Bengal & Batman: Off For Good??

Batman and I are off. And I think it's for real now. I made a mistake of making fun of him. We were joking like usual, but maybe I was too way out of line. Too many factors to count in and he decided that we were off. And I don't want to push him. Even if I don't want it to end now. If he couldn't accept my apology, so be it. I just hope that this wouldn't ruin our relationship in our office. The risk of being in an intra-office sexual relationship, when something like this happen, you also might ruin the situation. I hope we're mature enough not to let it happen. I think I can go through with it. But I'm not sure about him. Having a tough and traumatic past like his...

What I can't tell you, I'll say it all here, in my private and secret blog.

Batman, in all the time I've known you, I'd like to think I know you well enough. Even though this relationship is not something serious, but I really enjoyed it. You gave me something to think about, something to anticipate everyday, something to make me smile. I'm not in love with you, nor I want us to have something deeper. But I hate our situation now that we sort of break up. Well, we can't say that we had a real relationship right, only sorta, hehe... I want us to go on the way we were. Maybe I'm selfish, but you made me forget Alv. You made me able to tolerate Alv. This is wrong, I know. I used you, but you also used me. It went both ways. But fair is fair. I can take it. Why can't you? You're a guy. You're supposed to be the jerk, right, babe? :)

I digress. I started to care about you. Care enough to put your feelings first and support you when you have problems at work. I can't help it. I like you. But if it's still not enough, maybe you're the one who's having problems. Come to think of it, I gave more than I took. I'm not counting anything. Sorry if I seem ungrateful. Oh well, maybe it's time for me move on to another direction. With or without you, I'm perfectly fine, Batman. I love being with you, but not so much that I have to sacrifice my pride. It worths more than our secret relationship. This is not goodbye, because I don't want us to cut it all just like that. Let's act maturely and be our usual selves at work, yeah?

I love you, my friend. And I'm not discounting any chance for us to get together again. It's all up to you, now. Peace, babe...