Our Son? Huh?

There's something happened yesterday regarding Batman and me. It's all through SMS. It started just like usual. Just saying hi and being perverts. Hahaa... In the afternoon, it was raining like hell. Then a couple of hours later I asked his whereabouts. He was fishing.

"With our son...", he said.

I thought I was mistaken, so I just let it pass. But fishing, in the rain?

"No, it ain't raining anymore. I'm taking our son fishing so he'll be happy."

Okaaay, so I wasn't mistaken indeed. He did say 'our son.' I smiled sheepishly, imagining if we're really together and that the kid were really our son. For the life of me, I couldn't do it. Hahahahaaa...

"Did you just say OUR son, Batman?"

"Namanya juga usaha. Siapa tau lo nekat mau buy 1 get 2..."

No offense, Batman. But for now, I don't intend to be serious with any man. We continued texting. But the point is, I got a feeling that he was digging me up, baiting me. He gave a notion that he sensed my rejection then. He wanted to have a feel if there's a future in this relationship. But then I had to say, what relationship? Isn't this one of those Hubungan Tanpa Status (HTS) thingy? And now it made me worry that he would commit himself to an exclusive relationship with me. I don't want that, yet. With anyone. And would you realize that one of my main concern is his son? What would happen if he had a set of parents that were never home? I know I'm straying, but that still makes sense, right?

Batman, you really need to get to know other women. Don't let me be your one. Much as I got closer to you, I still don't think it's a good idea. Even if it looked like a joke, that's not your kind of joke. I know what you're doing. :) Tapi moga-moga aja ini cuma gue yang kege-eran yak. Tapi juga moga-moga gue gak ketulah ntar nih. Fiuuuh...

I'm comfortable with our situation now. I know he needs a woman soon, who can be his mate as well as a mother for his son. But if he even considers me to be that, I guess I would have to break this HTS thing. I like him, a lot. Shit, it's so not him. I don't want it to end now. Does that make me a selfish woman?