camper to give a lift because he'd said that he was going to Buncit area. He agreed. Then we left office on his motorbike. On the way, he asked me if I'd have liked an early dinner. Of course I said yes. I was so hungry, only had Indomie for breakfast and lunch. He took me to an Ayam Taliwang warong in Panglima Polim. They made good chili sauce. I liked it. I think I would take my friends there one day.

Then I accompanied him to a movie equipment rental in Buncit. The place was shabby, but they had good quality cameras, lightings, audio, etc. Even That TV also rented from them. After that we parted ways and I continue to my meeting point with the gals. On the way there, I stopped by a few minimarkets, looking for some Esse Menthol. And I didn't get any. None. Nada. Zilch. Huuuuhhhh...

At last I arrived and met the gals. Soon we chatted and laughed. We had a good time, even if Kucil was getting cranky because she badly wanted to smoke. But she felt restrained because there were Kunti and her hubby. Hahaaa... She even asked me to start smoking right there and then, but I said no. Sorry, cuy. Wekekekekekek... When we successfully made Kunti and her hubby went home *aww, so sweet*, instantly Kucil and Menik started lighting their cigarettes. Menik didn't like my cigarette much, but we couldn't get any Esse menthol anywhere. She stopped smoking. Out of charity *jiyaaaahhh* I offered to went out to buy another brand of cigarette that she liked too. So I did it, all the way to the tukang rokok I was poured by a light rain. I'm still not feeling good now. Headache. That's how much I love you, cuy!! Wakakakakakaa...

The conversation got deeper. I only told them about Camper and Batman. The rest of the time I just listened to what they had to say. It was enlightening. Who would have thought that we would talk about marriage and religion, whether love in marriage is important, why some people don't want to get married, etc? We might have different points of view, different understanding on love and marriage, but we could compromise and talk about it without fighting or debating like other fools do. That's why I love being with them. :)

Now, I'm going to try finding the friggin Esse. Wish me luck, peeps.

Batman, wait for me, please. I need you tonight... ;)

Warna-Warni Awal 2009

Gue lagi chatting sama Menik dan Kucil. Rencananya nanti malem mau ngumpul di salah satu fast food joint di deket Santa. Ajakan untuk Kunti masih tentatif. Hahaaa... Jujur, gue jadi merasa gak asik untuk curhat2an kalo ada Kunti. Dan untuk ngumpul bareng dia sekarang, gue jadi rada kagok juga. Susah deh. Gue yakin dia sekarang udah lebih terbuka dalam menyikapi gue, Menik, dan Kucil. Tapi sekarang justru gue yang pesimis. Heuhh...

Dan sekarang pun sesi curhat colongannya udah dimulai. Dimulai dari cerita kejadian kemaren, gimana gue ngabur dari kantor dan 'karaokean' sama Batman, trus sorenya sempet berduaan di ruangan gue sama si Camper. Hawanya udah beda loh tuh anak. Gue baru nyadar, pantesan aja dia semalem chattingnya ngajakin ngampret gitu. Trus pulangnya gue dijemput Alv. Sehari bersama 3 cowok, dan gak ada satupun diantara mereka yang apparently nice persons. Which made me questioning the level of my angelicity. Istilah baru tuh!! Cateeet...

Dan dari situ, muncul kesadaran (tenang cuy, gue belum insyaf kok!!) bahwa akhir2 ini hidup gue jadi jauh lebih berwarna. Ternyata tahun 2009 ini adalah tahun kejayaan buat emosi gue. Moga2 aja jantung gue kuat. Hihihihihi... Yang tadi gue list ke Menik:

• Konflik sama Alv.
• Ngampret sama Batman.
• Prospek sama Camper (sett dah, kayak nawarin asuransi aja!)
• Tawaran peep show dari Yaza, yang kalo gue terima gue harus siap ngampret sama dia juga. *geleng2 kepala*.
• Slack sama Kunti. Like I said, pertama kali gue bermasalah dengan temen, apalagi sahabat.
• Marah sama adik gue.
• Ngaku dengan tenang ke kakak ipar gue kalo gue sekarang ngerokok, biarpun only as a social smoker.

So, I get a feeling that 2009 is the year of Bidadari Bengal. She will prevail this year. Yeah, right!!!!

Bengal & Batman Again

I upgraded my SIM card this day. I thought my cellphone was damaged, but it turned out that the SIM card was the problem, not the handset. Stupid, but at the same time also lucky me. Hahaa... Batman took me to the GSM centre after lunch, then we stole time to go to karaoke. Only one hour. Bengal colongan euy... Mantaaaaap...

Karaoke di jam kerja, gilaaaa!!! Bikin makin enak aja. Xixixixixi... Maap yaak, bukan gak mau cerita, tapi gue juga bingung sih. Soalnya pasti isinya standar banget deh. Yang jelas gue cuma perlu satu kata untuk mendeskripsikan ekstra-kurikuler gue dan Batman tadi, yaitu:

ENAK!!!

Flash news: Camper asked me out just now. I'm chatting with him at the moment. Jeez, I knew it!! He's got a split personality disorder. That must be it... Whenever I meet him in person, he always seems proper, nice, lempeng deh pokoknya. Tapi kalo chatting, ancuuurrr!!! Ternyata dia punya jiwa bejat juga yang tersimpan di salah satu ruang rahasia di dirinya. Halahh bahasanya...

Kalo mau jujur, sebelum kenal Batman, gue udah duluan suka sama Camper. I thought he was a nice person. And we clicked. But then I found out that he's already had a girlfriend. So that's it. And now... He still has her girlfriend. And he's just asking me out. As in 'out'. Out as in Batman's style. Seriously... Good God!! This is really happening. I'm swamped with offers these days. But none of them are proper. Aura gue gak mungkin segitu bengalnya kan??? Bingung jadinya.

Physically, I'm not what you would see as who the guys were into. And conversationally, I'm a klutz. I'm not a people person. I'm boring too. I don't know why they want to do this. It's weird, really.

And all of a sudden, Camper asked me whether I were in my room and naked now. Gubraak!!! Barusaaan banget tuh. Kacau deh. Gue kok dipancing? Gawat euy... ;)

Early March Rant

I didn't go home yesterday. Stupidly, lagi2 gue kebawa ke rumah Alv. Sempet berantem di jalan, jaket gue sampe robek ditarik dia. Bangsat!! Gue rada males untuk ceritain kejadian kali ini, tapi intinya siy gak beda jauh sama yang dulu pernah terjadi. Ngerepotin!!

I'm so very sleepy now. Still waiting for AdidasMan to come for the meeting. He's ill, but he said he's still coming. Guess I should catch some sleep while there's time. And hope for Batman to take me home tonight. I want to forget about last night. And I know Batman could help me to do that. All we need is a chance to be together tonight. Even for just a glimpse. Even for a little physical touch. Even if it's only holding him on the way home. Simbiosis Mutualisme, pernah denger kan?? Mungkin itu bisa terjadi malam ini.

Sekarang gue mau cari tempat buat telentang bentar. Daaah...

Kabar terbaru: meeting's cancelled. Going home now. Bye...

03012009, 09:58 pm

Menik, Kucil, ternyata si Batman ada di kantor sebelah. Gue meeting sama bos dia juga. Tapi dia gak ikutan, cuman nungguin di kantor itu. Sayang aja gue janji pulang sama Alv, kalo gak kan at least gue bisa bareng Batman biarpun bentar.

Eh, gue musti ganti nama kali ya. Instead of Bidadari Bengal, kayaknya Bidadari Binal lebih cocok deh... Xixixixixixi...

03012009, 05:15 pm

At last, Bidadari Bengal, Menik, and Kucil are back in Citos!! Starbucks again... I kinda miss this place. Hahaa... Just the three of us, some Esse Menthol and Light, now with an addition of Dunhill Light. As usual, I have my Grande Skim Cappuccino with an extra shot. It's blissfully great.
They put some great music outside. Some acid jazz tunes that I haven't heard in a long time. D'Sound, Incognito, Brand New Heavies, SMOMA, and all those great artists. Feeling deja vu. Like I were back in college. These are my basic music style. But almost none of my friends are into this kind of tunes.

At the moment, we're waiting for Cimit. She's already on the way. But I'm about to head to my office to continue yesterday's meeting. Then I'm meeting Alv. He's cranky and keep on calling asking to see me.

By the way, I'm so happy. My brother bought me a new phone. A Nokia 5310. Music music music. Yeah, baby!!! I just need to swap my SIM card to a new version. :p
Luv u so much, bro. You're the best brother in the whole wide universe!! Now I'm going to chill with my gals. Bye, peeps...

Yaza and His Tempting Offer

Last night, when I was facebooking, I heard my phone ringing. I ran to my room to get it. Yaza called. He asked to meet me, but it was already past midnite, for Pete's sake!! So we just chatted. He asked me if I would have liked to watch a live sex. *%!#^%@$!@^&$&!!!*

"What the fuck??!!!" I was astonished.

"See, I have this friend. She's totally exhibitionist, and she gets the high when there are people around watching her doing it."

"Is she the one you bang in Puncak that other time?"

"Oh no. This is one of my office worker. I once had a quickie with her. Only once."

"And..."

"Well, I watched her one time, but I was alone. And I thought of you then. It would be a blast if we can watch together."

"You only want someone to fuck, Yaza. And you thought of me? That's sweet..." *Sarcasm mode on*

"Aww, come on, babe... You don't get this kind of offers very often, right??"

"You mean the live show? Or the sex?"

"The live show, Bengaaal... Come oooon... We can go next Friday. What do you say?"

"I'm sorely tempted. The problem is, I'm swamped with work. I can't even have a day off this weekend. But if I can make it, I'll let you know. OK?"

"Sure. Now, I'm already naked. What should we do about it?"

I sighed, "Fine, fine... Touch me, babe...", and then I sighed again.

And so the phone conversation suddenly got even hotter.

What a great way to end a Saturday night. For a semi-jomblo, that is...